去了life game过后，这2个星期以来，一直想，人生真的是如此吗？？读书，毕业，深造，做工，赚钱，结婚，生子，然后就接近尾声？？年复一年，从古到今，循环不变吗？？我越想，越觉得生命的真正意义是什么？什么才是我真正应该在这短短的人生做的？？
读书读的好好，然后找份工，努力赚钱，然后养家，或则享受，旅行？要不然就自己创业？打出一番事业，做老板，赚大钱？要不然为自己的名誉，攀上名声和权利的高峰？要不然安然守己，过平淡的生活？？？
说来说去，还不是离不开->钱？？？我这年龄，95%的人都去做工，要不然就是还在考虑深造。。。每天facebook不是看到interview，就是开始做工，然后就说做工很累，很无聊，过后领薪水，很开心，买这东西，花那娱乐，吃这个，看那些。。。然后又是做工，怎样面对上司同事，回家就说很累，月尾领薪水，然后又从头开始。。。不管是在本地，或是要到国外，或是目标说要成为senior engineer，或老板，到最后，都是为了要赚多点钱。。。。
真的就是这样吗？？赚钱，然后享受，再赚更多，再找更好的享受，再赚钱。。。。。。
可能我不是从很贫困的家庭出生，没有遇到没有钱吃饭的情况，你说我不懂钱的重要。。。
可能你也觉得，我要赚多多钱，孝顺父母，奉献给教会多多。。。
可能你说钱就是一切，有钱什么就可以，没钱什么都不能（你不要说钱买不到爱，买不到感情，甚至可能你说过，一段恋情，没有钱根本不能继续，要不然说，没有钱没有车，你最不到女孩子的，没有钱不能约女生出来等等）。。。
难道人生，就是为钱而活？
你可以说，我做工，带职服事！我做工，为了奉献更多。。。是的，没有错，如果没有人做这些，连教会都不能运作。。。
但是，去了life game过后，给我本身觉得，如果我这样，真的是没有什么意义，是一个我不想要的生活。。。
我听过人说，做工，可以做好见证，带人信主啊。。。不过，我到现在还没有看过成功的例子，但是很常看到怎样和同事去玩，怎样与同事交往，怎样面对上司，怎样应付工作的忙碌。。。
我听过人说，拿到权利，可以做好见证，让人看见基督徒的领袖风范。。。不过，我到现在还没有看过一个领袖，说我去教会，我以基督徒的立场看，就算有一个真的基督徒领袖那样，媒体，人民看的，通常是领袖的丑闻，坏事。。。
我听过人说，平平淡淡就好，最幸福。。。不过，我到现在看到的，不是为家务忙，就是每天做工，回家，做工，回家。。。
到底何谓真正值得我去做的呢，值得我去活的生活呢？？？
到我这个年龄，朋友都是谈做工，生活，然后有些已经结婚。。。。我看过去，想了想，我一定要走这个路吗？？我还能跳出来，过一个真正有意义的生活吗？？
你可以说我没有梦想，没有目标。。我坦白，我失去一个让我觉得值得去追寻的梦想，一个值得我活出的目标。。。因为，我真的觉得生活是个虚空，捕风。。。圣经说的没错，日光之下没有新事，现在发生的，以前也已经发生，而且还要继续的发生。。。我真想跳出这个圈圈，不要做一些让我觉得空虚空洞的事，为了满足物质享受而活。。。。。
愿神真的可以带领我，让我看到，神为我预备的路，我相信，神预备的，肯定可以满足我这空虚的心灵，然我觉得值得去追求，去活出的生活。。。。
寻找，寻找。。。。。何事可以填满我这空虚的心灵~~~
Monday, June 28, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
national anthem...
fifa world cup being on the run for 1 week + edi...a lods of interesting and boring match around...i guess a lods ppl watching and also a lods of ppl dun even care bout it...anyway, watching the match, i found out somethng vry pathetic on our country...
everytime be4 the start of the match, both team will line up and haf their national anthem being played...everytime i watch, every team will stand str8 and sing loudly of their national anthem, as every each of thm being proud of it...nt only that, the whole stadium would also raise and sing as passionate as they can...
looking bac at malaysia, wad would ppl do when national anthem being played??jz at sec sch, no1 would bother to sing it..as if nt being forced to stand str8...during festival?during any event when msia national anthem being played???90% of the ppl, if nt 99%, would nt bother bout it, or even feel ashame if they stand str8 for it, nt mentioning singing it....
when would i see a scene, where every malaysia be proud of their national anthem???sing loudly and passionately bout it???
everytime be4 the start of the match, both team will line up and haf their national anthem being played...everytime i watch, every team will stand str8 and sing loudly of their national anthem, as every each of thm being proud of it...nt only that, the whole stadium would also raise and sing as passionate as they can...
looking bac at malaysia, wad would ppl do when national anthem being played??jz at sec sch, no1 would bother to sing it..as if nt being forced to stand str8...during festival?during any event when msia national anthem being played???90% of the ppl, if nt 99%, would nt bother bout it, or even feel ashame if they stand str8 for it, nt mentioning singing it....
when would i see a scene, where every malaysia be proud of their national anthem???sing loudly and passionately bout it???
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
-purpose driven life-
the purpose driven life-since life is preparation for eternity, i want to use my time on Earth fulfilling GOD's purpose for me!
WORSHIP-i was planned for GOD's pleasure, i will use this day to get to know and love GOD better
FELLOWSHIP-i was formed for GOD's family, i will use this day to show love to other believers
DISCIPLESHIP-i was created to become like CHRIST, i will use this day to make choices that grow my character
MINISTRY-i was shaped to serve GOD, i will use this day to serve GOD by serving others
EVANGELISM-i was made for a mission, i will use this day to share the good news
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after went to lifegame, there smthng really obvious to me....education level really make the difference on hw ppl thinks and react....how they make decision, how they plan strategy and played the game, how they think....so it is clear tat if u wan to mix into a certain group of ppl, u need to throughly understand hw they think and decide, else they will reject you and see you as an alien...ppl doesnt only divide into group by age and race, but also the level of education they haf...hmm....
beside, they smthng really concerned me after i visit sarikei..i wonder it is me or the time had changed....i cant stop noticing youngster today more likely to use vulgar than the time i had, they tend to haf longer and untidy hair style, more self-centered and ego than eva...hmm...and 1 thng i really dun understand, they even laugh me for havin a bible....i noticed tat thr a big increased in the number of ppl attending sunday service, is a gud thing, bt i also noticed that most of thm neva bring their own bible, nor sing the hymns...at 1st i tot the bible verse will be shown on the screen, bt no...or mayb most of thm haf a copy of bible in their hp?or is a shame to haf a bible as they laugh me bringin a bible around?hmmm.....or mayb im jz thinkin too much??
hmmmmm.....nvm of that, i will do my best to live out the 5 purpose of my life!as im nt the one who can judge ppl, is GOD who has the authority to do that...i will make sure i will be my best to live out what HE intend for me....!!!
WORSHIP-i was planned for GOD's pleasure, i will use this day to get to know and love GOD better
FELLOWSHIP-i was formed for GOD's family, i will use this day to show love to other believers
DISCIPLESHIP-i was created to become like CHRIST, i will use this day to make choices that grow my character
MINISTRY-i was shaped to serve GOD, i will use this day to serve GOD by serving others
EVANGELISM-i was made for a mission, i will use this day to share the good news
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after went to lifegame, there smthng really obvious to me....education level really make the difference on hw ppl thinks and react....how they make decision, how they plan strategy and played the game, how they think....so it is clear tat if u wan to mix into a certain group of ppl, u need to throughly understand hw they think and decide, else they will reject you and see you as an alien...ppl doesnt only divide into group by age and race, but also the level of education they haf...hmm....
beside, they smthng really concerned me after i visit sarikei..i wonder it is me or the time had changed....i cant stop noticing youngster today more likely to use vulgar than the time i had, they tend to haf longer and untidy hair style, more self-centered and ego than eva...hmm...and 1 thng i really dun understand, they even laugh me for havin a bible....i noticed tat thr a big increased in the number of ppl attending sunday service, is a gud thing, bt i also noticed that most of thm neva bring their own bible, nor sing the hymns...at 1st i tot the bible verse will be shown on the screen, bt no...or mayb most of thm haf a copy of bible in their hp?or is a shame to haf a bible as they laugh me bringin a bible around?hmmm.....or mayb im jz thinkin too much??
hmmmmm.....nvm of that, i will do my best to live out the 5 purpose of my life!as im nt the one who can judge ppl, is GOD who has the authority to do that...i will make sure i will be my best to live out what HE intend for me....!!!
Monday, June 7, 2010
life game-aftermath
finally im bac to kuching after travelling to sibu and sarikei...
yea...life game is great...it remind me how unaware i can be and the promise i had almost forget and ignore in the midst of bzness and ignorance...it gif me great motivation to strive ahead and do more for GOD...yes, i remember wad i had promised to do, and i will answer the call as ready as ever...
and yes, i will be more aware of thng happen around us...the sign is clear...the time is running out!!!it really tell a lods bout wad kind of life u gona led if u choose this path...it really worth for those whu nvr participate be4...
and of cox, im vry glad to know new frends, and also old frends that 2gether play the game wif me...is really really fun to haf u all in this life game...=)
-lucky it jz a game or i will be doomed-
sarikei?changed a lods...not only the town, bt also at church...a lods of new faces i do nt recognize...bt still, old frend still the same as eva...i love my old church~~~also new shop, new business all sprung up around sarikei....whaoo..is quite a big town thr nw....and best of all, sugarbun is really nice too...nice food, nice place...better than kfc for sure...no wonder they can renovate and expand...haha!
now thinkin ahead...putting wad i had learn and promise in life game in my heart...and keep it burning as the time is near and i should be more aware and do more than nw wad im doing!
yea...life game is great...it remind me how unaware i can be and the promise i had almost forget and ignore in the midst of bzness and ignorance...it gif me great motivation to strive ahead and do more for GOD...yes, i remember wad i had promised to do, and i will answer the call as ready as ever...
and yes, i will be more aware of thng happen around us...the sign is clear...the time is running out!!!it really tell a lods bout wad kind of life u gona led if u choose this path...it really worth for those whu nvr participate be4...
and of cox, im vry glad to know new frends, and also old frends that 2gether play the game wif me...is really really fun to haf u all in this life game...=)
-lucky it jz a game or i will be doomed-
sarikei?changed a lods...not only the town, bt also at church...a lods of new faces i do nt recognize...bt still, old frend still the same as eva...i love my old church~~~also new shop, new business all sprung up around sarikei....whaoo..is quite a big town thr nw....and best of all, sugarbun is really nice too...nice food, nice place...better than kfc for sure...no wonder they can renovate and expand...haha!
now thinkin ahead...putting wad i had learn and promise in life game in my heart...and keep it burning as the time is near and i should be more aware and do more than nw wad im doing!
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