joyful always

zzz!

2011-08-12T18:41:00.000+08:00

超级的不爽~~~
平常都没有什么意见，甚至有时我还问，有没有问题，结果回答都是~erm，很好，没有问题~~
但突然有一个所谓的美女（读作霉女）讲话时，这些男生就一边倒，突然觉得她讲的很对，就说有问题。。。
(#$)#$*)#U^(^*)$

grumbling

2011-06-20T02:11:00.000+08:00

sometime is jz tiring to put a mask on ur face to face all these people...i found that, most people only think of them self, no longer put others feeling and position first anymore...some even trying to put their own standard and ways on others...
terrible...i just hope i do not need to face such people all the time...lurking inside the house...hah!!

anyway, just grumbling..been long time never pour somthing inside out already....

fanfare for the common man

2011-05-14T17:46:00.000+08:00

while driving, heard bout this song...
a song written in response to the US entry into the second world war...
only realize we usually unknowingly heard this song in tv on anything related to second war world~
enjoy =)

tired.........

2011-05-12T22:34:00.000+08:00

im tired...exhausted frm within~~
lots of thing happened i guess, in my mind~
i guess is been quite some time i didnt spend time alone for myself~
time to keep myself away frm everything for a while?
haha~
bt most depressing stuff is cming frm school~
is kinda hard to make a decision to quit~and after make tat decision, it is still quite hard to hold myself together~i love the students, yet some of the students i wish i would nvr need to teach them~i love teaching, yet some circumstances make me do not like to continue at thr...
i guess i need to take some time to heal frm such ...wound....
such struggling cost me to used up all my energy, making me literary exhausted for other stuff, even lost the passion for choir too(doh some other stuff also contributed to it)~~
probably i jz need some(lots) time to rest...tats all~

anyway, enuf grumbling~~~hahaha!!!enjoy the few day of relaxation 1st be4 starting again completing the thesis >.<

I WANT TO PLAY MAPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!i miss all my maple frends!!!!!!!

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要警醒祷告，在这末世时代更应如此~但却看到一些人们把吃喝玩乐排第一，领袖如此，会友亦是，叫教会如何复兴？？心中的悲痛真的难以用笔墨形容~这也难怪一直无法鼓励更多人参与祷告会，领袖都不愿意出席，说做工很忙，但却有时间去吃喝玩乐，甚至带更多人参与去吃喝玩乐。。咳！只能说社会的诱惑是很大的，轻易的把人引诱离开，忘了祷告的重要性~

庆幸教会仍然有一群弟兄姐妹，在忙也愿意以祷告扶持教会与社会，尤其看到教会一些执事们的用心，更让我应向他们学习，很感动听他说，有时间，就一定来，还带一家大小一起来，教会就需要这样的人，不住的为教会与社会祷告，那样才能使教会复兴起来~

truth!

2011-05-10T09:58:00.000+08:00

some people posted a math question online and make a big fuss around the world~~
for few days, facebook wall is spammed with those question attached wif vote~and quite interestingly a huge number of people chosen the wrong answer...

so, does the majority vote changed the truth??certainly not!lets say, u cant say there is no gravity even if more than half of the people on the Earth deny it....so, the moral of the story, majority vote does not mean it is the truth all the time~~

some hard truth is hard to accept and people tend to ignore or deny it, bt it is still the truth, even if most ppl vote against it!

金，火，冰～

2011-04-25T03:13:00.003+08:00

金钱诱惑是很大的～
选择为人师长，在马来西亚是不会赚很多钱的～
有时想，为什么要这么笨，放弃本身的科系前途，选择教育？？
化学工程师，不是讲笑的～
不时听到朋友赚这么多，待遇这么好，出国的出国，出海的出海，有些得到的是我的１０倍，少则也有１倍多．．
想着自己，每天被学生气，被＂上头＂烦与剥削，不禁会让我想放弃教育行列～
内心原本的热诚不断的被这些冰块冷却，慢慢的变为石头般冷酷～
现在，唯一留住我在学校的是，那群学生～
但是，上个星期，连这些学生也将冰块丢向我，再加上朋友的炫耀．．．．．．．．．

我，还可以撑多久呢？？？？
这火炭，还会红烧多久呢？？
那封信，在抽屉里，不断的用“心灵感应”呼唤我了～

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－
有些人还真小气，身为老师的老师，常常叫学生看见师长要行礼，自己却连看老师一眼都没有．．．
难怪学生也越来越嚣张～
看笑话～
－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

我介意，因为我在意～
我生气，却痛在心里～

－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－－

weird~

2011-04-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

i do not understand, why people would like to interfere and spread gossip around?what does this act could gif them?there things which really doesnt concern them, and yet they like to ask and ask, or even give opinion and standard, especially when someone getting in relationship, wad would one have to do wif beside tat two person who getting in relationship??

why would ppl like to set their own standard on who should get together wif who??a beauty is in the eye of beholder, a person doesnt seem to be beautiful to you mayb is an angel to another, so y would sm1 like to comment bout it the criteria and person who to choose to be partner wif???

weird and very weird!

even weirder is....there people who are so proud that would never admit own mistake and ask for apology, but loudly proclaim tat he or she did~

the weirdest of all?
hah, why would some1 wanna discuss about an issue which thr is no room for discussion?and spend quite a lengthy time on it??if there is no room for discussion or way to accommodate/tolerate each other, pls, dun discuss about it in the first place~

if you feel im talking bout you?oh pls, only the person who do it would feel being pierced by arrow~else, u will see it as just another mystery of human behaviour~

望十架

2011-04-05T18:29:00.000+08:00

神圣壮严的十架我常抬头仰望

双目如见宝血倾流为我忍受死亡

望十架为你他被钉上

圣羔羊高挂在木头上

留心看救主满脸慈祥

他为你在十架上死亡

望十架将死亡独生子

圣羔羊高挂在木头上

在爱里他伤心而流泪

望十架他死我得自由

不要离开不要离开

他向你伸出钉痕的双手

当仰望他是完全无罪

圣羔羊高挂在木头上

内心里真感受他的爱

付出代价付得心甘情愿

不要离开不要离开

要仰望十字架

看着他是他代你受苦

圣羔羊高挂在木头上

世上的光今囚在黑暗里

在十架上他身心极悲伤

不要离开不要离开

他向你伸出钉痕的双手

不要离开看他受伤肋旁

不要离开看他在十架上

望十架为你他被钉上

望十架看他恩慈的王

不要离开不要离开

望十架！

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复活节的一首歌

每次听，每次都有很大的感触

看着歌词，唱着这歌

就好像我站在耶稣被钉的十架下

看见自己的可恶，自己的罪

神在十架那种的眼神看着我

这种眼神下，人通常会离开不看

但这首歌却一直说，不要离开

定睛看着耶稣

看他如何为这我受苦

如何为这我牺牲

在这受难节

当仰望十架

思想神为我们做的那牺牲

为了拯救这将他钉十架的人~

some wondering~

2011-04-05T17:47:00.000+08:00

finally there time and energy for me to scribble around here...hehe!
been thinking bout a issue lately.. corporal punishment in sch~does this outdated?barbaric?non humane???hmm...

saw a magazine which ultimately reject corporal punishment, a student magazine which every student haf full access to it, inciting the student to say no and stand up against corporal punishment~read on article in newspaper where few people debate with each other for a span of few days on the topic...
so, wad is the final conclusion on this issue??no idea~~posted on facebook status but no teacher would gif their opinion on this, nor the students and friends...

personally, i think corporal punishment should not be banned...why??you asked me, doesnt it inhumane and barbaric??i think not if being administered wif responsible and care...

those irresponsible who beaten until bruises and wound, or even worse, death (which coincidently just happened yesterday in a religious sch) should ultimately end up with punishment themself of cox!

just look at the kids today, unlike previous generation, where they do not really faced the corporal punishment from school nor home, instead being pampered and treated like kings and queens~
unlike previous generation, they generally do not respect teachers and elders, expecting everyone also treating them like kings and queens...if you donno, the way they respond to teachers and elder, the way they treat wad teacher asking them to do, is really terrible...evidence??

for example when i asked a student to stand up and answer a question, the 1st reaction they gif and say is *loudly* WHAT?! or smtime in chinese or dialect 做什么？？！ zo ma gai???they nt even bother to stand up smtime until u asked them~
or asking them to pick up rubbish, they could turn their back on you, even if you know the rubbish is belong to them!
some even challenge you when u try to punish them for the mistake they make...
or walk so close to you and put their face so close to urs, as if they are mafia and trying to intimidate you...

respect?gone!dignity?gone!who to blame??teachers?schools?parents?systems??no idea!
for wad i know is...even if u touch the slightest on these students, u get into trouble...or to some cases in recent years, even scolding is unacceptable!!there are sign whr homework is also a no with the excuse tat they having a lods of tuition and classes after sch...

tat is why i still support a restricted use on corporal punishment~even doh other method is encouraged, punishment smtime muz be given as last choice....for the sake of the students~human doesnt learn from goodies and reward all the time...bt most of the time, from pain and sadness too~~

爱

2011-03-14T01:35:00.000+08:00

能握着你的手，撑着伞，慢慢的走在雨天路上~是那么的幸福~

孤军作战？

2011-03-11T00:01:00.000+08:00

我觉得我知道为什么我会那么累，那么没有力气~
看见周围的人，一个一个的离开，剩我一个人孤军作战，很伤心，完全的失去士气在继续面对这群可爱的学生~~~纵然我对教育有很大的热诚，但是在这种情况下，完全提不起那种力量继续走下去，不懂可以撑多久，没有了这群朋友的在旁的一起奋斗，不知我可以从何得到那动力去面对上面与下面的战场 =(

整天，坐在办公室，就是死气沉沉，没有心情，完全不懂该如何说出这种感觉~

“残障人士”级电话

2011-03-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

我的电话变成“残障人士”了~~除了接电话，什么都不能做~~~伤心！！！！！！
=(!!!!
本来出去前还好好，哪里知道，突然间什么都不能按，除了号码和拨打与挂电~~
除非有电脑，要不然信息是不能看，不能回复~~不过至少还可以让我上网~>.<
笨笨的电话！！！

还是很伤心啊！！亏我那么善待它！！！

考试与考卷~~

2011-03-06T01:09:00.001+08:00

今天虽然没有上课，但是却还是要回去学校‘坐’，觉得很废，很浪费时间~~结果就带了耳机，一边听歌，一边改考卷，其他老师说我真的会享受生活，我直接-.-|||，其实如果每天能在学校一边听歌，一边改簿子，备课，真的是很幸福的，不过，应该会直接被叫到校长室训话吧~~~

改完了考卷，虽然学生成绩不是很好，但是，给我还算满意，因为我大概了解他们的程度，不能强求~~
不过，有几个学生，真的让我出乎预料，根本没有想过他们能够考的那么好~~太高兴了~~希望他们真的以后也能那样好~~~
其实，教了大概2个月多，有些学生，真的让我觉得很可爱，很喜欢去他们的班，有一些者让我很讨厌，很不喜欢见到他们~~不知不觉，我是对一些学生有偏心，因为他们真的懂得怎样体谅老师，并很懂事，另一些则真的让我觉得很无助，很想帮他们，却不知如何下手，更伤心是他们没有想过要帮自己，只懂在班上，不是睡觉就是干扰整个课室，完全没有那种心要学习，更不用说会进步~~

监考时，看见很强烈的对比，前面班的同学，会努力去做，后面班的，考试才进行10分钟，他们已经趴在桌上睡觉，没有选择的题目直接放空，没收考卷时，他们反而更开心（因为可以名正言顺的睡觉）。。。真的让我想，为什么他们会没有那份毅力，那份motivation呢？？到底他们为什么会那么快放弃学业，放弃成绩，放弃自己呢？？
*要努力寻找那答案*

我很期待学校假期！！！
从来没有那么期待过！！
放假！！！！！！！！！
原来老师比学生更期待假期~哈哈！！

personality test

2011-02-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

human is a complicated creature...as i study personality psychology this semester, this is even more obvious...or in another word, u wont be able to find 2 exact similar personality human in this world~as i try to observe ppl around me~each of them are unique wif their thinking and style, wif diff degree of acceptance and rejection toward a certain occasion and issue~some who dun even care wad ur opinion are while some aways follow the other ways, some like to haf attention on them while other always stay away frm the stage light...anyway, im a unique human either, every1 is unique as this is wad GOD created us for~each wif diff specialty and weakness, to help and love each other, and to worship and glorify HIM~~

doh thr is no specific type of personality for a person, the personality test is a gud reference and indicator for a person in most of the occasion, a tendency to behave like tat...tat probably is the free will tat GOD gif us, or else we would be like a programmed robotic machine which couldnt act freely~

for assgment purpose, did an on9 personality test (no idea hw valid it would be), obtain a result which is quite similar wif my style and thinking in most occasion (as thr always exception)....ISTP according to MBTI~wads tat u might ask, GOOGLE IT!! XP

1 thng for sure, even doh i study such subject, thr is no way i could guess wad a person is thinking bout, unless tat person willing to share...recently my frend ask me why i could guess wad is she thinking about, i could only explain tat i know her well enuf, as she willing to share certain thng wif me, and unknowingly allow me to understand her more, beside of the facial expression tat could gif more hint and clue~

in conclusion, human are complicated!!hah!!

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extremely worry->pls pls pls get well soon!

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hypermarket!

2011-02-15T11:26:00.000+08:00

usually i do not haf any particular feeling toward hypermarket~bt yesterday incident really let me haf a bad impression on a hypermarket, and feel good on another hypermarket~~
y so?
as yesterday been walking and buying stuff at sutera mall, yea, now u knw which one im talking bout~i took a 'bottle' of chewing gum~jz beside the paying counter while queuing for my turn~
when finish checking out the stuff, suddenly i found price discrepancy on tat chewing gum~a 50cents difference on the price tag at the shelf~gosh, tat is a big amount for a hypermarket!of cox i could easily cfm it and point out as it is jz beside the counter~
so i ask bout it~and they insist on the higher price shown!!oh my!!if i could go on wif it, tat would be cheating customer!!!the 1st time of bad impression on a hypermarket~~
as i remember, when i shopping at jusco, if price discrepancy occur, they always honour the lower price tag, happen twice to me in jusco, and they always keep tat policy and promise~~
so ppl~dun shop too much at tat particular hypermarket at sutera mall!!hahaha!! XP

生日快乐？？

2011-02-09T23:13:00.000+08:00

有人跟我说生日快乐~啊？？什么？？我的生日还有大半年才到勒！
原来~~初七是人日。。。
hmmm。。。我一直在想为什么是初七？什么故事呢？？
肯定不会突然间那么的决定吧。。
不过不管什么故事，我只知道，人的‘生日’应该是第六天~
神创造人是在第六天嘛~~
所以，初七不是我的生日，也不是人的生日~

不过我也在想，第六天和第七天那么靠近，会不会以前华人也知道，神创造人是在第六天，只是计算的方式有差别，所以变成第七天~然后因为人们慢慢忘记那真正的原因，不懂那真实的创造故事，才沦落到今天的情况？？纯粹的乱想巧合罢了~
哈哈~讲回来~神的创造自有神自己的时间与安排，是万无一失，是个事实，万物都应将称颂荣耀归给神，因神是那伟大的创造者

=)

book hunting~

2011-02-01T01:13:00.001+08:00

hehe~went to trinity book room 2day~
as cnyear is around the corner, the traffic is really hectic...cars everywhr, and is moving like snail~~
a 30min drive end up wif 1 hr journey~
bought a book, which kinda suitable for christian in sarawak, where we did nt really exposed to chinese traditions and belifs~i would call it, chinese traditions for dummies..LOL, of cox tat is not the real title >.<
searching for english version bible too bt the available stock thr doesnt really interested me~
of cox i went thr nt only for books and bible, actually wanna buy smthng for sm1~i did found wad i wan to buy, bt 2 bad i think would be a waste, as i didnt really ask properly 1st for that person preferred colour -.-|||
-next time i should ask bout the colour preference of the person 1st be4 i buy smthng...haha

goin bac to kanowit 2molo, gah, wonder this time would haf proper internet connection or nt~or else it would be like goin to jail.......
ok~HapPy CHinEse New YeaR EverY1!!!!=)

2011-01-27T19:51:00.000+08:00

holiday~~a boring holiday indeed...

i wonder why, i start to feel, too much holiday is a waste of time??

nvm tat....jz some crapping after bored for almost 5 days >.<

miss ppl bac in johor, doh i knw most of them also went bac for their holiday too...

anyway, sitting at home, do nth, is really killing me!no1 to go out wif, or talk wif...smthng tat i really didnt like...

couldnt do much either..hehe!

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quote(s)

2011-01-17T00:08:00.000+08:00

-prepare for the worst, hope for the best~
-你以为最酸的感觉是吃醋吗？不，最酸的感觉是没权吃醋~

emo

2011-01-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

even if im surrounded by ppls..
even if the noise and chatter filled the air..
even if the busy-ness overwhelmed me...
i found that...
im still ever lonely...
walking mindlessly...
where no one notice...
which no one even care to hear~

izzit so hard to find sm1, who willing to listen, attentively and wif care??

hmmmm

the battle

2011-01-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

seriously i need more time to rest!!!

the tiredness slowly gona overpower me...
i do not know hw long i could hold on...
as the fatigue slowly seep away my strength...
even the time is in the same alliance with them...
together they gona try their best...
wearing me out be4 finally took me away....
i only wish for a place...
where i could rest and rejuvenate...
regain my strength and continue the fight~

new year...new start

2011-01-05T23:35:00.001+08:00

new year...a bz one...
becm a student is hard, bt becm a teacher is even harder!
a lods thng i still do not knw how..and feel vry...zzzz!!!
the system is different frm goverment sch, and it is vry much influenced by politics issue~which i dun really like
afterall, education institution should always independent frm politics stuff~
anyway~is an opportunity to gain exp for future =)
i jz hope i knw how to teach language subject~personally still prefer science and maths more~
language subj is jz nt my specialty~
anyway, i still like teaching vry much minus marking students' hmwork -.-|||

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i know smtime im too much,
i know smtime im not reasonable,
but
is becox i care a lods bout you,
becox i scare i would lose you~

2011-01-01T10:48:00.000+08:00

HaPpY New Year!!!!!!!!!
haf a joyful 2011 and my GOD bless you abundantly in this great year!!!!

to those 2012 Apocalypse believer..HAH, 1 YEAR LEFT FOR U TO SURVIVE!!!mwahaha
*evil laugh*

anyway~brand new year, brand new things!

[notice]

2010-12-27T23:48:00.000+08:00

i remember i nvr put any name in this space, nor mention any place~~~

and im wondering how could ppl refer anythng here to names....doh i couldnt care more~

i know smtime i would vent some of my anger here, bt im careful enuf not to put any names here, i could mean any1 in this world~~be it in johor, singapore, kl, penang, melaka, pahang, sabah or sarawak...or mayb even australia, america~~i knw a lods ppl and i could refer to any1 frm any place in this world (the power of internet)~~how could u be so sure im referring a person frm the place im living in??

IF sm1 smhw read through those post, and feel offended, tat would be weird...

usually ppl wouldnt care much if they didnt feel wad written is related to them...much less feel offended...you only will feel angry/offended reading my stuff IF u really fits all the description i put in, rite?

SO, if u feel offended wif anythng i written here, u should think whether u really DID anythng i written, instead of blaming me defaming you, or havin a grudge wif you....a reminder doh, i nvr put any names or places

a chinese saying for such situation-对号入座～

and btw, this is hw i prefer to vent thng out, instead of keeping everythng inside me till i gt psychotic, or confront the real person and make a fight...also i nvr invite any1 to read anythng frm here~so, u could, freely and happily, ignore this page till the end of the world!

kites!

2010-12-13T01:14:00.010+08:00

2day passed by a park, and i saw a spectacular view~a lots of kites flying above, and thr a lods of cars and ppl around the parks too~i wonder izzit a kite flyig competition is goin on..

nevertheless, the view, where so many kites flying, and a windy evening, really make the day feel so relaxed~if nt becox im rushing to smwhr else, i would surely stop by and enjoy the view...

if only i could be a kites, flying on the winds, and let the wind blew away all my thoughts...

decided NOT to say anythng, voice anythng, be anythng, think anythng, do anythng, be a ZOMBIE!

Narnia!

2010-12-11T01:20:00.001+08:00

went to watch narnia 3, the voyage of the dawn treader~really enjoy this movie, compare to harry potter 7, this movie is much much better!!the storyline is well elaborated, and also wif cool animation, except in the end, it could be a little bit more dramatic, hehe~since the writer of the story is C.S. Lewis, a known christian apologist, the story is also closely related wif christian doctrine~well, it portray those indirectly, it is easily missed if u dun really understand Christian doctrine~

this time, as usual, Aslan, is the parallel of Christ, and they keep mentioning bout Aslan country, which i belif is potraying heaven
Reepicheep life and the character he haf to enter Aslan country in the end
the transformation of Eustace, which he did mention he couldnt change no matter hw hard he try, bt only through the help of Aslan (he turned into a dragon due to his greed)~which i belif is potraying sin and redemption~
in the book, they found Aslan to be a lamb 1st, before transformed into lion, both symbol of Christ, and in the end, asking them to know him by another name, vry tricky part..haha!

anyway, is a vry cool movie and u should watch it urself!!!a must watch movie!

MIA

2010-12-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

haha!!being MIA!!until thr ppl nt used to it and asked~so, whr haf i been?haha!bz becm baby sitter!!!oh, of cox not, is bz helping in lifegame~yea, i becm a volunteer in a lifegame, not ordinary lifegame, bt Jr. lifegame~~

its fun, its exciting, and yet vry tiring too~managing kids is always one of my fear, and thr 80+ kids running all around!!bt still, it still a great thng to be able to serve GOD in this special way, teaching kids~~lifegame itself is a vry interesting game, bt teaching and explaining it to kids require a great deal of skill and patience, plus answering all kinds of weird question and control their behaviour~well, u see, if u dun control them, they will end up fighting and running all over the place, disturbing others and creating even more chaos~

while required to wake up 6 and bz until midnite, bt i still feel vry joyful when doing everythng~serving GOD has nvr been so fun!!i hope i haf another chance to do this in d future~

1 thng im kinda shock is, the ppl who org this lifecamp, or our camp manager, start asking me wad do u like to do...in a vry weird expression, i answered, in what?like singing??he feel funny and say, no, in future, u wan to be wad~and asking wad im study currently and stuff~~

ltr he told me tat, im diff frm other, diff in term of teaching the kids~doh im nt sure wad he meant in this, bt im happy tat he say he could see the passion of teaching in me, thr nvr been sm1 agree wif my way of teaching~it nvr been so encouraging for me to go on along this path as all this long, thr non been vry agreeable wif me leaving engineering field wif high pay for an education field!of cox he did tell me, teaching profession DO NOT haf high pay~bt im happy wif it~of cox im nt intend to tell any1 bout this, as i knw, thr non for me to share the happiness truly, thr smthng more i observed and felt bt i would jz kept this in my heart~

anyway, i think volunteering for lifegame is vry fun, exciting and could let me learn a lods~and reinforce wad i felt last time i joined this lifegame~

p/s: if u stil dunno wad MIA mean, MIA=>missing from action, meaning ur not appearing smwhr for quite a time, be it on9 or sm other activities~

frm my point of view~

2010-11-30T00:53:00.001+08:00

genreally, ppl seen playing computer game as a bad thing~blaming those game is the reason of falling grades, withdrawal frm social, if on9 game is the concern, den extra issue such as virtual world frend is nt real frend even to the extend as dangerous, wasting money if the game require subscription fee, and ultimately wasting precious time!hmm...thr truth on those accusation, no doubt, bt izzit gaming is such a bad thng to do?

of cox excessive gaming bring hazard, bt for me, gaming isnt tat bad totally~
wad?defending gaming cox i play game?haha, yea, if u wan to put it tat way~

well, to an extend, i learnt quite a lods english through playing games, yes, as most game is written in english and reading is always a great way to improve..
withdrawal frm social?nah, especially if on9 game is the concern, if u didnt realize, the on9 world is the social nw~
u cant make a real frend through virtual world??wrong!i gt a lods of on9 frend, which i find they are vry sincere and certainly more sincere than part of my real life frend~

well, 1 thng be4 accusing playing game is bad, for those who didnt play game, is always addicted to watching movie and drama, which is equally bad as playing game if u compare the 'bad' both activities bring~

当你在讲一个人‘中毒’与电脑游戏时，自己是不是也‘中毒’与电视连戏剧呢？？？
y?haha, cox i dun watch drama, but play computer game!! =p
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一个团队，如果有人在这个团队的活动进行一半时离开，那这个团队还有什么意义？尤其是当重要的活动在进行时？当你委身于参与这个团队的事奉时，不是就要牺牲自己在这团队期间所碰撞到的活动吗？？
回去见朋友？参与自己的活动？或者不回去就是不孝？很好的理由！早知我也提早回去~
这次，我真的是很失望，很没有动力~觉得我做错决定了，一时的冲动，真的会带来失望？哈哈！我只能取笑自己天真的梦想~
既然自己已经决定了，就做好自己应该做的，多余的就不必理太多~

失去~

2010-11-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

当我不再多问，不再多理的时候~
那表示我已经失去那热诚，失去那颗心了~
当然我仍会做我应该做的，尽我本分该做的~
但是别希望我会多那份主动，多那份细心~
因为我已经失去那份希望，那盏火焰~

捉住一个人的心，并不是起初的那份感动就足够~
你还需要付出更多，要不然你到最后还是会失去他的心~

=)

christmas come early!

2010-11-22T03:08:00.000+08:00

been sometime nt updating agian?haha, nt i haf nth to write, bt i nt wiling to write it down, well, 4gt bout tat~let me jz write a few thng around~~

been to singapore again, walking around...is quite some time since last time i went thr~guess wad, is christmas mood everywhr thr~u see christmass tree, christmas carol, christmas sale, christmas deco...i like the mood, after all is my fav season....even doh they jz start to putting up all those, i can feel the festive mood already, compare to msia?hah, i dun think msia celebrate it much except christian...well, at least my church at johor start havin christmas tree deco already, bt i doubt it will last as fresh till the day, due to poor finishing job, some of the deco edi start to falling of the wall, *awwww*...still, im anticipating a lods on the christmas!

hmm, whr haf i been at sg tat day?walk around vivo city, den to city hall-esplande-marina bay, den novena for ice cream be4 went bac...and i dunno is a gud thng or bad thng, i ate at subway for the 1st time and str8 away fall in love wif it...hehe!!is jz...BOOOM!!of cox nt the apple chips, gosh, tat is yucky for me...dun like the chip texture at all...stil the subway 'sandwich' is jz super tasty~

den when cming bac, i saw the ugly side of malaysian~as the next day is public hol, thr tons of msian goin bac their home, through kranji~the queue is ..wow!frm 1 end of the station to another, waiting for the bus~~den i saw them scrambling up the bus, pushing every1 away, jz to get onto the bus...ignoring the elderly, ignoring the weak, the mission is, getting up the bus at all cost....end up, me and my frend reach the station when no ppl around, and we missed 3 bus...terrible!!even the bus driver shake head at these ppl~shame...

nvm bout tat...i stil enjoy the walk, accompany by 1 of my gud frend...haha!is fun~

thr quite a lods of thng happening around here anyway, which most i dun really like it~doh is nt my concern to say, and thr thngs also been vry discouraging for me, thrashing on my faith and heart...i do nt wish it to happen, bt i jz couldnt help it~i hope it dun keep att me and crumble me, i knw i couldnt hold on much wif this thng keep attking, as my only def against it is praying to GOD for help~1 thng i could say, envy is a vry evil stuff to meddle wif, others hostile stance and remark toward u is also an att tat nt easy to bear wif
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cmig week will be facing my last 2 paper, hope it goes well =)

a memory~

2010-11-11T00:40:00.001+08:00

因为你，今天我才会去到教会
因为你，今天我才会有那么稳固的信心
因为你，今天我才会服事神
因为你，今天我才会关心人（虽然还不是很会啦）
因为你，今天我才会有勇气在人面前讲话
因为你，才会有今天的我
要不是你对我的关心，栽培，鼓励，我相信我现在肯定是另外一个人了
虽然你不在了，我相信以后在天上，我们必定相遇~
谢谢你~在你的生日，也特别的想念你~

translation~
becox of you, i went to church non-stop till today;
becox of you, i haf unmovable faith on my belif;
becox of you, im able serve GOD whole-heartedly;
becox of you, i start to caring for others (doh still learning bout it);
becox of you, im able to stand up and speak in front of ppl;
becox of you, tat wad i am today~
if not of ur caring, teaching and motivation, im a total stranger frm wad i am now
even doh u r nt around us anymore, bt im sure, in the future, we will meet agian in heaven~
thank you!as 2day is ur birthday, miss you a lots!

成功的定义？

2010-11-07T16:55:00.000+08:00

每个人的成功定义不同。。
我的成功定义不是赚很多钱；
不是有个可以很常出国工钱很高的工作；
不是有很高权位地位；
不是成为很出名的人；
更不是有个美丽的女朋友/老婆。。。

我的成功定义乃是能够好好的服事那独一真神；
能够好好的为神建立一个神喜悦的教会；
能够好好的奔跑那已经为我预备好的路！

你可以看我为没有志气，没有梦想，
但是我看这一切为虚空，看为捕风~

所以，不要一直将你们的成功定义加在我的身上！

the path

2010-11-05T16:48:00.000+08:00

looking forward is the way,
lurking in the past wont help,
clinging on it only bring disaster...
everything in GOD's hand,
believing HIM that everything HE prepared,
is the best and the only way,
worrying on HIS prepared path is extra,
as everything HE directed us,
is nicely prepared and readied for us...
so go forth,
in the name of GOD,
for HIS glory,
as GOD is my only love~~
=)

发泄，闲人免进，内有咬人的pikachu！

2010-11-04T01:22:00.001+08:00

今天要在这里发泄一下。。。不要管太多！也不要去猜！

我开始看不下拉!我本人本来就不太喜欢太张扬的人，那就算了，加上很多话的，也就算，话多做事却一大糊涂，我是完全不能接受了！到处拍马屁，让后什么事都做不来，又严重的没有时间观念，大难临头也不懂，又不服责任，更不懂礼貌礼仪，每次都需要别人善后，然后从来没有吸取教训，几年了没有变好，只有变本加厉。。。。话说DISC，我C的人本来就是不喜欢I的人做事方式，但是也不要让我那么反感吧！其他I的人，甚至可以吸引我，令我欣赏，但是你却让我只有一个感觉，越看越反感！观察了那么久，不但懒惰，很多事你也不去做，好像一个公主，大小姐那样，别人忙着准备，打扫，清洗，我肯定你一定会跑掉，然后在别处有废话一大堆！不是我夸张，我观察了很多次，每次都是这种情况！

没有针对谁，自己对号入座我不管~

忍住自己不要正面冲突，所以在这里发泄~
发泄完毕，跑人！

rain in midnight

2010-11-01T02:35:00.000+08:00

staring into the night,
wondering
how the star and moon
behind the misty cold curtain
that engulf the land,
while the trees enjoying
the symphony of the water;
and the birds lying low
in their warm nest;
im pondering into the darkness
searching for the place
where i belong,
once a while
a spark i saw
i thought it was the place
but disappointment followed,
i could only go on,
trying again in the shroud
under the mercy of cold and wet
but pressed on,
hoping to find the place
where i could rest
warmly and cosily
in the cold harsh night

birthday!

2010-10-28T01:24:00.000+08:00

hehe...24th bday jz past~~~cool day, well, the weather is cool too!!!
starting wif the kidnapping of me frm my room~gosh, u should see the photo!i really feel like being nabbed by some terrorist, and heading for a gallows!!and they really surprise me as i didnt expect them to appear in my room...nvrtheless, i enjoy it...haha....so happy and touched that they do it for me~~who are them u ask?well, quite a lods...achi, roger, kai zhen, carol, cecelia, mim mim, cny, ande, ah chai, xiong liang, 3kelabu, alvin, fishy, jia jia, ran yan....did i miss out any1??they kidnap my spec too, so they cast me into the world of blurriness...

den whole day replying the wishes on facebook...i guess nowadays ppl use fb more than hp msg!!most of my frend use fb to greet edi...including the belated wishes, tat would be 181 wishes on my fb wall, and thr some use 'tumpang wall post' to greet me...gt spammed..so i dun think i could name every1 of them here as i dun think i could find bac the 1st few post anymore...bt THANK YOU ALL for it~*feel so blessed*...

den havin lunch wif dear sis ah chai at sushi king..haha, is been a while eat a meal wif her edi~so feel so happy!smore celebrating my bday~~end up she gave me a pillow, comfy huggable pillow...haha!until the new car arrive, it will stay at my bed..XP blek!!!THANKS A LODS TOO!!!!love ya!=)

wad else, ohh, celebrating wif my cg~even doh disappointed couldnt go out eat, bt im still happy as every1 of them celebrate it for me...hehe, my cg is always so adorable and warm!!!love you all too!!!minus the part when they being evil bullying me....haha..wad?of cox they evil!as they bullying such a cute adorable and kind little pikachu->me!

guess tat would be my bday for this year...i feel glad for everythng, and praise GOD for givin me such a lovely frends around me, and of cox the breathe till 24 years old and still counting...well, im nt the glamour ppl around, bt im happy when few of my close frends can remember and celebrate wif me..tat would make my bday perfect edi!who are them?well, u knw if u r one~~ appreciate it a lods!

LOVE YOU ALL!!<3

updates for recent days

2010-10-26T02:27:00.000+08:00

finally have the time to update~
choir concert turn out to be successful!!after a whole month of extra practices, planning and worrying, every1 able to do their best, using their voice and sing out loud to our GOD~i hope every1 do experience the love of GOD in the process and also learn smthng new, nt only in singing skill, bt also spiritually...so, this conclude this semester activities, and time for next year planning...

hehe...now is 26/10, 1 day away frm my birthday~expectation??erm....didnt really expect anythng doh...jz hope that no1 will pull a prank on me...hah, halloween is around the corner, ppl do funny stuff during time like this!u nvr knw!thr so many crazy ppl around....bday wishes??doesnt really trust this stuff as it nvr come true?haha!well, jz for tradition, yea, jz wish for smthng bt...i wont tell you wads tat!hehe!waiting to get spammed in fb wall anyway...it always happen...would compile it and write it here after the day, jz like last year...talking bout halloween, frend proposed to haf a pt during tat time, i hope it would happen cox is fun!haha!

anyway, its cfm that next year i will start teaching, in a private sec chinese sch...teaching english at equivalent of form 3 and form 4 in gov sch...frankly, kinda nervous cox i dun haf much experience and knowledge in english...afterall, my english language is not tat gud either...*blaming msia edu system*
ohya, if u do not know wad cfm, it is short form of confirm, or in this case confirmed...uh?cox ppl always ask me wad cfm mean when i used it!

and, exam is around the corner bt i feel nth bt holidays!!!!

who to share?

2010-10-14T01:13:00.002+08:00

usually when u have a vry happy news or joyful event happening on u, who would u share wif?loved one?family??friend(S)?

i found it vry hard to share a happy event wif ppl around, be it ur frends or any1 close to you...
y??i nvr know they would see my 'happy event' as happy for them...i nvr knw wad they felt when i told them...happy for me?envy??jealous??or even disgust or hate??
ya..u would say, this is y the header of this page is called joyful always, place whr i could put my joyful event here (of cox it include not joyful one)...

well, bac to the topic..done some 'acid test' sharing my happy event to certain ppl..most of the reaction i gt, as i can see frm their face, is not really a 'happy event' for them-be it does not concern them, or they feel im showing off, or even jz jealous/envy of it...there ppl even reply me, y u tell this to me?wad u wan me to do??or jz a simple word-'so'?of cox there some ppl who try to show interest, and mayb out of social norm, ask hw was it and some congratz, bt i can see frm their face, they dun feel it tat way...
wait, i can do face/emotional reading??well, i guess most of us heard this be4 "u can tell lies wif ur words bt nt ur face"...unless u really know hw to conceal it, usually ur true feeling will be shown clearly at ur face expression...

so, i reached to a conclusion, dont simply share ur happy event wif any1, unless, tat person is really a gud true frend who feel happy and joyful for wad happening on u, wifout any envy and jealous...sound pessimistic??haha, i guess this is the world now...ppl usually care more about themselves, everythng centered on ME instead of others...others 'happy' or 'sad', as long as it doesnt affect ME, will be ignored...this apply to almost all frends, and shockingly, frends frm church too...

anyway, im still feel happy for myself >.< who care wad they think bout it...i knw is a blessing frm GOD and also a trial frm GOD...it could really test my faith to the limit..balancing between financial gain and spiritual gain..gosh, i hope i could keep on wif wad im stand for all this time...prayer needed =)

in the end, if u really really wanna know wads tat happy event i felt bout, haha, u should ask personally...as i said i reached a conclusion for nt simply sharing good and bad news wif every1...mind you, if u jz wanna knw and after tat treating me as showing off, i would knw easily...a true frend is hard to find, so appreciate him/her if u found 1...
for now, i would keep it to my heart....

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wif the thng happening...suddenly i feel this suit me...

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

to the sky!

2010-10-11T01:12:00.000+08:00

totally fall in love wif two song frm owl city
vanilla twillight and to the sky~~
like the music, the instrument, the lyric and also his dreamy sound...haha

guess such relaxing music is really needed in time like this...at least a space to take breathe...i wonder if every1 being pushed too much, or is jz becox the expectation is set too high and not achievable...no matter which, i fear it would turn out badly and it would be a big failure...i guess no1 would like to see that...no, i dun even dare to imagine it....
so, i can only pray, and more pray...that GOD would lead us through these critical time...
i do not know, izzit every1 is demotivated?or jz couldnt understand?or is the 1 i dun wanna belif, no1 would take it seriously??hmmm....
bt i hope no matter hw demotivated it is, hw hard it could be, or hw un-seriously it is, is only 2 more weeks!!get through it and all will be over....
i belif, if we really put up the hard work, do our best in every effort, even if the outcome is not as gud as 1 might wan it be, it would still a sweet end....which im sure GOD will bless us abundantly!i belif tat every1 had try their best....and we jz need more prayer, and more faith!!
yes, we could do in through HIM, our mighty GOD!!!
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month of october, month of memories...
bt these memories i wouldnt wan it to crop up...
mixed feeling...mixed emotion...hah...
4gt it!face the future!!!

'Cause your flight is about to leave,
And there's more to this brave adventure,
Than you'd ever believe

lesson learnt

2010-10-09T01:32:00.000+08:00

today is quite a meaningful day, for me....

i realize, when i decided to stop my pace for a while, and look around...i found out that, hw cm i would stuck in the whirlpool of immatureness?
hw cm edi 20+ years old ppl, would fight around like kids of 5 years old??or compete for who is the better like 10 years old???forming gang like 15 years old???gosh...i need to think like 20+ years old ppl (wif a childish heart and cuteness of cox, =P)...
is jz like the scene in lifegame...for whole life, i bz wif studying, earning to make end meets, bt when everythng is finish, every effort and work, becm nothingness, burned jz like tat...for the whole life, wad i do would be meaningless...
so decided to stay above the conflict, nt caught in the conflict...of cox it doesnt mean to be ignorance till the house is on fire and im still sleeping soundly on the bed...

2nd thng had learned is, thanks GOD for struck me again be4 i lost the direction...again, suddenly i realize, hw could i go astray so far frm the road??it jz didnt come to my mind that it would be so easy to be attked by satan, and yes, is a spiritual warfare, when we decided to serve GOD wholeheartedly...so close, that im edi lost and forfeit the fire in the heart; so close, that i lost the clear direction who am i serving; so close.....
thank GOD for hitting me, be4 i put out the step which will fall into the canyon of darkness...
and once again, i goin to serve HIM wif burning heart, forsake all the meaningless squabble, and united wif 1 heart (not the 1malaysia stuff) in JESUS....

3am in the morning

2010-10-08T03:23:00.002+08:00

time like this, is the time to get emo again, no idea why late nite usually make me emo....

there a lods of weird weird idea, weird weird thinking running through, every second...sometime when havnt finish understand it another thing flashing through the mind again....which prompt me, is anyone really understand what im thinking?heh, smtime i do envy those who haf a best frend beside them, who can understand each other vry well, who always being together doing smthng (not talking bout couple)...well, mayb im too seclude to myself, mayb im always deep into my own thought tat no1 could talk wif me?

is vry ironic, that i could fairly guess sm1 thinking and behaviour, bt i dun think thr much ppl could understand me bac...human generally doesnt like other knw oneself too much as it would make one feel defenseless...

smtime when thinking a lods, my frend told me tat, is time for me to get a gf...hahaha, talking bout this, i do make me fear of it when looking at my couple frend situation...having a gf, izzit it will affect my life, surely it does...would this gal understand me?would she know wad and whr my priority lies?wad if i put smthng else more important than her?and as im nt a humorous, non romantic guy, would she leave me if thr sm1 better than me pass by her??hw would i please her?see those gal always post " xxx numbers of thng a bf should do article", is like, whoa, hw could i manage to please a gal???wad would happen if we fight???*remembering long time ago i would nt able to sleep if this happen*
*shrug, better dun think bout it*

anyway, today been kinda crazy...went to cinema alone, and watched a movie alone, smore the whole cinema virtually is me alone also...special vip??hah, cox i went for a show at 1215pm...watched legend of guardian-owl of ga'hoole...not bad actually, doh it didnt live up to its full potential on the plot...the graphic and scene are epic doh...and i like its theme song...found out is by owl city-to the sky...*highly recommend it, the song i mean, well, the movie aint tat bad either*

thr a lods of thng goin on recently, kinda tired me out...truthfully, didnt look fwd for friday like be4 anymore...shouldnt say too much on this, anyway, i knw whr my burden is and i would stand up my responsibility as long as GOD wan me too...i jz hope the burning heart would not extinguished jz like tat...

ok, i guess enuf of emo-ing, time to sleep!!!
BED and PILLOW, HERE I COME!!!!ops, sorry blanket, almost 4gt bout you too....

the month of october

2010-10-05T02:37:00.000+08:00

entering the month of october...manz, my favourite month...haha, largely due to its my birthday month...and also the doorstep to year end holiday...

well, wad to expect frm this year october???gosh, i guess it would be...episodic??this year october would be one of the most busiest month of the year, as church choir concert is planned on 24/10...beside, its always exciting waiting the birthday to come, doh this time i wish to go through it peacefully which is jz right after the hectic choir concert, mayb disappear myself to sg??haha...wad to wish this year?well, i do not haf any idea either...also looking fwd is election, not talking bout sarawak election, which is probably end of the year or early next year, ah, 4gt bout tat, im talking bout election in church...actually i largely 4gt bout it edi until last sunday is being mentioned in prayer list...election of (under)graduate fellowship and also choir...wondering wads the outcome of this year, of cox bear in mind that everythng is in GOD hands...

hmmm...wad else to expect??halloween??haha, tat is of cox as thr would be an event goin on in mousehunt...yes, im still playing this facebook game and im still vry into it...kinda exciting when thinking bout it too...event always make ppl go hyper, aint they???

of cox october also bring up old sweet memory tat bury deep inside my head...which the sweetness had fade...especially at the time like this, is quite easy to being emotional when thinking of such thng...nvm bout it, it a history afterall...human need to learn frm history and grow up, rite???

mind u even doh im goin 24, im still young!!hahaha!!!wait, 24 edi??gosh, tats fast...i wonder, if this year i could...........hmmm, everythng in GOD hands and i belif HE edi prepare for me...hehe....

yay!lets celebrate october!!

convo!

2010-09-29T01:33:00.000+08:00

finally, its convocation day!!!
it feel great when wear the convo robe...like ur in harry potter world?haha, it does haf the similarity....its a sign of achievement and proudness when u r eligible to wear it..when u walk into the 'great hall', u really feel the difference...

anway...should dedicate this to-my parent, my family, my frends who willing to come and attend it!thanks for the gift too!doh i dun think i would ever use some of it...bt tats nt the point, i appreciate every bit of it =)
oh ya, i feel that, out of 4 years, UTM student will sing UTM song two times..once during their orientation week, where they haf no choice bt forced to sing, 2nd would be the time during convocation ceremony, where they sing whole-heartedly...

admit the happy moment, there sm disappointment deep in the heart, bt i guess i would keep this disappointment deep inside my heart...hehe, as the joyful moment are better to be remembered...

to all my frend who grad, HAPPY GRADUATION AND GUD LUCK FOR THE ROAD AHEAD! =)

以福音为耻？

2010-09-20T11:16:00.000+08:00

对一个课题，我一直觉得很矛盾，很奇怪，也很不明白~

我被教导，不要以福音为耻。。这句话，是保罗说的，不过，真的能不能做到这样呢？？
不以福音为耻，只是关于传福音罢了呢？？还是包括我们基督徒的身份？？
很常我们基督徒做一件事时，就会想别人接受的了吗？？他们会不会觉得我们很奇怪？？我们会不会太极端？我们是不是要配合他们，不要那么‘基督徒’？他们接受的了我们赞美，敬拜我们的上帝吗？？一直讲耶稣他们能接受吗？？

如果那样的考虑，会不会是我们已经以福音为耻了呢？？？为什么身为基督徒的那么不敢现出基督徒平常在教堂里面做的事呢？？这是以福音为耻了吗？？我不懂。。

我记得，这世界是属于魔鬼撒旦的控制，那着表示这世界是与上帝，与耶稣基督为敌。。。那身为上帝儿女/子民的基督徒，也自然而然的与这世界为敌。。。既然这个敌对的关系存在，有可能我们怎样做，会被这世界所接受吗？不管我们怎样的考量这世界的‘接受度’，不管我们怎样配合，这敌对的关系始终还是敌对的关系，魔鬼不可能因为我们比较‘俗世’一点，就会接受我们基督徒在这世界上，不可能~因为这世界是永远不会接受我们基督徒的。。

但是，如果我们整天口里讲耶稣，讲上帝，给人看我们怎么敬拜，赞美，讲不属乎世界的东西，我们有担心与他们有代沟，那又会导致无法向他们传福音，保罗也说过，在怎样的群体中就作怎样的人，那这个底线又在哪里？？我不懂。。

我们基督徒在社会，在世界的底线是什么？要放胆传福音？要考量他们的接受程度？很矛盾啊！！zzZzZzZzzzz......

chorale camp

2010-09-12T20:38:00.002+08:00

is been so long im touched by songs...its not easy for me to feel wanna cry when listening to some song...bt yet, it happen yesterday, during the concert in the chorale camp....

this chorale camp again is a blast...so much i had learn...not only the technic, but also the attitude when serving GOD...i learn to be humble, which is somethng vry important~wifout humble, thr nth else u can learn as u always overlook ur own weakness....

beside, rarely i see sm1 whu is so passionate and so particular wif music quality...i saw the frustration when the music is spoiled, even if is jz tiny weenee bit...i guess if we are having regular practice like in choir instead of during a camp, im sure we will gt scold like the end of the world...

anyway, this chorale camp really a great camp...i nvr regret when participating such camp, as i could learn a lods, instead of normal camp which only go for fun and enjoyment...thr only thng i really dislike about the camp, well, couldnt really blame the org as is not in their control, is the air-con!!ITS FREAKING COLD!!!other than tat, everythng is excellent...i hope next year i could join such camp agian...

the feeling of practicing hard, and finally perform it out, is really a joyful thng to do...some more we perform not for entertainment of ppl, bt is for GOD, this make the difference...i couldnt find anythng more joyful, more satisfying than serving GOD in music...and thr really a passion, that raising awareness, building up and helping my church in praise and worship as well as choir...even doh i knw im nt qualify to do so, bt i will always improve myself, so tat 1 day, i could do this...especially my church in sarawak, smtime when i see it, is really heartbreaking when music/praise and worship ministry is being treated like that by every1...

i duno if any1 could see the picture, that when every1, every christian is praising the GOD, worship HIM through music, through chorale, is really beautiful, like wad describe in bible, that in future, we would 4eva praising HIM and worship HIM....

music is the most beautiful way to express our praise and worship to our GOD...is always the most beautiful thng, that u could gif to our almighty GOD...i hope every1 could look seriously in this, as wheneva i see, i heard ppl doesnt really care bout thng like this, it really anger me, or i could say, really disappointed and sad wif it...every1 should gif their best to GOD, instead of do it for the sake of doing it, or jz out of pure enjoyment, or for popularity!

glory to GOD~

Elijah!

2010-09-03T02:24:00.000+08:00

hehe...time to update update a bit...
been leaving this poor bloggy for quite some time edi =(

anyway...last week is the best week eva!y?becox of the two concert i attended...nt pop sing concert of cox!
the 1st is some sacred song concert...really nice and cool, doh a lods of the song i do nt understand as is in italian, i guess....
the 2nd, yet the best so far in my life, Elijah oratorio....is really really really awesome!!
also is the 1st time entered singapore esplanade...really cool and amazing place...is really a place which rich wif art and culture....thr random ppl performing thr, cool scenery and atmosphere, and nice food....
nvm bout those, the main point!the oratorio!!is really so cool til i cant describe wif word alone!!its like, like, watching a movie!!a movie bout life of Elijah....the scene and picture, it jz appear in ur mind while listen to them!

hard to belif eh?

anyway, apart frm tat, the bass solo-ist, is so handsome!haha!
now, i had listened Elijah, St. Paul both by mendelssohn, Creation by haydn...thr 1 more epic oratorio that i mz go when i haf the chance!messiah by handel!!i wonder when i wil haf the chance...*wait wait wait wait....*

事奉主？还是？？？

2010-08-24T01:13:00.000+08:00

一个人不能事奉2个主，不是恶这个爱那个，就是重这个轻那个，你们不能事奉上帝又事奉玛门~

人为什么去事奉玛门?因为人的忧虑...耶稣讲了上面的话,就告诉人不要忧虑...为何忧虑？因为小信，对神的信心不够~所以才会去依靠那看得见,有保障的钱财~

人放不下钱财因为人对生活有许多的忧虑，这忧虑就是不相信神的大能~

圣经不是说，耶和华是我的牧者，我比不至缺乏吗？？还有，你是我的主，我的好处不在你以外吗？？

但是，人就是不相信上帝的预备，连基督徒也是一样，不相信上帝就是他们的产业，不相信上帝能解决他们的困境，不相信上帝在未来已经丰富的预备了．．．

这样，人就会靠自己，用全部的精力在投资，理财的事情上，也就是想尽办法赚更多钱，希望能累计更多财富。。。他们找投资专家，理财高手，找可靠的公司，寻找高薪的工作，完全只看那玛门，因为财富是平安的保障，稳定的依靠～

这就是事奉玛门，你说你有参与教会，尽心事奉～当需要牺牲，背起那沉重的十架时，就有诸多的借口，不愿为主付出更多～生活的喜怒哀乐也常常系与钱财上，做任何事，第一都考虑钱的，就是事奉玛门，就是重钱财轻上帝～

对许多人来说，信仰犹如菜市场，需要时去购买就可以了，更不会为其付上一切的代价。。。保罗将耶稣基督看为至宝，将万事看为粪土，尽一生之力为要得着基督～

当洪水以前的日子，人照常吃喝嫁娶，直到挪亚进入方舟的那日；不知不觉洪水来了，把他们全都冲去。人子降临也要这样~~

记得昨天慧娴突然打电话给我，邀我去ｉｖｃｃ听个讲座。。。原来是巴生杨牧师来，讲关于末世宣教的一些课题～要谢谢她～～牧师说到，有５个大爆炸～

第一，就是人口大爆炸，历史以来，没有一个时间比现在的人口增长还要快，而且能住的地方就差不多都有个人。。神赐给人类２大使命，第一就是繁殖众多，遍满这地，看来这个大使命差不多要完成了

第二，资讯大爆炸，从来没有那么多的知识流量。。。也通过这个，神给我们的第二大使命也快完成了，就是将福音传至地极，现在在世界哪个角落，都可以上到网，得到一些资讯，连深山野林也能，只要能够连接到太空的卫星就行了。。。你认为时间还没到吗？？福音还没传遍天下吗？？你要记得，并不是说所有人都信主才是传遍天下！！！

第三，.......不记得了＝．＝｜｜｜

第四，天灾大爆炸，这个每天都可以看到，地震，火山，台风，土崩，战争。。。。。

第五，地球大爆炸，也就是神再来，废去这地，再造一个新天新地～～～

牧师从但以理书来看末世预言，说道许多都已经应验，尤其是当以色列复国那一日起，许多圣经的预言，以前看不懂的，现在就能解了。。。

人们现在眼前都是钱，如何赚更多钱，要如何成功，如何得到名利地位钱财，却不知我们的时日不多，所处在末世时期了。。难道地上的财富那么重要吗？？地上的名利地位那么重要吗？？？可不知当那日来到时，这一切已经成为过去吗？？？你认为，神会说，你很多钱，我让你进天国吗？？你很有地位，你可以戴那荣耀冠冕吗？？断乎不是！！圣经说，这一切都是粪土～

你说，我是为生活而烦才努力赚钱，难道你就不相信神会为你预备吗？？圣经也说，你们这小信的人哪！野地里的草今天还在，明天就丢在炉里，上帝还给它这样的装饰，何况是你们呢！

基督徒们哪，警醒吧！！世上的人们哪，警醒吧！！因我们已经处在这末世时期了！！！

宣教一谈

2010-08-15T02:24:00.001+08:00

宣教，一个基督徒应该做的，一个责任，一个使命~~

我们应该去宣教，宣教是什么呢？？简单的一句话，传那天国的福音，引人归向主。。。

对，就是那句，引人归向主~一个真正的基督徒，一个重生得救的基督徒，一定没有问题，因为他们知道，了解福音，并且相信。。。一个人了解一样东西时，自然而然，没有问题的告诉别人。。。

问题来了，那为什么现在那么多基督徒对宣教冷感？或不敢对别人讲福音？？

本身觉得因素很多。。。可能是教会的活动方向，注重于团契与玩乐，可能是害怕讲，面对自己熟悉的人，更难开口，因为怕被拒绝，伤到感情。。。这是正常的，这也是为什么，在去做这事工，需要训练，让基督徒更能掌握福音的要点，面对突发状况，或回答一些难题~~

这也是为什么，参加教会短宣，一定要上宣教课程，了解一些传福音的方式。。当然，传福音的方式有很多，也因人而异，但是那4个重点肯定会有，只是让人明白的方式不同罢了。。。一个人喜欢用个人见证来传福音，就不能说全部人一定要用这个方式，我可以用4个属灵定律。。。而且对不同的人也有不同的方式来传。。。要不然可能会浪费时间，甚至弄巧反拙。。

最近也一直听到人说，utm学生很怕基督徒来传福音，我满脸疑惑的问，怎说？

当一栋楼的其中一个人看到/遇到传福音的基督徒，他们会立刻通知整栋楼的朋友，告诉他们关灯。。。。waaaaa....好像遇到鬼那样！有那么恐怖吗？？？比来做direct sale的人反应更大

-.-|||

要不然就是会说，我不排斥基督徒，但是千万不要向我传福音！要不然我翻脸！

趣闻？不是，我认为是危机！一个很大的危机！什么原因会让他们那么怕传福音的人？？

一个人不会无缘无故对一样事务反感，不会一生出来就对基督徒有抗拒心~不会，肯定不会，

就算一个在虔诚的异教徒家庭成长，也不会有那么大的成见。。。到底是什么原因？

很简单，就是基督徒自己让他们反感。。。可能是在成长过程发生，可能在大学遇到，但肯定的是，是有人让他们反感。。。。可以是生活见证，也可以是传福音的方式，不管怎样，还是基督徒自己的作为。。。

这叫什么？这叫绊倒人！使人拒绝福音的，不是罪吗？？我不知道，我不是神，我不能定人的罪。。。但是肯定的是，使人拒绝福音，就是违背了基督徒的大使命，大责任。。。去年，我还记得，我因为绊倒人，内疚到很久，亏欠了很久，因为我本身，担当不起这个神对我的责罚，虽然没有人会怪我，但是，我心里就是过不去，我相信这是圣灵的责罚，我感受过，除了回到神面前真的忏悔，我怎样逃避就是逃不掉这责罚。。自从那次，我就小心翼翼，不要重复这情况，虽然我不能说我将来不会再作种事，因为我还是软弱的一个人。。。

当你绊倒人时，而且也知道时，还能赞美神吗？这好像说我做了一件美事，值得赞美吗？？不！应该做的是认罪，反省！因为你让一个人离开主，失去信心，或者是你让多一个人拒绝福音，让多一个人沉沦了！神的意愿是不愿意人沉沦，乃愿人人悔改，怎么你可以与神作反对党呢？？这好像是敌基督才会做的事吧？？

你怎能说，当一个人被绊倒时，不是我的责任，而是神的责任呢？？他能不能再站起来，不是我的责任，而是神的责任呢？？我只需要继续传福音，赞美神~

如果是这样，我宁愿不去传，免得我受神责罚，免得我又使更多灵魂失去得救的机会，赞美神？还会有那喜乐的灵来赞美神吗？？还唱的出歌？

如果你能，那你就没有爱灵魂的心了，建议你去找牧师谈谈。。。

在写到这里时，我想起已经决定要参与今年的短宣，其实，本来没有什么意愿要参加的，因为很想回家，想玩maple，哈！坦白的跟你说！但是要谢谢angeline和秀娟，到最后一直缠着我，叫我去。。angeline还更可爱，send给我一整封写“感动”这两个字的msg，还不够，又send一整封的“再感动”这3个字的msg。。就想了想，好像很久没有在圣诞节期间事奉了，开始想念以前报佳音，圣诞晚会，那种努力事奉的热诚再次燃起，就决定，放弃玩乐，参与短宣。。

坦白说，当我挂断电话，后悔的心情立刻出现，现在偶尔还是会那样觉得，因为，我不能在那期间与网上的朋友庆祝圣诞节了，他们真的是我很要好的朋友，虽然没有见过面。。。不说这，现在我还是很常努力压这后悔的心情。。。还是要谢谢那真的很好笑的angeline!

我要做的是得人渔夫，不是使人沉沦的敌基督

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random post

2010-08-10T00:25:00.000+08:00

recently im always tired to the max!!
bz for whole day, really make me feel like wanna collapse any min~bt still joyful for it as im doing wad i like, and for GOD~

today i decided to drop my social psychology, due to the clash of a stupid 30%-worth-of-mark trip and my choir concert...i guess for me is obvious to choose which, as i didnt really consider long for the decision...i hope wad i decide wont end up in bad consequences....i leave this to the hand of GOD~i knw i will regret for the rest of my life if i gif up on this~~

looking fwd to the coming two concert in the end of this month...
27/8 and 29/8
personally, more excited wif 29th as is been a while i go for an oratorio, and best of all is, this time will be at SG, esplanade!!my 1st time goin to a philharmonic theater/concert hall(wonder if it is the correct term)...also probably will be goin and haunt juju thr, haha!see hw she doin at sg...

also, been noticing quite a lods ppl lately, and found out a lods ppl had changed...for the better of cox...feel glad and happy wif them...even if they dunno whu they are...a lods of them edi grown up, and way mature than be4....well, im nt the kind of ppl easily convinced and belif stuff until proofed..well, their action, speech, and thinking is gud enuf to convince me on their changed...i hope they will strive harder, work harder for GOD!!and i hope, really hope that they wont get frustrated or broken hearted when met some obstacle..jyjy!!

to be really random post...
heres a random fact!
Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning.

National Education Philosophy?

2010-08-07T21:36:00.001+08:00

Falsafah pendidikan Malaysia
"Pendidikan di Malaysia adalah suatu usaha berterusan ke arah memperkembangkan lagi potensi individu secara menyeluruh dan bersepadu untuk mewujudkan insan yang seimbang dan harmonis dari segi intelek, rohani, emosi dan jasmani berdasarkan kepercayaan dan kepatuhan kepada Tuhan. Usaha ini adalah bagi melahirkan rakyat Malaysia yang berilmu pengetahuan, berketerampilan, berakhlak mulia, bertanggungjawab dan berkeupayaan mencapai kesejahteraan diri serta memberi sumbangan terhadap keharmonian dan kemakmuran masyarakat dan negara"

Malaysia's National Education Philosophy
"Education in Malaysia is an on-going efforts towards further developing the potential of individuals in a holistic and integrated manner, so as to produce individuals who are intellectually, spiritually, emotionally and physically balanced and harmonic, based on a firm belief in and devotion to God. Such an effort is designed to produce Malaysian citizens who are knowledgeable and competent, who possess high moral standards and who are responsible and capable of achieving high level of personal well-being as well as being able to contribute to the harmony and betterment of the family, the society and the nation at large"

i know all teacher in malaysia require to MEMORIZE this when they go for interview, for recruitment, posting, or i suppose also for promotion...bt i wonder, and im curious, do they understand wad does this philosophy mean?as i stumble this sm whr in faculty, i jz wondering.....wad is this education philosophy is about~~~wonder any ppl could explain it to me and hw our education system work toward it =)

the joy

2010-08-07T12:57:00.001+08:00

hehe....saturday, on9 at church currently, waiting for the fellowship to start, which is bout 2 hrs ltr -.-
nice cool rainy weather, such a nice day to sleep bt end up need to go church early..under the rain....doh occurred a feeling of wanna stay in rm, bt stil force myself here...heavy rain, bt weird i enjoy it..haha, mayb too long nvr play under the rain>.<

anyway, yesterday bee a really really tiring day...frm discussion till choir...bt thr 1 thng i feel really happy bout..is hw ppl really put the dedication and hard-work in learning smthng...frm totally dunno anythng, trying their best to learn, and nw, they can almost do wad they cant do few months bac den!it really gif me the joy and motivation...the joy for being a teacher?hehe...yea...

anyway, stop here, cya next time =)

2010-08-05T10:46:00.001+08:00

finally im bac here!hehe...sry for the mia>.<...
anyway, thr nth much to write too...been bz wif church activity, there smore coming up->friday choir, saturday fellowship + bass guitarist, special dinner for welcming cg jr, cming wednesday outing to kota tinggi....bt vry happy wif all these...hehe...especially working together wif other cg member, 2gether planning, working it out...

of cox i still haf a lods question and doubt on the policy the management ppl make for cg, bt i guess im jz happy wif every1 of my cg...*ignorance is a bliss*

ps: been having extreme bad luck in mousehunt...stupid evil mouse!curse u!!wait till i catch u, i will torture you!!

our teachers

2010-07-28T00:03:00.001+08:00

3rd week of the semester....

everythng jz as usual, except more time is require to do some reading and mayb soon, journal searching for assgment (yea, im still very lazy to start doing it)....currently cutting off myself from facebook and msn, trying this for 1 day...thr 4 hours left be4 i gona reconnect myself bac(the time i writing this post)...hah!of cox, i still read news and blogging, on9...what, u think i can post this blog frm the middle of ocean??

3 weeks, what did i learn?generally, ppl haf vry wrong perception in psychology...dun even mention specific field like educational psychology..since most of my frend knw im studyin edu psy, occasionally they will ask me, whu did u 'psycho' edi, u dun hypnotize me, dun read my mind...the only reaction i can gif is -.-|||

no, psychology is not bout mind readin, not hypnotize, and sry i totally dun understand wad this word 'psycho' mean...so wad is psychology??mayb u should go do some reading at wikipedia (recently im always surfing and reading on wikipedia, purposely searching smthng or jz find random article)..the overview is, edu psy is a scientific field concern with development, evaluation and application of principle and theory of human learning, in educational field...in other word, hw human mind and thinking develop and function....

so i hope next time i wont find myself trying to answer some weird or stupid question!hehe...

talking bout 'stupid' this word...thr occur a discussion in class today....again, of cox, related to teaching profession again(im studying in education faculty, wad do you expect?)...the scenario is like this:

as we studying bout brain anatomy and function today, my lect suddenly ask, 'like we usually say USE YOUR BRAIN, so does we really didnt use our brain?'den, sitting far behind, a few teacher, whu teach like 10 or 20 years or more (1 of thm is almost 57 years old) say, 'yea, when we teach till fustrated, when we scold student, in fact smtime we scold them using word like STUPID, MORON, COW DUNG etc., smtime we dun use stupid cox student understand it, so more complicated word like moron, cow dung as student wont understand...den the discussion on these word continue, which i didnt listen much as i keep thinking on these word and its implication on students...be4 they finish discuss, i heard those teacher say, smtime jz say USE YOUR USELESS BRAIN......

den i feel like...wtcrab, all of u taking education psychology, edi 3rd or 4th semester...still dun understand that these words DO haf implication on student...ya, student do becm naughty, and smtime required some disciplinary action, bt when u scold, the wording use mz be careful...im jz studying for 3 weeks, learning all the psychology theory, and it is obvious to me that, everythng, frm action and gesture to language and word really affect human development...short term mayb be demoralizing to the student, long term may affect the cognitive development of the student...

worse still, when these teacher discuss bout this issue, they seem vry happy and taking joy on insulting their students....i remember one of my lect say, in western country, they dun even use disability this word on their student, they dun even term their student performance as FAIL...saying fail this word is insulting...my gosh...they always blame student for nt understanding and graping the knowledge, bt they nvr realise, when student fail to understand certain thng, is the teachers' FAULT??where they DONT KNOW how to teach the student effectively??

yes, DONT BLAME THE STUDENT when they fail, but BLAME URSELF for failing to teach them!

TEACHERS OF MALAYSIA....

T_T

no wonder the problem in sch nvr get solve, as teacher itself is unprofessional and low quality...epic sadness!

spoiler: this does nt imply on ALL teacher in msia, but im sure that at least half of the teacher would be like this

>>currently trying to compare malaysia education system with singapore and western education system...hope sm1 frm sg can explain hw sg system work =p

teaching profession

2010-07-19T23:18:00.000+08:00

attending class for the 2nd week...thngs rather settle down edi...rushing towards me would be assignment and projects...the class is rather diff than in fkkksa...i do not knw is becox this is master class or becox of diff faculty, ppl rather speak out more than the lect smtime...the ppl attending also frm all kind of age and background, bt most of thm are current teacher, teaching in sch all around johor...there are ppl like me, taking master course directly after degree, frm engineering faculty or education faculty, ppl that frm foreign country, ppl that frm clinical psychology, ppl whu teaching for 10 years+, ppl whu do couselling to prison inmate....thr all kind of ppl...

bt wad worried me is the education system in msia...jz by observing those whu are still teaching in sch, it really make me wondering, hw in the 1st place they can becm teacher, and also those whu are jz graduated wif degree frm education faculty...as they talk, speak and read, it is nt hard to notice they really haf poor command of english...well, im nt tat gud in the 1st place, bt the thng is, they are certainly worse than me..and they are teaching in sch!2day, there ppl pronouce obsessive as obessive, isolation as is-o-lation etc.!can u belif tat?a teacher?read like tat?4gt the pronunciation, thr lecturer whu dun understand proper english sentence, taking the meaning word by word literally, always out of the context....-.-

there are lect whu goin to penalize ppl for using too much english in class, there are ppl whu dun like to use english in class, there are really bad english user teaching in sch, sec sch or primary sch doesnt matter, even if they use bm, the bm they use is also non standard bt mixed up wif their slang...is this the real quality of our msia teacher??hmmm....

teacher is the 1 whu will be guiding our youngs, teaching thm and mould thm into a successful person...it should be the best person whu do this job...bt i guess in msia, is not...mostly is those whu cant get into medical, pharmacy, engineering field, whu left wif no other choice, go for education and becm a teacher...tat is probably y, when i choose to go for master in education, i get all sort of surprise reaction, all sort of 'wad a waste' reaction..or even 'so stupid decision' reaction...does the pay of a job really so important to see a success of sm1??

hey, teacher is not only a profession like doctor or engineer, it is the most noble job in the world...ALL the prestige doctor and engineer, scientist and dentist, they all becox thr is teacher, guiding thm when they are young, inspire them and encourage them to be wad they are today!they are not the 2nd alternative job, certainly not a waste and shameful job!

the mentality of msian teacher should change, listening to the lecture grumbling bout the teacher and sch in msia, i feel really sad...nwadays teacher jz nt dedicated enuf anymore...of cox, not all, bt most of thm...they didnt see thmself as the engineer of human soul anymore, rather than a job goin into class and pour everythng out to the student, wifout caring hw they gona accept those knowledge...not to mention the adminstration, and the political motivated policy....

TO THE CURRENT TEACHER AND TEACHER GONA BE PPL!!
please, remember, teachers are engineer of human soul, not the 2nd class job, not the last alternative, and certainly not a shameful job!teacher, are those whu build and mould our children, to becm a great person, to someone whu 1 day, will becm a great contributor to the nation, or even human race...whu knw one day, ur student will becm president, like obama?becm scientist, like einstien?or sm1 whu would change the course of the world???
if u really think that u couldnt take up the challenge, couldnt dedicated to this job, u really should quit it instead of destroying a future president/scientist/nobel prize winner.....

i hope, if i haf the chance, would be a great teacher, and i hope, every teacher will be proud of wad they are, dedicated thmself to craft the human civilization and every1 respect teaching profession as it deserves =)

envy and dissapointment

2010-07-15T03:11:00.000+08:00

its wednesday(is thrusday actually, bt im still on wednesday cox i havnt call it a day yet =p)...

a bit envy on those ppl whu able to attend SOP concert....they keep updating and posting stuff on fb, making ppl like me really nt feeling so gud...due to classes ended at 7pm, i jz cant make it in time...and no1 would be tat kind enuf waiting for me till tat late...so, i jz missed tat 2 nite of concert...really feel the sour-ish in the heart...
awww......they boasting hw gud they are, hw magnificent the atmosphere is....and i jz couldnt make myself thr!!!!yea yea, i knw u ppl haf a great time thr, learn a lods....bt dun show off pls =p
nvm....get over it....im jz jealous, no hard feeling...

adding to the bad feeling....
finally i met a lecturer i dun really like in fp...yes, u heard that right...i jz haf a bad perception on lecturer whu insist on using malay language...no matter hw much excuse they giving, in the end, they all haf 1 thng in common...they either cant talk well in english or cant understand well in english...this lect also belong to this same group...after much observation on his english, the conclusion, he cant understand well enuf, always get the wrong meaning when ppl asking him in english...even doh he using english slide, he cant explain well, skipping fast through the slide and talking nonsense story...not only that, this lect, even force every1 buy his 'precious' book, of cox written in malay, AGAIN, and this particular book is nt even the main text of the subject....

and smthng i couldnt help to resist 'hating' him, he upheld extremist racial line, exalting ruling party corruption practice, and sort of forcing every1 to agree that malay is the 1st class race and other race as 'pendatang', twisting some of the history fact...hey, i studied history of msia, i knw vry well wad happen bac then!im nt sm1 whu treat history as nonsense and waste of time in sch last time...i read news, mainstream or alternative, and i haf my own view bout wad happening in the country...dun try to feed me wif wrong fact....yea, i can 100% cfm tat he is a BN hardcore supporter...

one thing bout the lect of my course is they are sm1 u can simply meddling wif...they all knw bout psychology, and they knw well hw to counter and convince you to agree wif thm...he put his word so well tat u jz cant deny in the 1st thought...after all, he teaching me social psychology, knw vry well hw ppl think and interact, jz by observing you....no, nt sm1 u can jz simply rebel against....jz for few days attending 1st class, looking and flipping through the notes and books, it gif me a sort of chilling to my spine on wad u can do if u understand wad ppl think and interact wif others...mind control?nah...they could convice ppl relatively easy as they could understand hw u think...

anyway, the final word of the ranting, i dun like this lect....i decided to study into this subj more on my own instead of listening to him and his book/notes...i will get myself a proper english language book and read through myself...

p/s: of cox i need to study on my own for all subj instead of waiting the lect...=p

stupid octopus!

2010-07-12T21:19:00.001+08:00

few day didnt write anythng...hehe
nw im bac to update tiny little bit of life...

yea, finally world cup has ended...spain is the champion, after the cruel 120mins of struggling....last 3 min goal make thm cry!!!haha!doh nt as entertaining as germany uruguay match, bt it is equal exciting and breathe taking!!nvm, those whu dunno hw to appriciate ftball and world cup will nvr understand...those whu will im sure they also watched till 6am in the morning....thr even ppl waving spanish flag after the victory, in msia!!!i wonder whr they get it...im sure u cant buy foreign country flag in msia easily...mayb next time i get myself a brazilian flag??haha!

den 2day also the 1st day of the new semester....1st class...9am...reach thr, class cancel...zzz!!!they should say earlier, so tat i can cont sleep(remember i watch fifa till 6am?)..i guess the lecturer also watchin it tat y he cant make it to the class...lmao!!!
den 2nd class, behaviour disorder...sort of understand and a lods of dun understand...2 much education related term..=( need a catch up on those thng....and even chosen becm class representative...awww!smthng i dun really like much, bt oh well...no choice....bt i still like the subject...hehe, since such topic always interest me, no matter hw hard.....

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anyway, in this world cup period, i found tat ppl kinda vry fond of predicting stuff....a little octopus, a cute little bird, can becm such a hot topic, hotter than the fifa match itself...everytime after the match, i always found this speech, 'whu win???izzit same as the octopus predicted??wow!he so pro can predict!!wad bout the bird prediction?wad bout next match?did the octopus preditc tat team win???'

i jz dun understand y the fuss bout those creatures...izzit future predicting always fascinate human??i guess so...in non-fifa period, u can always see ppl vry fond of horoscope, and all sort of future predicting stuff...
i can only end up wif 1 conclusion, human is always feel insecure bout their future, so anythng related to predicitng up cming event will sort of bringing thm hope, sense of security, or guidance or jz some motivation...which make thm so fond on stuff like this, no matter they realize it or nt...

ppl, so pls jz top talking bout the octopus, the bird, the horoscope wif me...i jz dun belif it, in fact, i rather hate it....u jz cannot belif some sort of star or planet control ur life and fate, isnt it??they jz smthng in the universe...smthng beautiful, bt not ur life controlling factor....and i jz cant belif a small octopus haf physic power, or else i would jz eat it to gain tat power....=)

献上最好

2010-07-06T14:32:00.000+08:00

献上最好,

不是凭你认为最美,

不是凭你认为最好......

献上最好,

不是凭你自己所爱,

不是凭你认为神悦纳......

献上最好

不是你凝定它的等次,

不是你评荐它的价值......

而乃是神,

亲自对你要求的呈现,

虽然你觉得埋没人才,

觉得心受委屈,

不觉得最好......

不要自己成为神.....

还有几个人记得这首诗歌呢???

miss maple =(

2010-07-03T02:07:00.000+08:00

currently staying in utm, doing nth!!!bored everyday~~while brazil lost their world cup match at quarter final, wow, who would expect that???awww, they are my fav team too...bt this make world cup even more interesting...hehe

anyway, found out that i seldom blog thng bout maple...hehe, yea nt until liting say she "digging" at here to find out bout past memory on maple...haha...anyway, after playing maple for so long, yes, i still like it...nt becox the gameplay only, bt becox of frends....wifout thm, maple would be boring....of cox, on the way, thr a lods ppl quit and nvr play again...bt thr always new frend the meet, and some becm really gud buddy, even doh i nvr meet thm...

mayb i should write down those whu i appreaciate most(of cox thr too many i could remember all wifout looking at the bl list, so i jz write down whu i remember nw)

the oldest of all would be ppl frm windydreams->smarty(smartjacql), liting(sierra), lizhen(lizzie), shief(noobshief), rain(Rain0fbless), jay(jaylee), er0, ong, ben(he is evil, pure evil), jason, sasa(mysasa), jen, sian, windy, greeny, neo(my precious sis)...
den frm old time training party->staff(infernostaff), snagy(snagiez), wx(sryxaiius), jamjam...
frm pq and no idea hw-> aki(akiharu), juju(no idea hw and nw becm my sis), both my sun nu(ralyn and baby, yes i miss both of thm SUPER LODS), evil c0c0, xiin(yea, i miss chatting and havin fun wif you, doh nw seldom haf time sit down and chat), qq nu er, amanda(kikyou, haha, gud tat ur in my fb), kristy(4gt wad ur ign edi), nar(nar11, yes, 1 day i will bully all the sand bunny and kill evil PB!!) ...
frm ultimus->pck(darkcleric/shaun), maca, shy, tess, radio, lic, reft, porc(yea, my cute porcupine <3)

->the list will be added once i remembered!and the list is not according to order =)

currently these is i could think of, wifout u all, it will nvr be the same!!!!!ppl say on9 frend are nt trustable...bt i think it depend...especially those frm wds, my sis, my sun nu, and those frm bl-aki, juju, snag, jam, staff etc. they all are really nice and gud ppl...doh nvr see thm(some i meet be4), bt they are those whu can talk wif, even better than some ppl u meet in rl....these ppl are those whu use heart to make frend...yea, at least i feel it tat way, and im sure they too...

if u tell me, on9 frend are dangerous, un-trustable, cunning, evil .....no, they are nt, these ppl are not!i didnt regret meeting thm...even if quitted maple, they will be my long life frend, eva!
bt still, u need to becareful when making on9 frend too..hehehe, thr always evil cunning ppl out thr trying to con u...hehe....

i miss maple, i miss thm!

01072010

2010-07-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

so did u realize it???2day is 01/07/2010....yes, half year had past officially!!!
still remember wad new year resolution u made at 1/1/2010???hehehe

think bout it...it wont be long be4 31/12/2010 reaching ur door step!!!

dreams?living?life?

2010-06-28T02:07:00.001+08:00

去了life game过后，这2个星期以来，一直想，人生真的是如此吗？？读书，毕业，深造，做工，赚钱，结婚，生子，然后就接近尾声？？年复一年，从古到今，循环不变吗？？我越想，越觉得生命的真正意义是什么？什么才是我真正应该在这短短的人生做的？？
读书读的好好，然后找份工，努力赚钱，然后养家，或则享受，旅行？要不然就自己创业？打出一番事业，做老板，赚大钱？要不然为自己的名誉，攀上名声和权利的高峰？要不然安然守己，过平淡的生活？？？

说来说去，还不是离不开->钱？？？我这年龄，95%的人都去做工，要不然就是还在考虑深造。。。每天facebook不是看到interview，就是开始做工，然后就说做工很累，很无聊，过后领薪水，很开心，买这东西，花那娱乐，吃这个，看那些。。。然后又是做工，怎样面对上司同事，回家就说很累，月尾领薪水，然后又从头开始。。。不管是在本地，或是要到国外，或是目标说要成为senior engineer，或老板，到最后，都是为了要赚多点钱。。。。
真的就是这样吗？？赚钱，然后享受，再赚更多，再找更好的享受，再赚钱。。。。。。

可能我不是从很贫困的家庭出生，没有遇到没有钱吃饭的情况，你说我不懂钱的重要。。。
可能你也觉得，我要赚多多钱，孝顺父母，奉献给教会多多。。。
可能你说钱就是一切，有钱什么就可以，没钱什么都不能（你不要说钱买不到爱，买不到感情，甚至可能你说过，一段恋情，没有钱根本不能继续，要不然说，没有钱没有车，你最不到女孩子的，没有钱不能约女生出来等等）。。。

难道人生，就是为钱而活？

你可以说，我做工，带职服事！我做工，为了奉献更多。。。是的，没有错，如果没有人做这些，连教会都不能运作。。。

但是，去了life game过后，给我本身觉得，如果我这样，真的是没有什么意义，是一个我不想要的生活。。。

我听过人说，做工，可以做好见证，带人信主啊。。。不过，我到现在还没有看过成功的例子，但是很常看到怎样和同事去玩，怎样与同事交往，怎样面对上司，怎样应付工作的忙碌。。。
我听过人说，拿到权利，可以做好见证，让人看见基督徒的领袖风范。。。不过，我到现在还没有看过一个领袖，说我去教会，我以基督徒的立场看，就算有一个真的基督徒领袖那样，媒体，人民看的，通常是领袖的丑闻，坏事。。。
我听过人说，平平淡淡就好，最幸福。。。不过，我到现在看到的，不是为家务忙，就是每天做工，回家，做工，回家。。。

到底何谓真正值得我去做的呢，值得我去活的生活呢？？？
到我这个年龄，朋友都是谈做工，生活，然后有些已经结婚。。。。我看过去，想了想，我一定要走这个路吗？？我还能跳出来，过一个真正有意义的生活吗？？
你可以说我没有梦想，没有目标。。我坦白，我失去一个让我觉得值得去追寻的梦想，一个值得我活出的目标。。。因为，我真的觉得生活是个虚空，捕风。。。圣经说的没错，日光之下没有新事，现在发生的，以前也已经发生，而且还要继续的发生。。。我真想跳出这个圈圈，不要做一些让我觉得空虚空洞的事，为了满足物质享受而活。。。。。

愿神真的可以带领我，让我看到，神为我预备的路，我相信，神预备的，肯定可以满足我这空虚的心灵，然我觉得值得去追求，去活出的生活。。。。

寻找，寻找。。。。。何事可以填满我这空虚的心灵~~~

national anthem...

2010-06-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

fifa world cup being on the run for 1 week + edi...a lods of interesting and boring match around...i guess a lods ppl watching and also a lods of ppl dun even care bout it...anyway, watching the match, i found out somethng vry pathetic on our country...

everytime be4 the start of the match, both team will line up and haf their national anthem being played...everytime i watch, every team will stand str8 and sing loudly of their national anthem, as every each of thm being proud of it...nt only that, the whole stadium would also raise and sing as passionate as they can...

looking bac at malaysia, wad would ppl do when national anthem being played??jz at sec sch, no1 would bother to sing it..as if nt being forced to stand str8...during festival?during any event when msia national anthem being played???90% of the ppl, if nt 99%, would nt bother bout it, or even feel ashame if they stand str8 for it, nt mentioning singing it....

when would i see a scene, where every malaysia be proud of their national anthem???sing loudly and passionately bout it???

-purpose driven life-

2010-06-09T02:29:00.000+08:00

the purpose driven life-since life is preparation for eternity, i want to use my time on Earth fulfilling GOD's purpose for me!

WORSHIP-i was planned for GOD's pleasure, i will use this day to get to know and love GOD better
FELLOWSHIP-i was formed for GOD's family, i will use this day to show love to other believers
DISCIPLESHIP-i was created to become like CHRIST, i will use this day to make choices that grow my character
MINISTRY-i was shaped to serve GOD, i will use this day to serve GOD by serving others
EVANGELISM-i was made for a mission, i will use this day to share the good news

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after went to lifegame, there smthng really obvious to me....education level really make the difference on hw ppl thinks and react....how they make decision, how they plan strategy and played the game, how they think....so it is clear tat if u wan to mix into a certain group of ppl, u need to throughly understand hw they think and decide, else they will reject you and see you as an alien...ppl doesnt only divide into group by age and race, but also the level of education they haf...hmm....

beside, they smthng really concerned me after i visit sarikei..i wonder it is me or the time had changed....i cant stop noticing youngster today more likely to use vulgar than the time i had, they tend to haf longer and untidy hair style, more self-centered and ego than eva...hmm...and 1 thng i really dun understand, they even laugh me for havin a bible....i noticed tat thr a big increased in the number of ppl attending sunday service, is a gud thing, bt i also noticed that most of thm neva bring their own bible, nor sing the hymns...at 1st i tot the bible verse will be shown on the screen, bt no...or mayb most of thm haf a copy of bible in their hp?or is a shame to haf a bible as they laugh me bringin a bible around?hmmm.....or mayb im jz thinkin too much??

hmmmmm.....nvm of that, i will do my best to live out the 5 purpose of my life!as im nt the one who can judge ppl, is GOD who has the authority to do that...i will make sure i will be my best to live out what HE intend for me....!!!

life game-aftermath

2010-06-07T12:23:00.000+08:00

finally im bac to kuching after travelling to sibu and sarikei...

yea...life game is great...it remind me how unaware i can be and the promise i had almost forget and ignore in the midst of bzness and ignorance...it gif me great motivation to strive ahead and do more for GOD...yes, i remember wad i had promised to do, and i will answer the call as ready as ever...
and yes, i will be more aware of thng happen around us...the sign is clear...the time is running out!!!it really tell a lods bout wad kind of life u gona led if u choose this path...it really worth for those whu nvr participate be4...
and of cox, im vry glad to know new frends, and also old frends that 2gether play the game wif me...is really really fun to haf u all in this life game...=)

-lucky it jz a game or i will be doomed-

sarikei?changed a lods...not only the town, bt also at church...a lods of new faces i do nt recognize...bt still, old frend still the same as eva...i love my old church~~~also new shop, new business all sprung up around sarikei....whaoo..is quite a big town thr nw....and best of all, sugarbun is really nice too...nice food, nice place...better than kfc for sure...no wonder they can renovate and expand...haha!

now thinkin ahead...putting wad i had learn and promise in life game in my heart...and keep it burning as the time is near and i should be more aware and do more than nw wad im doing!

excitement...

2010-05-26T12:33:00.001+08:00

hehe...seem like most of ppl gettin bored in holidays edi...wonder hws every1 passing everyday...mine??is quite gud...
robin hood is a great movie...bt nt much of arrow shooting which the legend talk bout him, instead is bout hw the legend begins...wonder hw many truth and history in the movie had shown, war and rivalry in medieval europe, mayb this is the time whr britian is fear by its long bow archer, which is shown in the movie...no matter, the movie is great....

current mood is exciting...no becox of the life game camp, bt the wish of goin to sarikei, and bac to the church i grown up...ahhh...waiting waiting and hope the day come...i miss every1 over thr...

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a camp for fun, a camp for learning, i would say like that...hw ppl choose, will show whr they heart lies...lets wait and see...it sure bring out lods of surprise...ppl might in defense, learning yea, bt the price is too much for me to bear...well, bac to the usual saying, if ur heart lies thr, this would nt be a big problem...it also a camp for learning and grow up, izzit?tell me which part and convince me, as far as i remember, its nt...anyway, every1 haf their freedom to choose either 1, or both, or neither...nth wrong wif that...jz an opinion only...
a thought which constantly bug me these days...
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joy and despair for every1....

2010-05-17T02:48:00.000+08:00

str8 to the point,

msia lost thomas cup, as expected...thrs ppl disappointed, thrs angry, thrs ppl in joy...well, better luck next time...msia badminton really goin down hill if no new talent is found, or the current player improve their game...heard frm the tv, china player strategy is not clinging at world 1st player, bt to be the 1st in world biggest event like thomas cup and olympic...msia player strategy is join as many super series as they can to get most point for their world ranking...probably this lead to disappointment for msia evrytime they act on big event like thomas cup, after all when they join every tournament they wont meet world best player, rite??gratz to china and korea on their success...

DAP win sibu by-election, as expected...again thers ppl disappointed, thrs angry, and MOST of the ppl around me in joy...found out tat ruling coalition really haf a bad reputation among youngster and urban area citizen...no matter hw much money is given out, it cant be helped....well, thr is nth sure in politics, in 1 year time, they gona go through another state election, by then, we will see hw thngs go on...gratz to DAP and PR for their success...

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chat wif my frend and suddenly tot of---- whether i should go bac johor or nt...some part of me doesnt feel wanna do tat, i dunno why...wad if i really gif up and nt heading bac to johor and stay in kch instead??
wad would happen?hw thngs will go on??wad should i do instead??hw would every1 see me as??would they see me as liar??izzit a correct decision to cont study?or go for work?or jz stay and study in kch??hmmmm.....
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Recap and down the road =)

2010-05-14T03:39:00.001+08:00

its been a while..hehe..helo all....
nth much happening doh...is holiday after all...

recap on those looking fwd to stuff...
1st would be my form 6 classmate gathering...its a BOOM!yea, so happy to meet every1, doh nt every1 can attend, bt few of us do take the effort and come...and is really fun and i enjoyed the time 2gether...do hope tat we can do tat again smtime in the future...also hope every1 of u haf a success in life...=)
2nd would be the movie..ahh, wonder when can i go..hehe...
3rd is the pianist..well, the day havnt come yet...
4th is mousehunt game..yea, enjoyed it..hehe....event always make ppl excited...=p

after bout..hmm, almost 3 weeks at home, yea, i admit starting to lose touch wif every1 frm uni...wonder hw every1 doin and hw life...except those whu write blog, which at least i could read and knw wad big event happening in their life, others basically is in a 4th dimension which seem i couldnt manage to reach thm at all...nvm of it...jz hope every1 is doing great =)

month of May, the recent hot topic:-
thomas cup and Sibu parliament election...thomas cup is a must see for every1 in msia..yea, every1 is watchin hw our national team perform...they beat nigeria in 1st round, lost to japan...entered quater final and beat denmark...they will be facing china in semi...wonder hw they gonna pass this stage...all the big hype tat msia haf high chance to win again jz a boast?or it can be reality???clung onto ur TV and watch!!or u could jz tag along in ur facebook and see all ur frend update...yes, is amazing tat u can sort of following the live scoreboard on ur facebook wall, thr like around 10 of my frends updating the score in fb, live, as fast as the tv can show u!!

while playin maplestory recently, i met sm1 when i walk around..suddenly say hi to me..so of cox out of courtesy, i will hi bac...den smthng shock me yet agian...she say she see me smwhr be4..guess wad, she seen me be4 frm fb..read through my blog....
GOSH...the power of technology...
so guys and gals, do take care of wad u write, wad u post, and whu u tag in facebook or blogs...especially ur pic and stuff which are privacy to urself or jz ur frends..u nvr knw whu reading it...
of cox, im happy to meet new ppl through fb and blog..hi new frends, whueva u are...u can always leave a shoutout, a post, or even a msg through my blog and fb yea...^^

ok..is almost 4am, i guess i should go and sleep...nite nitez alll

OH YA!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SIERRA aka Li Ting!!!grow older again yea!!!hope that u will score a flying colour in ur exam, and haf a joyful life, stay cool, stay pretty!!!and dun be evil..hahaha!!!!

[currently vry much into this song-You Raise Me Up, by Josh Gorban]

looking fwd to!

2010-05-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

im still enjoying the holiday...not getting anywhere near boredom!!
thr few thng i looking fwd to:

form 6 class gathering....yea, planning is on d way, on fb...hope it will be a success....vry anxious to meet every1 after we part so long...hehe
movie day...mentioned be4, the movie i wanna watch...robin hood...hehe
becm a pianist in church again...manz, is been so long tat im a pianist agian...hehe...bt hope everythng will be fine....
mousehunt event??haha...thr an event on this friday which i looking fwd to participate 2...this game jz attract me to the extreme...and is being listed as 20 top most popular application in fb...cool!

anyway, is still holiday...and i dunno why the time i sleep becm more and more..=.=||| and i gt hungry so easily!!even if i didnt move around much...

one more thng...my tooth is broken even more...remember like 2 years ago i mention bout i break part of my tooth...it jz becm worse jz nw..LOL, after eating french bread...haha...no idea wad would it becm next...

ok..i think tat would be enuf...holiday really make me kinda lazy to write stuff...bt i will nt go holiday for blogging..no no no!!hehe...

iron man and ip man...

2010-05-04T03:39:00.002+08:00

now i understand y IP man..is sound so weird when we read it as I-P MAN..in fact, it is read as IP MAN in Cantonese..LOL...cant blame me, since it coincide wif the release of iron man, automatically i will read the MAN same as iron man's MAN...

tot of wad superman, spider man, iron man, and new IP man...bt is wrong..hah!!!
really make me ROFL!!!

thx my sis for the enlightening...hahaha!!!

gathering!!

2010-05-03T01:51:00.001+08:00

back in kuching...finally, by cancelling the bangkok trip...hah, *talk to myself* bangkok seem to dangerous to go anyway...nvm bout tat...hehe...let it be...im over wif tat edi!

well, been home for almost 1 week...start to miss quite a lods ppl...dun wanna mention the names..the list is too long =p yea, as long as u reading this, ur in the list *i hope*....i wonder hw every1 doin out thr...bz having practical, bz assgment project and stuff, or bz sleeping and on9? hah! i guess 80% fall on the last activity...

skip all that, well, today having fun gather wif few of my ex classmate...ahh, is been SO LONG neva seen thm edi!is so nice to meet thm again and chat around...hehe, doh only 4 of us, bt is enuf to make my day =) we chat for some time, den went for movie..gosh, the cinema was so FULL...the seat for iron man 2 even sold out...

1st time went to Spring MBO cinema...walking into the cinema gif me a vry grandiose feel, nt the shabby feel at skudai...so, whu say west malaysia is more advance than sarawak??hehe, thr smthng sarawak is better than west malaysia...okok, enuf bout the cinema, wad bout the movie??since iron man is sold out, left for us of cox is IP man..talking bout IP man, i still dun understand Y IP MAN..nt HP man?or PP man??anyway, the show is quite nice...nt much to comment bout it...

so, the gathering is a great success for me, at least i havin a great time.. hehe...really do hope we could do it more often, and really make a gathering =p looking fwd to it currently...since our class monitor agree to org 1 edi..haha..yes, class monitor, u see that right..once our class monitor, ALWAYS our class monitor..haha..so yee ling!!!faster plan yea...hahaha

recently, thr a lods thng happening to my frends..i do feel vry sad for thm...
so if YOU read this, you knw whu you are, remember, i always support u, and stand by ur side..really, and i will always be thr to listen for you...be strong, and u can go through it!!yes, i belif u can!!!

i guess is enuf for this post...tata!!

p/s: during the movie, i saw an ad, bout a coming soon movie, named ROBIN HOOD...yea, gt vry interested wif it..so probably will go and watch...any1 wanna join??hehe

2010-04-29T01:14:00.001+08:00

hehe..
enjoying the time at home...
what else to do??beside relaxing??nth!!
haha...probably will get bored soon..bt oh well, thr nth much i can do bout it...thinkin a lods of stuff bt cant do anythng bout it either...so jz leave it anyway....

yea, i miss some ppl,very very much...dunno when i could see thm again...=(
of cox thr gather, thr depart...so may this station would be a new journey for every1...strive on, strive hard every1!!!

the final countdown

2010-04-24T23:17:00.002+08:00

its the final countdown~~~*make tat song appear in ur head and down the post when u read through*

yea, finally the time has come, the time of the end~~~

after submitted hard bound thesis, den is officially graduated...by 2day, 2molo, ppls i seen for 4 years, would nt be seen around, mayb 4eva...kinda sad uhh...yea, i will miss most of thm...time flies...

i hope every1 will haf a joyful life after this station...dream of meeting every1 again in the future...luckily i would nt need to endure the pain of watchin every1 left..it would be vry emo and sad looking thm goin inside car, and left u 4eva...rather hide in the pillow and voicing out the last greeting to thm...anyway, thx for the technology advancement, we still can meet most of the time through facebook, msn and mayb blog~~

haha...i really hope every1 of you would succeed in ur life, and may GOD lead every1 of you in the future...

2010-04-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

yes, i promise i will update soon...
i promise i promise..
it will be done soon!!

神权，人权，政权（2）

2010-04-16T13:18:00.000+08:00

一些有趣的重点：

政权的堕落

因为神的许可，那一个人才能站在治理的位子上
教会应当成为社会的榜样。。
众多没有智慧的人，用他的人权来做结论，那你会发现众多的声音就会代替真理。。就如犹太人大声呼喊：钉他十字架，钉他十字架。。圣经说，因为他们的声音大声，所以他们就胜利了
智慧与权柄不能并行合一时，必产生混乱

神许可与任凭

上帝对亚当说，你要修理看守。。不是管辖毁坏。。人权舆地球环保的责任是交织不能分开
神权的4层次：神的旨意在永恒的计划，神的旨意在历史中的安排，神的意志自由在人犯罪后的许可，神暂时所任凭的事
神许可的政权，为了奖赏罚恶，为了表现神的公义。。但因政权有有罪的人掌权，所以耶稣才说我们是世上的光，好世人看见你们的好行为，便将荣耀归给你们在天上的父
上帝的儿女一定是最好吗？一定要选基督徒为总统？不是-有些上帝的儿女是饭桶，虽然得救，却依然做事不负责任。。普遍恩惠（common grace）-神许多恩惠，给基督徒，也给非基督徒，神叫日头照好人也照歹人，不是为了你，而是而了整个社会的安定。。神将普遍之恩放在实行政权之人心里，但不等于他们一定跟随，也就是政权败坏的原因
现在许多小组教会要你不必听，马上说，所以那样的教会表面很兴旺，热心的信徒一大堆，结果却常常违背圣经的原则，随便的乱讲！
因神的许可，政府可以延；因神的任凭，政府可以行恶、践踏人权。但神的时间到了，政权就要改换。。

the realm of non-existence

2010-04-16T01:23:00.000+08:00

it seem like i have walked into a strange realm,
a world where i could not understand,
a place i could not communicate,
a dimension i could not stay;

how on earth i end up at here?
i do not know,
it just seem like the great things,
had become a past,
a history, no one would care,
a myth, slowly forgotten;

i hope this just a dream,
but i know this is worse than nightmare,
which i will never wake up,
forever stay with me;

i thought this last moment,
would be the most beautiful of all,
but instead it become the ugliest,
giving me not only despair and grief,
but also scar deep into my heart,
which i would never forget...
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yes and i dunno why, everythng had changed, in just few month..suddenly every1 is jz so stranger to me...the last moment which usually ppl would dear most, but it becm a nitemare for me...seeing my frends leaving status and comment which show the bond of frendship and love, i envy thm..cox wad i gt is hostility and isolation...ppl i care most, place i love most, it doesnt same anymore...

probably becox im nt the one whu together walk pass this 4 years, probably becox im jz a passer-by, probably becox im nt that kind of humorous ppl, probably i being serious in too many thng, probably im jz too wierd to be understand and mixed wif...i shouldnt put so much of my time into thm...
yea, they talk bout love and forgiveness,
yes, they talk bout love ur enemy and giving to thm,
yes, they talk bout their faith and boast their frendship,
but it to me it jz an empty talk,
so empty that even vacuum could not even compare with it...

for few week, i sit in the van, where i could feel,
im just like a non existence creature,
i climb in walk out, no one knw,
even i hear 1 of thm say,
hey, u been in the van all the time?hw cm i dunno bout it...
mayb, mayb i gt the cloak of invisibility..

enuf of tat, even if im like a chameleon to thm, i can be a butterfly to other...
the world is not onlt consist of that few glamouring attention attractant ppls...
as usual since long time ago,
i can mix well wif ppl younger than me compare to same age and older than me...
i do not knw y, bt i knw i can trust thm and sincere with thm...
again they wil be my sweet dream in the worst nitemare...
=)

p/s: to those in my blog's link, and do not update their blog for, erm, mayb few months, ur link will be removed..is spring cleaning again ...well, mayb im a bit late, bt better than never..hehe =)

神权，人权，政权（1）

2010-04-14T14:59:00.000+08:00

一些有趣的重点：

神权在人权之上，人权在政权之上。。。人权的根源是神的形象，在乎人的本质，政权却是人堕落之后才产生的，人管人的政权原不是神永恒所定的旨意。。。
很多基督徒读经就是读，读，读。。只是为了多背一些经文，来跟人家比赛。。。读经的时候，应该盼望可以了解古今中外各种学派，他们在同样题目上作过怎样的论述，然后再看圣经高超的地方在那里，圣经不同的地方在那里，最后我们才用最可能被人明白的词句把其中的不同表达出来，使当代的人得着古旧的信息。。。
进化论？当你说“他算什么”改成“我算什么”，你就进步了。。当你说“他算什么，我算什么”改成“人算什么”你就进步了。。当你把“他算什么，我算什么，人算什么”摆在神面前改成“我们算什么”你就进化了。。。
你们做仆人的，要顺从你们的主人；你们做主人的，要待你们的仆人如同弟兄一般。。。圣经对人权的尊重
罪不是一个违背法律的行为，罪就是：先轻看、先侮辱、先践踏、先挪移神所为你定那原有的方位和位分。
最坏的政府，比没有政府还好。。。绝对的权利产生绝对的腐败，绝对的毁灭（the total power will produce total corruption）
基督徒应当有政治意识，政治觉悟，政治责任感，政治参与，但是，你没有权柄用你的政治偏见或政治主观的见解，把整个社会拉去跟你同一条路
政权存在的目的是护卫人性的尊严，保卫国民安全，提高人类的幸福，把律法运行在人的社会中，使人与人可以真正的彼此尊重，不彼此伤害的地步，但却是消极的；做基督徒的就要对世人说，你更需要认识在政府上的政府，在法律上面的法律，在宝座上的宝座，这样神权在人间，才能够把人类提升到最高，最幸福的境界

the assault by the MONSTER!

2010-04-08T12:55:00.005+08:00

he do not have the sharp teeth
nor the sharp claw;
yet he instill nervous and fear
to everyone in this world;
no one can escape his clutch
young or old
man or woman;
fighting him require immense courage and valor
determination and dedication
as he do not leave any chance;
carelessness will pay
not only with sadness and tear
but also future and life;

O MONSTER OF EXAM,
i swear with the sword and shield
that i craft for so long,
will defeat and conquer you,
where i will emerge victorious
taking your treasure
as my honour and pride....

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the tree starting to bloom in flower
shiny golden yellow under the sun
as the tree being crowned
you know you will win this fight
and emerge victory like a knight
bringing pride and honour
to the country and yourself!

to everyone who facing final exam!GOOD LUCK!!!

PreSentaTioN!

2010-04-06T01:59:00.001+08:00

following sierra request, this post will be written in english...
hehe, is been quite sometime im blogging using english, dun ask me why, recently i jz feel wanna use chinese only...doh i still prefer read in english...=p

for these few days, thr only 2 thng come into my mind..presentation, and presentation...
not the presentation freak me out, bt is the thng need to prepare...presentation is all about wad u really knw, so when u knw nth, thr nth for u to present and vice versa (gosh, i starting to sound like in thesis style at here 2...zzzz)

2day is the day for the 1st presentation...plant design booth presentation...yea, so called booth presentation..in fact, is more like a photo taking session for final year students...u can see ppl go frm booth to booth finding their own frend, chit chat, taking photo and slack...even when the panel come, they also sort of having fun around, jking around (of cox few of the panel do take the chance and ask lods of weird question, not to me)...so, tat the end of 1st presentation, a enjoyable, relaxing, sort of a carnival presentation...[photo can be seen at fb profile]

2molo will be 2nd presentation, the thesis presentation...wonder wad would happen for this 1..different for plant design booth presentation, this would be a serious presentation...so, lets hope everythng went well 2molo...

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recently thr a lods of post cropping up in fb, talking bout hw to being a gf, or a bf, or wad facts u should knw bout ur gf/bf, or how u should treat ur gf/bf, or even hw touching this gf/bf did for his/her partner...
oh pls...y would ppl so selfish??always wan their partner do this do tat??only thinkin of hw other should treat himself/herself...bt nvr think of giving more to their partner??

if only keep asking ur partner giving more and self didnt put in, i sure the relationship wont last, as the partner will be squeeze till like a dried squid...try to give more, instead of asking more!AND ultimately stop the annoying post....

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奇怪真奇怪

2010-04-03T02:14:00.000+08:00

不懂事因为压力还是什么，最近比较容易爆火，比较喜欢自己一个人单独，比较喜欢清静。。。
还有2天就要开始presentation了，也就是噩梦的结束~~哈
不要想这些，星期五，本来就是我不会去烦课业的一天，再加上今天是受难节~~

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这几天也出现很多不明白的东西
-属灵伙伴可以安排的？我还以为这个是要自己找的，那下次可以不可以安排一个好朋友给我？。。到现在还不能接受
-只要预早做了决定，那么到底是对是错，是好是坏，都可以免了？难道一个决定，一个计划不需要经过critic这个阶段？
-原来thesis/psm的成绩是可以做出来的，那到底被publish的article有几个是真正的成果？
-连dr都可以骗来，那真正的教授有几位？？
-大学生都不关心国家的事？世界的事？只需要读书，拿好成绩罢了？
-最后时间延迟，取消预约是没有错？反而你不同意是你错？？

有时不懂为什么会去关心一些事，而其他人却可以可有可无，弄到我每次好像是坏人那样。。。真的对某些东西越来越冷淡了。。。好事？坏事？
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不是我想象的那样~

2010-03-31T04:12:00.002+08:00

邦各岛~~一个不大又不小的岛~~美丽的风景，平静的村庄却又有现代的科技，是个很不错的地方。。。
期待了那么久，终于去了，又回来了。。要谢谢新辉那么辛苦的策划与带领，要不然诗班是去不到的。。。
虽然路途遥远（真的很远，做车做到屁股痛！），但是却值得一去~~~
还带了一大堆的零食回来，而且也是不便宜的零食~~哈，当然是渔村的产品啦，不过要节制的吃，要不然等下整身敏感就不好了。。。

这次的一去，有开心，也有不开心~~
开心，当然是有得玩，有得吃，有得看又可以与一大堆朋友一起玩
不开心，当然是。。。。让我心痛的事~~~

〈如果你要看下去，不要怪我又那么直言，不要怪我那么自私，不要怪我，我的想法，就是那样，你已经被警告要离开这个部分，beware of biting-pikachu〉

以为去玩，可以不用烦那么多东西，放松自己去享受，哪里知道~却被人伤害，不管是有意无意，那个痛，痛进心里，无法复原了。。。

本来以为分享可以促进大家的感情，不过好像大家却很敷衍（当然不是全部人啦），为了分享随便讲讲，也被人在这个时候刺伤一刀。。。可能是因为没有一个明确的主题让大家讲，之前想过想用这个时间来鼓励大家对诗班的热诚，对诗班的热心，想再次眺旺大家对这个服事的心，看来我失败了，我无法做到，反而却被受伤害。。。算是我错吧，错骂了大家，怪我会骂人。。。到现在我不再是班长领导诗班，还是有人会来怪我，看来是我的失败。。。知道那时错怪了第一年生，错怪了新的成员，对不起~~如果到现在你们还是那么的在意那时我错骂你们，我也没话说，只有对不起。。。如果因为我的责骂，我的要求让你们对诗班有恐惧，有排侧，那我也请求你们原谅。。。如果是因为我的责骂，让你们跌倒，那更请求你们的原谅，因这是我无法承担的罪。。。毕竟，我也快毕业了，虽然说我会继续升学，但这也不是说我要就要的。。如果能够继续，那你们大家大可安心，我不再是诗班班长，那么指挥？也可以放心，我做一个你们心里那个不严肃，不要求多多，不严格的指挥，要不然也可以告诉我，说我做的不好，不要在继续指了，那我就会放下，让别人承担这个重任，虽然我那时是很有这个想法。。。如果我不能继续升学，那更好，因为我不会留在这里，大可放心。。。让这个诗班，变成你们心里喜欢的那种，只有欢乐，玩笑，玩乐的诗班~大家的感情，团契比较重要嘛~~

真的对我不满，可以直接的讲，不必转弯抹角的说。。。
突然间好像我很悲观。。。一个突然被大水浇灭的火，是无法那么容易的在烧起的。。。

不过，如果因为纷争结党的问题，而把这个问题带到诗班，那请你先看清自己再来责怪诗班，知明事理的人知道那时的状况，知道党派的对立。。。请不要在教会玩政治，玩心理战，更不要把这些问题带到诗班。。。那么喜欢政治，心理游戏，有许多的政党，团体让你参加，不过绝对不是教会，更不是诗班。。。诗班不是建立你在教会的影响力，不是让你在这边争取支持者。。。也不必在暗中说领导人不是，指挥的错误，我们是会很开明的接受你们的批评与意见，提出来说不定可以让我们知道那里做错了，进而改之。。。觉得我太激动吗？？应该不会，因为我不想我爱的诗班就那样变成残缺不全的诗班。。。如果我的消失，可以让诗班进步，我宁愿让自己消失~~

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当大家都开心开心的出去玩了，而你却被大家遗忘，一个人在后边，默默的等待有人记得你，但等待到最后却始终没有人知道你被遗漏。。那种感觉，有人懂吗？？有人了解吗？？甚至当大家都回来时，好像都没有发现你被遗漏，你的感受又如何？你们可以说到最后没有看到你们想看得东西，但是那却以不重要，因为我还是被人抛弃在后头，被遗忘得没人发现。。。

原来，我是那么容易被人忘记，被人遗忘，被抛弃在后头却没人发现。。。。
只有哭泣默默的陪伴着我。。。:'(

周末~

2010-03-22T18:15:00.001+08:00

终于可以写些东西了，这几天太多东西忙，想写都没时间。。。

星期五

-〉小组长聚会。。。不知是不是可以写出来，不过那天应该没有说是个confidential的讨论，所以应该没有问题吧。。协调与职员会要更改下学期的模式。。。本人的观点-对概念没有什么意见，但是那天所讲的也只有概念，至于具体计划，实行方式还没有写出来。。。所以当我提出一些疑问时，看着协调们是有点应付不来得表情，不知道他们是不是有点后悔又把我拉回坐组长，毕竟每次都是我对一些计划有很多问题的，可能他们有些人会把我标为问题的人也说不定。。。哈哈，也不知道是不是他们不习惯还是什么，有人说我发问时很凶，哈哈，可能我认真时会凶吧。。那天给我的感觉，的确是一个讨论的聚会，一个像所谓的forum，所以就认真的发问咯。。
说回来，新的概念，是有点模糊，将问题列出后，却没有一个解决的方案，虽然提出说与旧模式没有什么分别，但是却以很笼统地方式带过，想来想去，除了星期六聚会改了负责人，大致上却没有什么分别，最重要的是新的模式怎样解决所提出的问题也无法解释。。。那天协调职员说会听取大家的意见，在作详细讨论，希望他们能在最后写出一个比较详细的计划咯。。。倒觉得有些组长讲的对，协调们应该与所有组长讨论后，才带进职员会提出建议，组长们比较了解自己组的需要，那样就不必在程序上出现这个问题咯，因为如果在会议通过的东西，过后是不能随便乱更改的。。。
简单的说，单单提出概念是无法行事的，需要有个完整的计划才能嘛，大学生，应该懂吧。。还是一句话，不是我反对，而是想了解清楚罢了。。大家为神，为小组，都希望将最好的献给神，一起加油咯。。。

-〉诗班。。。不知道什么原因那天大家都比较兴奋，比较吵。。但是奇怪的是练习的时候，大家却总是没有那股劲，不只唱不好，也不专心，感觉很懒散。。。会不会是大家压力大？还是没有心？或是因为要去玩了？？甚至很多人没有出席。。。班长一直强调出席率，不过却觉得大家不当一回事，连很多时候要准时开始都不能。。。本来星期五固定的练习时间，却被其他的东西取代，其实除了当晚考试或出远门或是生病，应该其他的原因都不是原因吧。。。区区的2-3个小时，那么难？？难道女朋友/男朋友不能了解吗？不想讲太多，其实对一些诗班员很失望的，希望他们自己好知为知吧。。。
不过失望归失望，还是有一些诗班员给我很大的鼓励与希望，肯为了进步，牺牲自己的吃饭时间，没有怨言的提早练习，如果大家能够有那样的态度来参加诗班，相信是很不一样的诗班。。。

星期六

-〉毕业生晚会。。。不一样的晚会，毕竟是给我们毕业生的一个聚会。。。哈哈，很多感触吗？？当然，差一点掉下眼泪，强调一下，差一点哦，还没有哭啦。。。最喜欢的是第3年的舞蹈，因为那舞蹈很有型，哈哈，如果你是第3年，看到这里不要骄傲阿。。。只是第1年的有点短，好像敷衍敷衍那样，不过还是不错啦，如果你是第1年，看到这里，不要伤心，因为还是很高兴你们花那个时间筹备。。毕竟人多难做事。。。自己毕业生的，完全不能接受，哈哈，从来没有演过那么废的戏剧。。。虽然说我会读master，但是也不是肯定的会留下，谁知道我能不能读，所以还是会有很多感触，很多话想跟很多人说。。不过因为我不是很主动的人，所以也没有说出来啦。。就希望大家能继续努力的事奉神，归荣耀与神~~~

-------就先写到这里。。。。=)

面试潮

2010-03-18T03:42:00.000+08:00

天上的星星，不慌不忙的闪烁着。。
地上的人们，忙东忙西的奔跑着。。
啊。。。。。。
好担心，好烦恼。。。。。
为什么！！！

最近的话题都是在工作面试，与我这个被jpa‘困’着的没有任何关联。。
看见朋友一个个工在找，甚至有的找到新加坡的工，替她高兴，又有点羡慕，毕竟我也是很爱新加坡这个地方。。。
羡慕归羡慕，暂时这个地方不会和我有任何关系（除了我可能会一时冲动，跑到那边走走），不要想太多先啦。。。
要想的是thesis不懂能不能搞好，最烦恼就是这个。。。怪也怪自己，什么都不会，什么都不懂，还要笨笨的去拿。。。

ps:如果你们看到我反常，肯定是我又应付不了压力了。。不要被吓倒哦。。

裙子的问题。。。

2010-03-16T02:17:00.001+08:00

这个星期六晚上就是毕业生晚会了。。各个学年的弟兄姐妹都在忙着筹备他们的节目吧。。
当天晚上，其中一个要大家去‘遵守’的东西就是穿的体面一点。。哈哈
如何体面呢？？男生就formal，女生就穿裙。。。做一个所谓高级一点的晚会？？哈哈。。。

但是，开始不明白一些东西。。当然这个‘不明白’我永远也不会明白。。。想来想去，就是不明白。。
什么不明白？？哈哈。。。就是为什么女生都不喜欢穿裙？？甚至需要有个惩罚来催促姐妹们穿裙子。。。
当报告说要穿裙子时，就很多的声音，说为什么一定要？？可以不要吗？？不穿会怎样？？（明知故问，当然有惩罚啦）我不要来了！！等等。。。反映特别的大，好像穿裙子是要她们的命（夸张一点，姐妹们不要打我，哈哈）。。。

男生的角度，我的角度。。。。穿裙子那么难吗？？难道现在的女生不再穿了，穿下是落伍，跟不上潮流？？难道穿了会变丑？
万万不是，本身觉得穿裙子的女生最好看，最美。。。但是，说了这个，女生们还是一样的反应[我不要穿裙子啦。。。。]
女生自古以来都是穿裙子，难道时代进步了，就不可以了？？穿裙子有那么不方便吗？？我还是觉得化妆，打扮比穿裙子更不方便，更麻烦。。。

这种问题，看来要不是姐妹们解释，我这个男生是永远不明白的。。。
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有些人，喜欢独处，甚至做个实验来分别有人陪伴和独处的分别
有些人，喜欢欢笑，甚至什么都可以笑
有些人，喜欢安静，甚至连风声都可以觉得烦
有些人，喜欢音乐，甚至连没有音乐是要他的命
有些人，喜欢目光，甚至做各种各样的东西来吸引人注意
有些人，喜欢辩论，甚至连小小的东西都可以辩个东西南北
有些人，喜欢。。。。。

说也说不完，不管你这些人喜欢什么，凡是都不要太过分，因为过头了只会招来祸害。。。
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bz bz and MORE bz...

2010-03-14T17:17:00.000+08:00

haiz....bz this and bz that for the whole week, n it nt gonna end anytime soon...
sleepless nite for few days edi...wonder when all this would come to a stop...
actually a lods i wanna write here bt do nt knw hw to put into words...the feeling is jz weird, cannot be describe....i jz wanna haf a sweet dream and a nice sleep..tats all...
is been either waking up every hour in the nite or haf a vry vry weird dream recently..the dream is so weird tat i couldnt understand at all...doh i hardly remember it much nw...
anyway, make it short and simple for this post...

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--->if im too weird and hard to talk wif, or to be frend wif...and altogether stop inviting me out, im fine wif it...as long as dun do this to me-when after invite all ur frend out, and see me sm where else, so givin me an 'ad hoc' invitation...
those whu understand me wont think tat im hard to talk wif, and those whu understand me is whu i called thm frend, and those whu called frend are ppl whu always be wif u no matter wad...
anyway, jz feel disappointed...nth much...

p/s to myself: yes, i do haf a lods frends around...hehe...mz be grateful for tat instead of feeling bad on few others...

number 300

2010-03-08T02:02:00.002+08:00

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jz realized..this is POST NUMBER 300!!!
wooo...smthng to celebrate???yea..haha..thx all for pass by and reading it all this while->salute to u over thr, wine any1??
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especially dedicated to xiao mei->HapPy BirThDay agAIn!!wonder hw ur study over thr, guess is vry bz rite...hehe, remember to take care urself yea...and stay pretty always!!!stay strong in GOD blessing and guidance...n i do miss u a lods...=p
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specially dedicated to my black dog, which died few day ago...a moment of silence if u pls~~~
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thank you for ur kind co-operation...
she was a cute and adorable doggy...loyal and like to eat...
now ur gone, 4eva, kinda sad when i cant find u and pat u next time i go bac...may u rest in peace....
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specially request by sm1 for this section...(remember to pay advertisment fee, haha)
the person is called hui yien..or known as cheryl...askin me to write bout her..hmm..let me see, wad should i put?
actually wanna talk bout her, i gt nth funny to say...cox she nt the ppl whu make jk around...bt nice to talk wif instead...of cox u are lucky if u manage to talk a lods wif her as she is always bz, i mean ALWAYS, while minus the power of technology, basically u dun haf much chance talkin wif her...

plus + she is pretty, charming, fun, talkative, emotional and so on
*did u blush when u read through this?haha, dun shy shy yeaa*

anyway, she been a gud frend, i would say 1 of best frend around here...i do enjoy sharing a lods wif her, wifout her, i think i would gone crazy running amok into forest when facing problem..haha..dun take it literally doh...
i remember once she put me on her bloggy nt long ago, all the chat, make me so shy, nw my turn to put her on here..haha...
oh ya, 1 thng i cannot 4gt to mention->she is a vry pro shopper...can spend whole day walking inside a shopping centre..serious...those whu like to shop, mayb can consider asking her for accompany..haha...of cox those whu hate shopping, nvr ask her to go shop 2gether, or u will regret...hehe...

p/s: hui yien, cannot hit me yea...
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during volleyball session 2day, thr a sudden downpour...doh nt raining cats and dogs, bt is heavy enuf to make ppl wet...staring into the rain, literaly, making me wanna run into the rain and get wet...is been a long time didnt play under the rain...bt of cox, is nt the time for me to do tat yet...
rain oh rain, wait me, vry soon, i will play wif u...

btw, any1 notice trees start to flowering nw??im vry excited, waiting to see the trees bloom wif bright little yellow flower again...the scene is jz exceptionally beautiful, when the breeze blow through the branches, the tree seem like dancing wif it...together wif the music of wind tat make by the tree leaves...
get urself sometime notice the beauty around you!UTM is full wif beauty if u knw hw to appreciate it...
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nah, u dun wanna haf this section...serious..so forget bout it.. =p

*learned frm The Nibbler*

new look, bad mood...

2010-03-04T02:16:00.001+08:00

after more than a year, i guess, finally a new look for bloggy~~haha, yet is still a simple flora themed 'dress'~~hope u ppl like it~~
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being extra extra stress, due to stupid evil psm~~~yes, is psm, not pms =.=|||
partly blame for the laziness, yet most of the part blame the no whr to go senario...really, i do not know how to start, whr to go, how to end...i really stuck on running the simulation, and yet, i cant figure out how to use it...exploring doesnt help, tutorial gif no effect, supervisor didnt teach, no1 around knw how to use...wad left??

after keep trying and trying and yet cant get anythng, i really haf a feeling of jumping down from a building and 4gt everythng(jz a metaphor, is not gona happen), bt still i really really wanna run away from everythng..i really sux up on this thng...

crying in late nite, and whu will understand me??

T_T

为什么？

2010-02-28T01:34:00.004+08:00

为什么我会成为诗班指挥？
一个问题要去思想~~

想了想~~

当初，为什么会开始这个事奉呢？？在不知什么事之下，被人推上成为一首歌的指挥，而且不是平常的诗歌，而是一首要去比赛的歌，那时我也懵懵懂懂，糊里糊涂的接受。。
虽然不懂为什么会无缘无故被人推上，可能是诗班里没有人愿意？还是因为我会一点点的钢琴？
不清楚，但是给我，相信是神的一个安排~

在之前，我并不是一个固定的诗班员，甚至没有去了一段时间。。。回来诗班后也只是来唱唱，并没有看重什么，但是自从被推上后，诗班对我在也不一样了。。

以前完全不认为怎样的一个事奉，现在是一个不能看轻的一个事奉~~
我不认为我会很多东西，甚至可能我什么也不懂，但是，我相信，这是神的一个安排，要不然，我心中对这个事奉有的不是一个责任罢了，而是多了那股热诚，那份火热的心~~从来没有一个事奉，可以让我觉得那么的甘甜，那么的喜乐~~记得我在圣诞节无法献唱时，那种失落，那种伤心，是不能形容的~这让我更加的肯定，这是神要我站守的一个地方。。就因为这样，虽然不是什么很厉害的老师，但是，我相信，神会给我足够的恩典，在这个岗位上，尽上神要我做的东西~~~以诗歌，圣乐，来荣耀神，让更多人明白了解敬拜赞美，音乐事奉的重要性~~

走到今天，看见诗班与以前相比，是很不一样了，人多了，在教会也比以前被重视了许多，但是这并不是可夸耀的，反而，还需要更加的努力与进步，而不是停留在这个瓶颈，沾沾自喜。。。看见诗班员没有热诚，没有认真的心参与时，真的不知该怎么办，不知如何去再次激励他们。。。唯有能做的，是做好自己的本分，尽上自己的能力，希望诗班员能够了解，明白，让他们真的愿意顺服指挥班长的教导，并同心合一的将音乐，诗歌献给神，荣耀神~~

要得到神的祝福恩典，我必须努力的改进自己，学习更多，更重要的是，谦卑让主使用！！因为我本来就不懂什么，一切都是圣灵的引导，神的安排，要记得咯！！！

又是诗班？hah~

2010-02-26T02:40:00.001+08:00

诗班，本是不一样的事奉。
很多时候，基督徒都以为诗班这个事奉是最容易的，所以很常看到人第一个事奉就是参加诗班，成为诗班员。。。
但诗班真的是那么简单吗？？其实不然，所有事奉都不是乱来的，所有的事奉都必须以认真的态度来看待，因为所有的事工都是神的事工，如果不是神所允许，不是神认为的时间，一个简单事工也不会在教会中进行。。。甚至神认为你不适合的话，你尽办法想参与那个事奉也不能。。。

教会的事工也各有不同，有的是对内，有的对外。。。举例，宣教，探访，布道，都是对外的，为要广传福音，也是教会最重要的事工。。说是最重要，也不可忽略其他的事工，例如栽培事工，团契，祷告，敬拜赞美等等。。神创造人，给每个人不同的恩赐，让每个人在不同的事工上有份。。虽说可能是很简单的，泡茶，扫地，这些看是很渺小的一个工，跟牧师比，跟宣教士比，好像是用大山与小沙相比，其实不是，给‘分数’的不是我们人，而是神，哪怕是那么一丁小，没人注意的东西，神都看在眼里，因为你做的，是为神而作，将来神必定会赏赐的。。。

神看的，不是一个人的伟大，而是看人的内心，如果一个牧师，可以整千万人归向主，但是心里骄傲，不把神放在眼里，认为是自己的能力所成就的；我相信，神看这个牧师也比不过一位年老的阿公，默默的，尽心的每个星期为教会打扫吧。。（我不是说我知道神如何判断人，但是要说出神是看人的内心，不是看外表成就）

音乐，是一个很广大，很复杂的东西，玩音乐的人会要求这个，要求那个，为了是呈现出最完美，最美丽的一个艺术，对，没错，是一个艺术。。。现时代的音乐，因为被潮流，流行歌曲所影响，很多音乐的元素都被污染了，很少人会去真正欣赏音乐，体会它的美，要求它的完美。。。（不是说流行歌曲不美，只是它是音乐的另一个小分叉罢了）有谁会去注意一首歌里面的音乐呢？？有人会去欣赏几个乐器一起伴奏的和声呢？？有谁去体会那个鼓，或是钢琴，在一首歌的贡献呢？或是一个orchestra里面各个乐器的音符呢？？或是歌手要表达的精华呢？？
音乐不是围绕在爱情主题里罢了（大部分流行歌曲都是以这个主题为大纲）~~它可以表达的，不只是爱情，也可以是一个心情，一个季节，一个灾难，一个景色，一个人，一只昆虫，一只动物，飞鸟，一个物件，一个过程，一个生命等等。。。它是艺术，一个靠创意生存的东西，把它捆绑在一样东西，等于把它杀死~~

说回来，在敬拜赞美，音乐与崇拜呢？是教会中的一大事工，并不是唱唱歌罢了那么简单，因为敬拜赞美，音乐与崇拜是一个带领会众来赞美，敬拜，归荣耀与至高的神，不是一个玩笑！这也是为什么，诗班特别需要纪律，需要牺牲与付出。。。这也是为什么，领唱的并不是在台上表演，开演唱会。。。这也是为什么，崇拜的次序并不可以乱乱编，乱乱改。。。

诗班，讲求的，也是要以完美的音乐，献上给神，犹如古代的祭师那般，为众人献上祭物。。。以前以色列的利未人，也有特别的部门负责唱歌，玩乐器的人，也就是先今所谓的诗班，敬拜赞美团。。。他们是如何呢？？他们是全时间的在这个岗位上，也就是从小就在音乐中学习，长大，是专业人士，而不是现在般每个星期两三个小时的练习罢了。。他们的职业，就是在这个诗班，敬拜赞美团，可以想象，他们的专业。。。据个例子，我国的篮球运动员与美国的nba篮球运动员，我国的通常是业余运动员（也就是他们除了打篮球之外，还有其他的职业），美国的是职业运动员，每天去上班就是打球，就单单比技巧，可以是天差地远，换回来比以前利未人的诗班与现代的诗班~~~~~~自己想象吧。。。。

为什么诗班会要求那么严格的纪律呢？为什么要求回去一定要练习呢？为什么要求不可缺席呢？？
因为如果不那样做，一个诗班并不能把最好的献上，一首歌，并不是三个小时就可以练得十全十美，不能的。。我参加诗班那么久，从来没有一首歌是可以唱到完美无缺的，无论花了三个小时，或是十个小时，甚至二十小时，也是不能。。。
为什么不可以缺席？？因为只要一次缺席，就会打乱那练习的进度。。可能你认为我已经会唱了，何必要一直练啊？？其实会唱了，并不代表你能把那首歌的意义完全表达出来，可能连5%都不能吧。。。更何况，诗班不是一个人，而是一大群人的服事，羽球双打已经需要很好的默契，很久的配搭才能表现好，更何况是一个20人，40人，甚至100人的诗班？？

如果你认为，无法胜任这个事奉，还是不要乱乱拿，想清楚事奉是为什么，是为神？是为了学唱歌？为了一起玩乐？还是为了什么？？？当然如果你愿意牺牲，付出，为了将最好献给神，我相信那你会越事奉，越甘甜，是一种连世界上最甜的东西也不能比的甘甜。。。神也必定大大的倾倒福气在你身上，为了你更能荣耀神~~~

加油吧，诗班员！！！希望我们能够同心的将最好献给主，将最完美的音乐献上成为馨香的祭物，为了荣耀神的名！！！
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ps：如果你觉得我写的有些错误，希望你能告诉我，好做些更改，因为我也不是最完美的~~^^还有，我也没有针对任何人哦~~不要以为讲到诗班就是要骂人那样=.=|||

go or nt to go?

2010-02-23T01:41:00.002+08:00

half year ago, 1 year ago, 2 year ago, 3 year ago->suit urself for the time, the time for u to choose courses and university for further study..
remember tat particular time, hw excited and anxious in getting into an university??
bt, current day, i only can see, hw most of the ppl hate getting bac to uni..hw this changing occur?doesnt tat goin to uni is ur dream, and now?

ha..hw ironic...
is the person had change?or the uni is nt as good as u once think of??or smthng happen tat make u detest it?or jz purely ur rebelling spirit on the move??

2010-02-15T00:12:00.001+08:00

HapPy ChiNese New YeaR And HaPpY ValenTine!!!

enjoy d fun??enjoy d food??enjoy 2gether wif the love one??

hehe..as for me, enjoying the holiday~~~luckily thr are celcom 3g service in kanowit, and hence im able to on9~~~yay!!a big improvement of infrastructure at here?haha...

anyway, enjoy d day!!!!
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jk of the day->While we can offer you no answers, we'd simply like to share this observation. A tiger's life is generally quite simple. They mate, they eat, they poop, and they mate. All's good, all the time. It's once they start playing professional golf that things become complicated

able to catch??haha...

taken from mousehunt's nibbler news

future teacher?

2010-02-09T00:08:00.002+08:00

for a man(woman) to grow up, he(she) need to be educated...since the day a person come to this world, the learning process started...in fact, the process started even be4 the birth-day!
he will learn hw to cry and breathe the moment started in this world, den learn hw to sleep, drink, look, hear, eat, goin toilet, crawl, walk, talk, run, read, write, think, and also making frends....

it is a lifelong process...a learning process...it nvr end...since the day human settle down and build house, thr a profession call education...person whu manage this profession is called teacher...teacher is given an important task to teach younger person, depending on the field, from basic kindergarten, primary sch, secondary sch up to specialize field in tertiary level...

tat y, the responsibility of teacher is huge, goes as a saying, a child is a future leader of a nation...this saying goes wif a condition, A PROPER EDUCATED CHILD is a future leader of a nation..only a proper educated ppl knw how to lead a country, managing huge resource of a country, steering the country through crisis and hardship, dealing wif diplomatic relationship wif other countries, and also the critical thinkin to make decision, of cox minus the cunning to gain more power and earn money through corruption...

so bac to the basic, hw to educate a person??parent play an important role, teaching the child bout value of life and faith...and also teacher to educate the student in technical field, including read, count, write, talk and go to more advanced lvl of knowledge...look simple eh??
surely no...a teacher required not only teaching the student, bt also becm role model for thm to learn..we all knw child learn from their elder and superior rite??

when a country haf gud professional teacher, efficient education system, im sure the country will thrive and prosper...bt if a country lack of those, it will crumble and devolve, eventually ppl will migrate and move away...den, the poor education system will produce bad leader and they will lead the country to ruin...solely rely on foreign skill, financial and human resource is not the way...

in this country, we haf education courses in tertiary lvl, training future teacher to teach the youngs...bt, whu are these future teacher???looking at it, it is barred for application, controlled nt by meritocracy, bt racial quota..those whu are much better are not allowed to further this profession if the racial quota is reached, and hence more mediocre are taken, to be our future teacher...not only tat, it is said tat, those whu cannot take better courses(doctor, lawyer, engineering) are doomed to becm teacher, its sound like a shame to becm a teacher...

lookin at the quality of the student taken for education courses, much of thm cant even write proper english, speak proper english..a real example taken from student whu pursue education courses, below is an excerpt written by thm for some english research...

Most students are provided with the assignment so that many students need a lot of reference sources to produce a good assignment. Secondly, students prefer to surf the Face book as an option when using their wireless UTM with about 14 people the number of equivalent 28 percent.

can u understand it??yes??lets take another look...

. Students were suggested that establishes the financial allocation to improve and expanded the wireless area wireless to more directly facilitated students prepared their assignments. In the medium is in the suggested to increase the number of vehicles parking along 14 percent of seven people.

yes, i admit my english is nt as gud as other, bt looking at these excerpt, i bet even primary 6 student cant understand it...

i cant imagine in the future when these teacher come out to work in country's sch, teaching the student....1 thng for sure, i would rather homesch my kids than sending thm to sch letting such teacher educate thm...

how can a teacher call himself/herself a teacher if he or she cant even write a proper sentence???mind u english is an international language, dun argue wif me on national languange...if u master national language but nth on english, u still failed in this world, this is the era of globalization, if u dun master the common language used by every1 else, u will be left behind, devoured by the tsunami of civilization...

p/s: im sure thr are professional teacher out thr, i appreciate wad u contribute, bt thr too much rotten egg in the basket...i cant stop myself frm writing all this...for those whu still study in education courses, i hope u can really prepare urself and becm a real teacher...a teacher whu is capable of nurturing a student into an useful, respectable man!!after all, im sure you wont send ur kids to a bad teacher too, rite?

ChiNese New year exodus

2010-02-05T12:22:00.003+08:00

a lods head off airport today..while some head off to kl for 'last minute' shopping...ppl in west malaysia might not understand, y Sarawak ppl always went bac so early..haha, simple reason, air ticket is not like bus ticket available everyday, all the time...and the price is not cheap 2...of cox we also miss our home as we cant go bac home as often as most of west malaysia ppl, even doh the distance and travel time is almost the same(mayb shorter?) compare to upper north malaysia, the effect of the GREAT south east china sea in much much bigger implication on the mind of sarawakian and sabahan...it separate us away from the home land much further than one could imagine... psychology effect...duhh

anyway, the mood of chinese new year is boiling up, of cox catalyzed by hot weather here...=.=|||
yes, again is february; yes, again is chinese new year...celebration?yes!fire cracker?yes!tasty food and beverage?yes for sure...the mood of relaxing and having fun is every whr!!!

ITS PARTY TIME GUYS!!!
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不懂为什么心里反复不定，不懂在担心什么，眼前又有plant design，极度的压力，崩溃了！！

2010-02-01T00:49:00.003+08:00

每次看到你时，心里就是有股冲动。。。。
这星期，我一定要将它说出来！！！加油！！！

感谢的言语？感受的言语？

2010-01-27T02:41:00.006+08:00

是时候写些感言了，拖了许久的短宣感言和职员感言，就是没有什么感动，灵感，让我提“笔”写出来。。。说到感言，这个词好像是“感谢的言语”缩写，不过给我比较是“感受的言语”吧。。有分别吗？？有，很大的分别。。。感谢的言语，只容许感谢，说好一方的话；感受的言语，是打从心里的感受要说出来的言语。。。所以，感受的言语这个解释比较适合我，毕竟我不能违背自己的心理感受而一定要写一些好听的话去取悦别人。。。

先说说短宣感言~~

说到短宣，给人直接的反应通常是~短宣？好像不适合我，我没有那么“holy”，还是给那些比较常去教会的人吧。。真的是这样吗？？真的没有资格？还是不想找麻烦？不想浪费时间，精力？？come on,学校里面可以参加到各种各样的活动，不曾听过这些借口，短宣却有各种各样的回应~~

那为什么我会去参加短宣呢？？其实，这不是我第一次短宣，之前参加过2次。。“哇！2次，你还不怕吗？？”
怕，当然怕，但是我更怕我不参加失去更多~~在第一次听到短宣时，是没有什么感动想参加，但是过了1-2星期，就在想，我已经第4年了，如果我现在不参加，以后真的是没有什么机会让我像现在可以参加这么长时间的一个活动，那我不参加不是会很后悔吗？毕竟我很怀念以前我参加短宣的那种感觉~~但是，我参加了之后，我没有假期了哦，又要一直筹备，等下去了又睡眠不足，出去布道又不会，自找麻烦吗？？更何况我对传福音的负担没有那么大，为什么还要呢？？（一向来，我本身对音乐，敬拜赞美事工比较有负担，在短宣时，记得ah shuang说过，她吓到我会参加短宣，以为我通常是在敬拜赞美的事工上“打滚”吧，没有想到我会报名参加这个我很少接触的事工）

就这样，挣扎了很久，也一直推迟玫芬的报名表格~~到有一天，就决定，心里想《去就去啦，为什么考虑那么久，已经有这个“考虑”，就是神已经在感动我要参加，虽然知道我答应了，我一定会后悔，不过那时后悔就来不及，一定要参加了，一了白了，不用那么辛苦挣扎》。。就这样，把名字写上~~~

到后来，我真是有后悔，因为不想假期变短，因为不想辛苦上课程。。不过为什么我不退出有两个原因，第一是他们既然把短宣队员的名字刊登出来，整个教会知道了，退缩不是很没有脸吗？？（自尊心太高的后果=.=|||），第二是自己一直有跟慧燕讲，作了决定，就不要退缩，如果我退缩，那我不是很没有说服力吗？因该是神用自己的方法阻止我退缩吧。。而且，很奇怪的是，平常我的科，final exam一定是最早考完，最早放假的，可是就是这一次，既然考到最后一天，让我不会觉得考试完了后无所事事的等待短宣。。。说回来，还是神的安排，哈哈。。要不然我一定会跑回家不去了。。。

去短宣的时候，一队人马，像搬家那样，一大堆东西上巴士，然后出发，到达。。。就这样开始了短宣旅程~~要写出全部的过程应该不能吧，不过可以肯定的是，得到很多。。那种11个人一起做事，一起扶持，一起生活，一起做每一样事，不是随便就有机会体会到的。。。就因为这个短宣，让我们只几个人本来不是很熟的，变得不想短宣结束~~当然，也学了很多，像我本来那么怕一大群小孩子的，在这个短宣，既然被小孩子缠到，一个个都拉着我要我陪他们~~哈哈。。还被短宣队员笑是我的小女朋友，炸到=.=|||

想起来，真的是一个很特别很特别的体验，虽然只是短短的一个星期多，但是，当中就是经历了许多神的恩典与带领，不是能用言语来说的，每个人都有自己的恩赐与弱点，当神把一群人召集起来，为神的工时，奇事必定发生。。。看似只有区区几个人，人手那么少，根本不能做什么，但是依靠神，凡是都能做，因神要在人的软弱显示他的作为~

还没有参加过短宣的，不要为自己找借口了，下一次有机会时一定要先报名参加，要不然你就会失去神为你预备的祝福！！

p/s：我们基督徒传福音，并不是一个选择，而是一个责任，耶稣基督在升天时，已经下了大使命，要我们去传~~所以，没有借口要我们去推辞，借用万牧师的话，“不是在于你能不能，而是你要不要~~”只要你为神作了决定，坚持下去，所有的难题，神必定为你解除的！

好，说完短宣感言，现在要讲职员感言~~

被选上职员，是有点高兴兼担心，高兴什么？被人选上咯，担心什么？担心自己做不好，记得前一天才被选为诗班班长，还是小组组长，又来一个职员？？后来，就选了敬拜赞美组，因为只有在这个职位有负担，其他的事工根本不懂从何开始，而且可以跟我在诗班的职位配合，不错哦，然后就退掉组长让别人做。。好像真的很完美那样哦。。

当然不是那样，原本以为这个事工很简单，安排人在崇拜和团契敬拜赞美咯，可是当然不是那样而已。。看看教会的音乐与崇拜事工，哇，怎么那么乱哦，好像没有人重视的，随便随便就这样进行崇拜~~结果就对崇拜有了一些要求，要求事奉人员这个，又要求那个，很多时候被人说，为什么那么凶哦！要求那么高，怎么能做到哦。。。stella黄还说过，她第一次负责lcd，结果我要求这个，要求那个，变成她很有压力，很怕看到我~~原来我真的那么吓人阿，惨了，那以后还有人要我吗？哈哈，当然那时还不是很认识。。。

有时心里真的很矛盾，当我对一些东西有要求，有标准要人遵守时，又好像我会对他们凶，对他们不客气，变成大家都害怕我，不想跟我讲话。。如果我不对他们要求，很多时候东西就是一团遭。。。过程真的失去了一些可以谈心的朋友，因为自己的坚持，自己的固执。。。当然我还是觉得值得，因为我所作的，是神的工，要求是为了献上最好的，因为我不是为人而作，而是为神而作。。。

我一直有一个原则，尤其是在敬拜赞美，崇拜次序方面~~一个崇拜，就有如在古代大臣百姓去见皇帝。在那时，有什么差错，激怒了皇帝，肯定惹来杀身之祸（很常看戏的人一定知道更多），我们朝见上帝，也是一样的，而且更神圣、高贵，因为耶和华上帝是世界万物的君王，星期天的崇拜，就是去朝见我们君王的一天，当中所有的节目次序，当然必须是最好，不容任何失误。。就因为这样，我会无法接受小小的错误，也因为这样，对崇拜事奉人员也要求很多。。。

现在不是职员了，没有权利再指示人了，只需要成为一个会众参与崇拜。。但是，眼看崇拜的程序，一星期比一星期乱，事奉人员开始又不尊重自己的岗位时（当然不是全部人，还是有些很尽责的服事），除了摇头和心痛，也无法做什么，只愿他们知道他们在做什么，并希望新的职员可以好好的看待自己的身份与权利，将最好的崇拜献给神~~

当然，我很开心神给我这个机会在这个岗位服事，而且也服事的很喜乐，只愿神能继续带领我，让我在这个我有负担的事工服事神，愿一切颂赞、荣耀、尊贵都归于那三位一体的神！

2010-01-25T20:56:00.003+08:00

再写回stella黄，哈哈，原来她也是有点八卦一下，只是观察能力没有那样好吧，很多东西很明显的她不知道哦（不懂这样些她会不会生气，不要生气啊）。。。把她弄得团团转就是有一点好笑，谁叫她那么可爱，哈哈。。。她说给她一个星期时间来了解我一些事情，不懂她会了解到多少。。。很期待一下她会给什么样的了解，哈哈。。。应该也是会很好笑的吧。。。说起她就是会很好笑，很开心，不过不要误会我啊，跟她没有什么不可告人的关系哦，没办法，每次就是会有一些想象力比较好的人经过这里，必须要注明一下，要不然会惹了一身蚂蚁。。。=p
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了解了有人说过的东西（不过不懂是谁了，很久以前有人对我说过的话）

“每次她都因为别人而拒绝你，是会有那么失望的心情的，都因为你在意她”

语言，文字，音乐，艺术。。。

2010-01-21T03:20:00.003+08:00

文字，很多人都不懂它的能力，以为只是一个沟通的管道罢了，所以对文字没有什么特别的看中，要求，或欣赏。。。

在这学期，拿着最后一科的英文（不要问我为什么大学了还要拿英文），记得第一堂课，教授就问，你们学英文做什么？大家给很多答案，沟通，学习，写报告，没有选择。。。。心里就想，现在没有人会把语言当成是个娱乐吗？？好像在这个时代，没有什么人会去欣赏文字，欣赏一首诗，除了为了学业，好像文字就是没有什么用处了。。。

我本身比较喜欢英文的文字与文学，叫我去欣赏国语，华语的诗，应该是猫与鱼在对话吧。。但是，如果是英文，我就会很喜欢，自己的偏爱吧，当然我没有看小其他两个语言哦。。。想一下，在古代，没有电脑，电视，收音机，人的娱乐是什么？？除了一些opera，orchestra，剩下的就是写诗作画，难怪以前的人比较会写诗咯。。。现在叫大学生写一首诗，所不定等于要他的命（夸张一下），罪魁祸首，电视节目，连戏剧，电脑，收音机。。。

当然，不能纯粹为了写而写，如果逼我写一些没有灵感，没有同感，没有任何了解，体会的题目，情况，经历，我会觉得侮辱了文字，也对不起那些读者。。。就好像一张画，一首歌，随便乱画，乱编曲，给那些人去看，听，肯定是被丢鸡蛋吧，文字也是一样，也是一种艺术。。。说回来，这学期的英文科，有点失望啦，本来以为这英文（reading）可以读些比较文学的东西，哪里知道，又是关于current issue的见解，对故事的了解为课程纲要，不能有些比较经典的著作研究，诗的了解，语言的精华吗，甚至是英文的历史发展？？本来第一个教授是很不错的，一个对文字，文学很有热诚的一个人，不但搞笑，还可以让大家对英文有兴趣，换了一个教授后，就超不爽。。。一个不但英文发音不准，对英文又没有热诚，笑话又冷，教英文还用国语来沟通，还是一个古板的人，连电脑都不会用，简单的用remote把lcd关掉，把lcd screen收起来也不会，她还是用着石器时代的overhead projector，严重被炸到，跟第一个教授比，差太远了啦（第一个教授甚至还用facebook来与学生沟通，给些notice）

还有就是音乐，一个很广的艺术，现在的人，大多是喜欢流行歌曲吧，本身就比较喜欢古典音乐，歌舞剧。。为什么？？觉得这些音乐比较丰富，比起流行歌曲，尤其是古典音乐，藏着很多的东西是需要慢慢去发掘它的精妙之处，不过，不要以为我没有听流行歌曲哦，哈哈，我还是会听，不过大部分还是英文的流行歌曲，不是要藐视华语的，只是觉得华语歌手的唱功，没有英文歌手强，很多都是以脸来吃饭=.=|||，不是全部啦，有一些华语歌我也是会听，只是不多。。虽然英文流行歌曲比较多粗口，但是这是他们的文化，所以就不必介意啦。。。

歌舞剧，用歌来诉说故事，是很有趣的，很多卡通，都是以这种方式来呈现，这就是为什么我还是很喜欢卡通吧。。暂时记得的这种性质卡通是nightmare before christmas。。。sound of music是比较经典的一个，不懂有几个人看过。。。比较现代式的可能是high school musical，不过感觉比较不像吧，因为大部分的剧情并不是用歌来表达。。。其实应该还有其他的，只是不记得了。。。有时很想看像nightmare before chirstmas的卡通，歌曲来表达故事，那种又solo，又和声，又有回应的卡通/戏剧，但是市面上，很少吧。。。说回来，有时很不明白，为什么就是有人会去拍鬼戏，去看鬼戏，花钱去看一部只会吓自己的戏，有时甚至根本没有看过鬼的，要不然故事剧情没有头，没有尾，纯粹要吓死人，超无聊的=.=|||

至于舞蹈，戏剧，画品，雕刻，不是我会欣赏的艺术，所以没有任何感受。。。

要找到和你一样会欣赏同样艺术的人，不容易~~~

2010-01-19T22:12:00.003+08:00

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dun even think of asking bout it...no, no way

2010-01-19T13:36:00.002+08:00

最近在论坛上看别人的爱情故事，还蛮有趣精彩的，有的是伤心的，有的是开心的，有些很奇怪的（同性恋-不过没兴趣，所以不看），有姐弟恋的，有暗恋没结果的，有puppy love的，形形色色，各种各样，五花八门。。哈哈。。

有一个就写的很梦幻，感觉在看偶像剧的那种剧情，很假，不懂是不是自己编出来的。。。有一个关于姐弟恋的，却让我印象深刻，因为很真实，看了不止为他们开心，自己也会觉得很甜，难得我也会被他们的故事影响。。。看了他们的那么甜的故事，也有点改变我之前对姐弟恋，远距离恋爱的一些看法，哈哈。。。本来就不赞同和有点排彻，现在觉得为什么不可能，别人也不是可以那么甜蜜吗？？
是很羡慕他们啦。。。可以那么甜蜜。。。=p
就希望大家可以珍惜身边的人，爱自己的伴侣，一生到老。。。哈哈。。。

2010-01-18T19:55:00.002+08:00

nvr try to peel an orange wif bare hand again!!!
it not only messy, bt also will hurt the finger!!ishh...

2010-01-15T17:34:00.001+08:00

服事不只是一个责任，也是一种恩典，享受，当你觉得服事不是一种享受时，那是时候你放下手上的东西，静下来，领受神的恩典与带领后，才再次的为神服事~~

2010-01-14T13:28:00.003+08:00

not every1 share the same music taste and preference...
a song,
1 might like,
another might not;
to find a person which share the same preference as u,
is like finding needle in haystack...
found some music recently and really fall in love wif it,
2 bad no1 love it as i do~~

searching ppl whu share the same taste of music as me~~~
afterall, wad the point if a beauty can only be appreciated alone?
is always better to share 2gether!!!and no music no life!!!!
thanks GOD for creating music~~~

joyful always

zzz!

grumbling

fanfare for the common man

tired.........

truth!

金，火，冰～

weird~

望十架

some wondering~

爱

孤军作战？

“残障人士”级电话

考试与考卷~~

personality test

hypermarket!

生日快乐？？

book hunting~

quote(s)

*emo*

the battle

new year...new start

[notice]

kites!

Narnia!

MIA

frm my point of view~

失去~

christmas come early!

a memory~

成功的定义？

the path

发泄，闲人免进，内有咬人的pikachu！

rain in midnight

birthday!

updates for recent days

who to share?

to the sky!

lesson learnt

3am in the morning

the month of october

convo!

以福音为耻？

chorale camp

Elijah!

事奉主？还是？？？

当洪水以前的日子，人照常吃喝嫁娶，直到挪亚进入方舟的那日；不知不觉洪水来了，把他们全都冲去。人子降临也要这样~~

记得昨天慧娴突然打电话给我，邀我去ｉｖｃｃ听个讲座。。。原来是巴生杨牧师来，讲关于末世宣教的一些课题～要谢谢她～～牧师说到，有５个大爆炸～

你说，我是为生活而烦才努力赚钱，难道你就不相信神会为你预备吗？？圣经也说，你们这小信的人哪！野地里的草今天还在，明天就丢在炉里，上帝还给它这样的装饰，何况是你们呢！

宣教一谈

random post

National Education Philosophy?

the joy

our teachers

teaching profession

envy and dissapointment

stupid octopus!

献上最好

miss maple =(

01072010

dreams?living?life?

national anthem...

-purpose driven life-

life game-aftermath

excitement...

joy and despair for every1....

Recap and down the road =)

looking fwd to!

iron man and ip man...

gathering!!

the final countdown

神权，人权，政权（2）

the realm of non-existence

神权，人权，政权（1）

the assault by the MONSTER!

PreSentaTioN!

奇怪真奇怪

不是我想象的那样~

周末~

面试潮

emo