hehe..bday had passed, and nw im 23rd..again i wanna stress..im still young...haha..gona bite whu say me old..muahaha..anyway, this post is created specially to my frend tat celebrated my bday, or sent a bday greeting~~below will be a list of ppl tat i wanna thx..

1st would be 凤妃姐~whu gif me such a special present->a pack of delicious chocolate and 2 tasty eggs~~<3

2nd would be those whu celebrate for me right on 12am~ of cox im vry sorry to be late reaching the spot..anyway, i feel really touched for wad u haf done for me->they are 慧燕，雄亮，传明，roger，and思建（nice to meet you）u are the best!!

3rd would be those whu celebrate for me during dinner~thx a lods cox i didnt expecting tat, really!->they are 新慧， rita， 开祯， roger， cecelia, feona, 良钗， frankie

4th is those whu send their regards in my facebook(ya, facebook really a convenient tools,haha F3)->it will be a long list~~明明， jr mandy, xiao wei(happy bday to u 2),Ang Yi Hui, ah rose, jensen, ah shuang, yin yin, 秀娟， 莉晶， timothy ting, desmond, lily, Roeland Wouters, jih ching, 艳欣， mark aka infernostaff, shirley chan, huey xian, Clarence Wong, 美珍， Christina Chiew Pei Yi， pei ying, 明玲， 怡羚， 晶凤， 志敏， Peggy Wong， 传龙， 世龙， 宁若， angeline, rona, khai loon, Ummi Nadzirah Hamzah, Kelvin Zai, chris aka ah wang, 诗琳， su han, syed sufri, 新慧， frankie, jay aka steely, 美娜，sasa, Patricia Hung, 莉莉， Adverson Ngu， jr Fock Long, 志凌， kopak, 洁贤， Canddies Fung， ah chris aka 介源, kelvina, Michelle Wei, sweeg ting, kok hong, 明龙， gaik ping, sierra aka li ting...end of list..uhh, long list!! again THANK YOU EVERY1!!

5th is those whu send sms to me (ya, again technology do make life convenient, F3)->my mum with the BIG cake in PICTURE!, neo mei aka ming wei, 传浩， 芳艳， 玉欣， 以欣， 新慧， nelly, 玫芬， xiao wei, angeline, su tin, 秀娟， 恬美 aka xiao mei (miss you so much!!), 新怀仁堂青团(didnt expect this), 'a nge' 姨姨, 良钗， 千顺， rita, 明玲， 开祯， 敏佳 aka ++, 穰燕， 淇泉， 商徽 aka tiga kelabu, 思亲n_n(miss you a lods also), 莹贞 aka ah jeng, 庆顺， nana(happy bday 2, bring u go eat sushi when go bac), 敬灿， sheryl, 每宏， 德明(miss you a lods 2)， joanna, 凯莹， shirley玲琳， ah grace, 养豪， cindy, 秋彬， mj, 彤伦, yee ling。。。

6th is for those whu called me->彩云, gud for u to take up my last 2 hours of bday..haha..anyway, vry happy for u to remember and call me...

7th for those whu greet me through msn/facebook chat->陈琴，peggy aka ah meow, xiin~~thx a lods!

8th is ..erm, funny to say bt is frm automated email greetings->frm 卫理论坛and asiasoft forum...weird uhh..haha..bt anyway is related so i jz post it..

hehe...to every1 above...again A BIG THANKS FOR YOU ALL, may GOD bless you all

~apology if i missed out any1 or type ur name wrongly, pls inform me, dun be shy ya~

yay...hehe..is bday again...23rd birthday...well, mind u im still young..haha...anyway, feel vry touched for those spend their time trying to celebrate for me..appreciate it vry vry vry much!especially to -> hui yien, chuan ming, xiong liang and roger..ohh, nt to 4gt shi jian too..doh knw u for the 1st time today..hehe..

btw, also nt to 4gt fong fei jie, whu gif me a pack of chocolate and also 2 delicious eggs on sunday~~and those whu send msg to me..LOVE YOU ALL~~~

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did i 4gt to mention bout my presentation?haha, it all went well, thx GOD for tat...doh i feel bad for my cmate whu being criticize..1 of thm even almost break into tears...well, gt the most fierce panel for the section, u cant help it at all...jz thx GOD for everythng..hehe...
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>>thinkin hw i gona spend my bday..hehe...hope it will be a vry nice day....of cox feel sad for some whu doesnt remember it..anyway, nvm...i still feel vry happy and touched for those whu really remember me...^^u all are the best!

after the pnw training last saturday, i haf a urge to buy myself a bass guitar..hehe, seem like if i dun haf smthng to really practice and practice, i will nvr bem as gud as thm...hopefully i can afford to buy 1 and get myself practice a lods...same as piano, to be gud in musical instrument need constant practice...so added 1 thngy to the wishlist->buy a bass guitar....hehehe
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psm presentation soon..ahh, wonder wad i gona face..probably being 'shoot' till death??*shrug*

found out tat thrs no ppl around here understand wad im thinkin...they always laugh this and tat for no meaning, askin me to do this and tat, bt they nvr ask hw u feel and wad ur feeling is...which makin even more emo and bad mood...wad i really wan is nt a bowl of soup, or some kind of vry 'greeting' type of question..wad i need is jz sm1 tat willin to understand and listen to my feeling, tats all, a listener, a listener whu listen and try to understand u, not sm1 whu listen and gif all sort of comment and critics or wadeva u name it...it jz plain annoying when ur in bad mood tryin to share out and receive all sort of critics, comment and suggestion...bt sadly, thr none, ppl dun realy care bout tat..mayb nt many ppl knw hw to becm a listener i guess...

is hard to find sm1 whu u can trust to do tat either...ask if trustin wrong ppl, like i haf done be4, will end up in more trouble as they would spread and spread instead of keepin to thrself...a vry sad and unfortunate truth i would say...

anyway...is sunday and it is time for me to go to bed...tata~

hmm...thngs been goin up and down recently...nt really knw hw to explain doh...
lods of thngs scramble around nt yet done and is no whr near either...hoping this week would pass as fast as possible as after this week, by any means, those unfinished job would be done...of cox cming up next is final...

1 more week is my bday..woo, so fast..haha...excited?erm.. a bit..bt other thngs tat botherin me now make me no mood thinkin of this...kinda in a disappointment recently..goin up and down like a roller coaster...sadly no1 to share wif as no idea whu will understand my feeling...

anyway..hope this week pass as fast as possible..oh yeaaa....

jz finished my plant design work...finally!!!
doh thr still more thngs...especiall headach-causing thesis!!

anyway, extreme tired currently due to lack of sleep...ahh...

happy dwali btw...wondering whr this word cm frm and whu invent it...hmmmm

a window of free time..haha..

plant design->waitin for others to finsih their part so tat i can continue mine...wonder when i will finish it den..tot of finish it this afternoon bt seem like is nt gona happen...

pending work->psm!!project management!!

要我如何走下去??失望可以夺走我的热心与动力,我如何才能寻回??一直告诉自己不要介意别人的眼光,将自己的最好献上就好,但始终还是做不到,它可以一直缠着你不放...

可能是我的错,我的不对,但感觉对我有点不公平...自己的希望和看见没有人了解,当初很希望可以做到这,做到那,希望大家可以和自己一起为这个目标,为这个理想奋斗,但是往往却不是你想的那样,被人挑来批评,被人针对,完全不能奔跑那个理想的路,是多么的痛,多么的失望...

真的希望有一个人,可以了解我的感觉,我的想法,我的希望与理想,不想一个人独自奔跑,尤其是我对音乐与敬拜的理想与热诚,真的很难找到一个真正了解这种感受的人咯...看来只有祷告,因为只有神了解,希望神会为我预备~~嘻嘻

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一直在想,是,我有很多不足,很多的不是,因为我也是个平凡的人,一个罪人,不是一个完美无瑕的人..大家都说,成为一个领袖,要做好榜样,让大家可以学习...可是,领袖还一个人,一个平凡的人,无论我多尽力,始终还是有很多的不足,你们要挑我的不是,肯定还是会有...如果要用我的不足来针对,来不服,我能奈何?因为我不是完美人,无论我怎样做,你们还是能从中找出一些软弱与缺点来针对与不服,不是吗??

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来敬拜神...
when can i sing this song?a beautiful song, bt nt easy to sing it nicely..wonder when i will haf such a chance to sing it to the GOD?i hope HE will gif me such chance in the future...let it be my goal and hope strive toward it...

still having limited access to internet..uhh..stupid broadband...nvm bout tat..
is kinda vry bz week...like piles of works tat will nvr get done..still vry worry on sm of it as i really haf no idea how to do it...=.=||| i need a holiday!is like ages ago the last holiday i haf!!

feel vry dishearten...no idea why...feel like a lods ppl suddenly becm unfamiliar..nt like the ppl i knw be4...wonder wad had changed?my view changing?haha...2 more week be4 presentation and yet i nt yet finish it...counting down to the sec of doom?haha

being cut-off frm the internet for few days already due to maxis broadband problem...kinda annoying when i cant get on9...nvm, its jz a small problem doh as i can always come to fac and on9..

a lods of thngy happen recently...bt i dun think i wanna write it out..hehe..would be quite bz for this week->test, psm, project, plan design and bla bla bla...still dunno hw i gona complete it..nt becox i haf no time, bt is bout HOW to do it...especially psm, i haf no idea hw to do it at all...

talk bout choir...probably worst of the times as i cant really manage well at all...sickness is 1 problem, and unexpected thngs occur too...bt it would bt the MOST disappointing choir training session of ALL times!ppl tat shout out the loudest saying will be obeyin the rules and discipline is the 1ST to break and rebel!!!

still not enuf->add up 1 of the choir member saying '诗班是要去的吗??去了会给人骂,不要去了', meaning 'do i need to go choir?i will get scolded if i go, not goin would be better way'

when i heard it, i str8 gt angry, at the mean time vry sad and disappointed..hw can a choir member say such sentence???tot of stripped away his choir membership str8 away bt in the end i cool myself down and not cr8ting any conflict...bt wonder when i can stay clam..

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currently sick, used rm40 for medicine jz nw at a clinic in tmn u...so expensive...haha...hope the medicine could cure me fast enuf...cold is much worse than flu!argh...dun like it...

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happy wif other thngs in my life currently...hehe...btw, bday gona come soon...wad should i wish for this time??

Edelweiss, Edelweiss
Every morning you greet me
Small and white clean and bright
You look happy to meet me
Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Edelweiss,Edelweiss
Bless my homeland forever...

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even a small flower can becm such an epic song~~
tats the beauty of nature, beauty of plants...
jz love it!
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coughin non stop till i cant sleep..argh...!!

anyway, pssed the election for fellowship and choir...really dunno wad to say doh...happy as i can pass the thngy down wif nt much concern...worry for the big picture doh, wonder izzit ok...hope GOD will make a way and lead the ppl, after all, they all are chosen by HIM...

praise GOD for the election go smoothly..vry happy with choir election, doh is kinda funny a bit, bt everythng went ok....i hope they will continue lead the choir to another height and make the choir truly a group of priests that wil lead the congreagation praising and worship the GOD...
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stop coughin lah!!stupid throat!

inter-racial relationship, inter-religion relationship..hw far can u accept??
this senario happening all the time around us...either u aware of it or nt...see-ing inter-racial relationship quite a lods recently, between a malay and a chinese...thngs would be quite simple on the surface, but due to legislation, it aint tat simple..

as in malaysia, a malay religion is islam, and to marry a muslim, u muz be a muslim 2...kinda sensitive doh bt is the truth, after u profess as a muslim, is nt easy for u to denounce it again...and so, if u in a relationship wif a malay, u need to consider the religion as well...

recently heard 1 of my frend said, he break up wif his gf due to religion diff...as the gal is a christian and the guy is a muslim, the gal decide to break up as she dun wan to gifup as a christian...kinda sad for me becox of religion restriction they need to break up...

wonder when sm1 wana start a relationship, did they consider religion?or love is greater than anythng else??
for me, inter-racial is ok, bt inter-religion is a no...letting go ur faith for a relationship is kinda stupid..hw can u throw away ur faith and turn it to a human being?izzit the GOD u trust is unable to compare wif a mere human being??if this is the case, it prove tat wad u belif all this time is a joke..haha...

hmm...so, hw far the extend u can accept the difference in ur relationship?
think for it be4 u hurt urself and sm1 else...
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