thr a lods of exam recently...
and i cant really take it much...
im not tat gud at handle the stress of exam...
uhh..i hate exam!!
i wish, i wish...all this will pass quickly!!hehe...
i hope, i hope...1 day u will understand 2!!

well, funny is i been listening to Christmas song...
yea..Christmas song at the begining of April...i feel weird also..haha..nvm..changing it soon...bt still, Christmas song is nice....

new week haf come~~
expected to be a bz week...
test, case study, Easter day preparation..uhh...
wad can do is to walk it through day by day~heh...
holiday is coming soon
looking forward to it but mixed wiTh some sAdness in it~~
is juz a vry weird kind of mixing
part of me wish it to come but other wish it will nvr come..
-.-
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你的一个笑容，
虽然短暂，
但却深深烙在我心，
虽然夜深了，
却仍然感觉甜蜜~~

你的一句话，
虽然简单，
却深深印在我脑海，
虽然短短的一句，
却让我感觉开心不已~~

纵然每次看见你，
都没机会和你说上几句话，
但希望你知道，
我非常在乎你，
哪怕你对我的，
只是一个微笑，
一句再见，
我已心满意足了~~
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one of the unluckiest day...mayb bad day...to me...
be4 wake up, edi gt scold..reason??smthng which i did not do....
ahh..imagine being scold when u having some sweet dream...is totally *toot*

den back frm class, found out tat my room's door is spoil!i cant even open it...end up i climb d window to enter my room..wooo...4th floor..is kinda high..haha..bt dangerous also..hope i dun need to do tat anymore in this few day as the door wont be fixed till monday...

den...the event continue..
now is water shortage...i cant even bath!!!is juz sooo weird ...for no reason, the water supply is cut off...not only my block, but other block near my kolej also..haha...

is juz vry vry unlucky la....

under the hot sun for whole afternoon...followed by extra heavy downpour~~argghh...extreme weather...it make me feel not so nice....

oh ya..4gt to add...
the the, chipmore cookies..they haf a vry vry funny way of promoting thmself..lol..
they haf a big..ya..i mean BIG chocolate chip mascot walking around shaking hand wif ppl..LOL...if only is the real chocolate chip, i sure eat it up..*hiak hiak*..
forgive me as ima extreme chocolate lover..

sorry no pic available..cox feel paise taking pic of it...really funny to me..haha

sleep till quite late 2day due to headache..
lol..missed cg sport<
anyway, when feel better a bit, decided to go shoppin around again..lol..haha..yea, is fun to do tat...and i prefer do it alone..lol...
alone mean freedom to walk as slow as i wan, stay inside bookshop as long as i wan, lookin around for cute gal-->thr quite a lods cute gal around during weekends ohh..LOL..hahaa..i do stay at mph bookstore for bout 30min..lol..finished a magazine..haha..even doh is juz flipped through..hehe...
anyway, walk around like tat, im sure will be tempted to buy sm stuff..even tot of walk into secret recipe and haf a piece of chocolate cake..LOL..in the end didnt do tat lo...hmm..still kinda miss thier choco cake..IS SOOOOO FREAKIN NICE i　tell u....

..beside, running around in maple 2day also..been month i nvr play it...ahh, so miss my maple frend..wonder hw every1 of u doin..fine?bz wif sch??...do miss pika when pika not around k..haha..pika do miss every1 of u~~~especially>>2 of my sun nu, my sis, my nu er and er zi..+u on lvl-ing ohh..
LOL..
and bunch of evil frends..hahahaha...yea..labeled as evil..as pika is the only 1 cute charming and adorable..*evil laugh*

i belif GOD prepare for me~~i do not need to worry much~~HIS bless is enuf for me to walk on and do wad i should~~~
*trying hard to convince myself*

and y i keep havin heacache??arrgghh..wan sleep also cant... insomnia??...eeeeee

New heaven and a new earth

Rev 21:1 Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. 2 I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. 3 And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Now the dwelling of God is with men, and he will live with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. 4 He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away."

A new heaven and new earth, a new beginning, just as when GOD created the world. old creation has been liberated from its bondage to decay. GOD will dwell with HIS people. is an intimate fellowship between GOD and HIS people, an intimacy for which all his ppl yearn for.
For GOD to dwell with man is the aim of the gospel, the fulfillment of GOD's covenant with man and HIS plan of salvation.
for this new heaven and earth appear right after the judgement scene in which the devil, the beast and false prophet, and all those whose names are not in the book of life are consigned to the lake of fire. everythng had becm a past and come a new era where no death, no pain, no crying..is the time where GOD reign with no devil to temp man from GOD...is a glory city where GOD rule and HIS ppl worship him...

smthng im not doin for a long time~~on9 in class..haha
currently some group is presenting smthng in front..lol..and im sitting at the back on9-ing...happy cox a class being cancel ltr~~NO MORE QUIZ...weeee

smthng haf been in my mind for quite smtime..
been wondering hw ppl talk and react...
is been ppl nature to gossip around..spreading wad they knw to other, mayb smthng big, smthng small, smthng bout thier relationship, or even smthng bout thier life...even me admit i doing tat smtime..
bt, the point is how ppl react to this..
some juz listen for fun, sm dun really care, sm vry interested, sm mayb belif..diff ppl haf diff of reaction...
bt 1 thng u MUZ remember.. when u gossip, dun expect the ppl u gossip bout wont knw it..cox, ppl GOSSIP...is juz a matter of time reaching the ppl u talking bout..
for my case, i knw gt ppl saying bout me recently..of cox at 1st i do not knw bout wad..bt thngy will clear up when the time reach...well, im not trying to pin point down whu the culprit..i do haf sm suspect(ya, only suspect)bt i dun really wan to clear it up as it might hurt ppl...juz i hope this will nvr happen again...
>>this is sm act of back stab which i hate a lods..oh well, i might juz let it go and 4gt it...

some ppl may haf wide range of 'antenna' receiving news and gossip...ya, i mean WIDE RANGE...bt, do u ever check when u heard the gossip?do u ever try to cfm whther it is true or it juz being bloated?or it juz simply fake news??tats the poison of gossip..when ppl spread around, it will be twisted and changed...tat y i belif i being misunderstood, taking unnecessary blame and finger-pointing...i belif tat hw satan try to destroy churches and messing wif ppl whu try to serve GOD whole-heartedly...STOP GOSSIPING!!STOP BELIF-ING WORD TAT U HEARD BE4 CFM-ING IT WIF THE PPL INVOLVE!!!THIS IS A WARNING!!!

as i say be4..talking smthng behind ppl really do hurt the ppl involve...u may juz go and tell him, advise him..or wadeva method u think suit to acknowledge him bout the matter(i hope is not hint or sm word like-look into urself and think wad u haf done wrong--this will make ppl unable to sleep for a long time)u might juz misunderstood wad haf happen....it might juz 2 late to save it when dmg is done...

in bible, thrs 1 saying...用爱心说诚实话...i belif ppl wont blame u for telling the truth, especially to ldr in chruch..instead, they might be grateful tat u told thm bout it as they might not knwing when it happen...it juz a method for every1 to learn and improve...not gossiping behind trying to hurt each other...

Some1 send me this hillsong and i kinda like it~is meaningful~~
Thx my dear sis->Ming Wei..hehe
Title: Stronger
Album: This is Our GOD

There is love that came for us
Humbled to a sinner's cross
you broke my shame and sinfulness
you rose again victorious

Faithfulness none can deny
through the storm and through the fire
there is truth that sets me free
Jesus Christ who lives in me

[Chorus]--
You are stronger you are stronger
Sin is broken you have saved me
it is written
Christ is risen
Jesus you are Lord of all

No beginning and no end
You're my hope and my defense
you came to seek and save the lost
you paid it all upon the cross
[Chorus]

[Bridge]--
So let your name be lifted higher
Be lifted higher be lifted higher...
[Chorus]

is money everythng??
>>>evil (manja) juju say yes it is~~~[HIGLIGHT: MANJA]
well..i dun really agree tat money is everythng...haha
yes, wif money we can haf fame
yes wif it we can haf love
and yes we can haf luxuries...
mayb even frendship can buy wif it..

so nowadays, ppl try to after this paper written wif some number on it..
trying to get it as much as possible..
using it to get fame, luxuries, power, frendship, love....
yes...u can get it using money...no denial bout it..
but, does the love bought wif money worth it?
frendship tat build on money is true frendship?
fame tat gain frm money...?
even if u satisfy wif those thngy bought wif money, so wad?
continue to earn more?and more?and even MORE???
and continue stuck in this endless loop of greeed?

Ecclesiastes 1
1 The words of the Teacher, [a] son of David, king in Jerusalem:

2 "Meaningless! Meaningless!"
says the Teacher.
"Utterly meaningless!
Everything is meaningless."

3 What does anyone gain from all their labors
at which they toil under the sun?

4 Generations come and generations go,
but the earth remains forever.

in the end of time like this..
we muz remember, wads is the purpose of human being..
juz live for few decades, grow up, learn, earn, getting old, and gone like that?
no...surely not..we do haf a purpose...a purpose to exist..we are not some biological substance tat appear and die wifout any purpose...
WE..are creation of ALMIGHTY GOD, created to serve HIM, to glorify HIM, to proclaim HE is the GOD...
earning money is juz not the point of living..is meaningless...totally meaningless...dun tell me tat wif money i buy fame and glory which ppl in future will remember me..no..

9 What has been will be again,
what has been done will be done again;
there is nothing new under the sun.

10 Is there anything of which one can say,
"Look! This is something new"?
It was here already, long ago;
it was here before our time.

11 There is no remembrance of people of old,
and even those who are yet to come
will not be remembered
by those who follow them.

so, wads the purpose and meaning of ur life???
try think bout it~~~

hehe...after bz for few day..at last can rest again for ..err..1 day??lol...
last weekend bz with news testament study at church~~den continue with my case study 3 which due 2day~~didnt really sleep much for these few days~~last nite even stay till 5am++..isshhh...havin headache since bz wif these thngy...


btw..at last 2day haf a sunny afternoon after so long~~~
clear blue sky, pearl white cloud
big hot sun, green clustering tree..
is been quite some time nvr see such scenery~~
oh ya, noticed that some tree is blooming wif flower~~
the whole tree is covered wif flower, white, pink, purple-ish..
is such a beautiful thngy if u slow down and watch around u,
appreciating thngy beside u...
one thngy bout the tree is...below the tree is full wif flower that whit too...tat is not really nice doh...

this song is so nice~~
is kinda wad i wanted to say recently~~~

by Jaci Velasquez - I Will Rest in You

Lord, I'm in the dark,
Seems to me the line is dead when I come calling.
No one there, the sky is falling;

Lord, I need to know.
My mind is playing games again,
You're right where You have always been.

Take me back to You,
The place that I once knew as a little child;
Constantly the eyes of God watched over me.
Oh, I want to be
In the place that I once knew as a little child,
Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me.

I will rest in You,
I will rest in You,
I will rest in You.

Tell me I'm a fool,
Tell me that You love me for the fool I am,
comfort me like only You can,
And tell me there's a place
Where I can feel Your breath
Like sweet caresses on my face again.

Take me back to You,
The place that I once knew as a little child;
Constantly the eyes of God watched over me.
Oh, I want to be
In the place that I once knew as a little child,
Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me.

[I will rest in You,
I will rest in You,
I will rest in You.]

Take me back to You.
The place that I once knew as a little child;
Constantly the eyes of God watched over me
Oh, I want to be
In the place that I once knew as a little child,
Fall into the bed of faith prepared for me.

is not a easy day recently..
a lods of thngy come and make a mess around me~~~
i dunno wad to do~~is kinda helpless...
is been smtime tat i start to bein emo again~~

thrs practical to worry~till now i havnt gt any offer...i hope i gt it soon~~watchin ppl securing thr place is smthng not nice to bear...smthng tat making u nervous...

thrs assgment and case study which i really not gud at...im not the ppl whu can derive and change thngy~~this is juz not my thng..i admit i choose a wrong course..smthng which i dun really like, smthng which i dun really knw, smthng which i really weak at...bt wad done is done...i only can bear wif it, tat no1 could understand...when study smthng tat is not ur hooby, ur interest or smthng tat u gud at, is really torturing...and is hard to endure all those..

den i haf a vry vry wierd and bad thought recently..
>>throwing all my thngy at church and went back like be4...the day whr i dun really care bout wad happen in church again..i knw this is vry wrong bt i cant help it..like be4 i not need worry much, not need to care much...come and go as i like..tat i dun need to be so tired, tat i can haf fun 2gether wif my coursemate...
smthng muz be really really wrong when i haf such thought....
>>trying hard to resist such thought and temptation...i knw i muz stand firm against it..i dun wan to go back the dark day like be4, like a living corpse...i wish to serve GOD more bt facing the obstacle is smthn i cant really handle...bt temptation of being ignorant and having fun is kinda huge...
>>i knw i kinda disappoint as thngy goin frm gud to bad...im heart wish to serve GOD bt maybe ppl dun understand, or i dunno hw to deliver it...y dun they juz come to me and tell me bout it so i can change?instead of talking behind me?instead of not happy wif me?or hinting me this and tat and left me puzzle whole nite till i cant sleep?
>>i knw im not a prefect ppl..i cant be as so call 'holy' as u ppl might think..im juz an ordinary guy...sobb....i cant stand the arrow frm behind..i do care a lods wad ppl think bout me...not tat i wan it for myself, bt i scare i do thng wrongly, i do not wad smthng tat ppl build destroyed by my own hand...i fear GOD will punish me for messing up HIS church...i fear tat ppl will shun me...i fear..fear...i really fear...
>>i knw im emo-ing...i feel tat im so conflicting..-.-|||

i do wish to cry~~~~hiding in bed..hope to nvr wake up again~~~

2day is the day where SPM result is announced..
congratz to all those tat haf gud result...
>>>congratz especially for my sis..even doh u say u r quite sad wif it, bt remember u haf done ur best..wanted to tell u tat no matter wad, u r d best in my heart ^^
be grateful and praise the GOD for it k??hehe...wad u gt is really gud edi~be happy wif it...

不得不承认~~
我好想好想你~~~
在忙碌的时候，常常出现在我的脑海~~
不知你在忙什么~~
真希望可以天天看到你~~
看见你的笑容~~

标竿人生
>>at last gt this book i can read~~err..is on d webby actually..wonder if the same wif the 'real' book bt nvm, i juz read it~~

Day 1-生命的重心不是在你
yea, it remind us tat we being cre8-ed, not juz appear randomly..everythng haf a purpose, including the existence of ourself...
so wads the purpose??
万物，无论是天上的、地下的、有形的、无形的 ，一切都是他创造的,也是为他而造的。(西 1:16)

remember the main purpose of living is not to live out myself...is not about chasing our own dream, earn lods of money, bt live for GOD...

思考问题：怎样才能不被传媒所蒙蔽，能提醒自己：我是为神而活，不是为自己而活？
-->stayin and exclude myself frm the media is not the choice...wad i can do?pray always and protect my heart and soul frm being tainted by the influence of media..i muz always think back wads the purpose of my life...which is i live for GOD, my life is for GOD, by always reflectin myself, wif prayer and Word of GOD, strayin away frm GOD is not an option^^<--

yea..ppl tell me tat i haf vry high expectation...well, deny it when doin assgment, bt haf to admit when come to thngy in church~~~
i do asking all sort of thngy frm ppl, tryin to make everythng perfect...requiring certain standard frm thm~~
well, i knw this few day i kinda start to demand thngy to improve or change, maybe ppl dun like, or maybe saying me 2 much, or maybe even hate me...
bt wad i wan to say is, all the thngy i asking and demand is not for myself, not for my glory, not even wan to abuse the power i haf...is juz merely a responsible i need to do, tat i need to make sure everythng is the best, as we are doing work for GOD...
mayb ppl frm other ppl, juz relax, can perform is enuf edi, not need 2 much...bt if u think bac wad we serving GOD for?are we goin to gif HIM our vry best or juz merely enuf to hand in the responsibility??no, everythng muz be perfect if to present for our GOD, The KING...no tolerance of any misconduct or carelessness...is to The KING!i hope they will understand wad im asking for...
i dun mind being hated, i dun mind being boycotted, i dun mind being left...bt i mind if thngy for GOD is not perfect, which i cant tolerate at all...i admit i myself haf weakness, tat i cant gif in perfectness, bt i willing to do the best, to gif my best, to sacrifice wadeva i haf, willing to accept critics and comment...i hope every1 can be the same when serving The GOD~~

>>..!!~~
is raining again...rain rain rain~~~~~~~~~~
is kinda fun when looking out to the rain....even doh i dunno wad im looking at..bt juz looking the rain drop sound, the tree and the grass, the cloud, the sky...its so beautiful~~~~
moral of the story->if u look carefully, u will always find another beauty that u nvr notice be4~~~~
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been thinkin, why smtime ppl scare of me?am i too fierce?im i hard to talk wif?im i always haf high expectation?
think and think~~
yea..mayb im scary, mayb im fierce...bt i knw tat some thngy i cant play or let it be like tat...wad if thngy go wrong tat is under my responsible?hw i gona explain to GOD for making a mess of HIS church??yea...smtime fierce is required, expectation is a must, and even scolding would be necessary...mayb ppl will scare of me, mayb even will hate me..bt i knw wad i do is not for my own glory..bt is to glorify my GOD, which only HE deserve it...

remember this->everythng haf its timing...play, work, serious...when is time to be serious, be serious...when is time to play, play as crazy as u like...remember, wadeva action come wif consequences...

ok..enuf wif the anger...bt i knw i wont 4gt it..
is the 1st time i been tat angry in utm....
now the tense is continue as they boycotting me..lol..yea..bt i dun care bout it as let thm do wadeva they like, i juz cant stand thier attitude like this..
promise to myself tat DUN BE THE SAME GROUP WITH THM ANYMORE 4EVA!

bad weather in this few day..continue to go around under the rain->is so cold and hope i wont get sick wif tat...

-ignore this post if you dun wan to see my anger-warning u tat is scary,I DO BITE PPL WHEN GT AGITATED AND ANGERED~~~this is purely a place to vest out the anger~~pardon me~~and i not meant nor direct it to any of my reader~~stay away of this particular post~~

ps:i wont do this to the ppl tat i consider as frend~~so dun scare of me even if u still look at it~~


IM NOT A PPL FOR U TO BULLY, NOT A MAID FOR U TO SUMMON AROUND DOING THINGY TAT U CANT DO...HEY, I TOT WE DIVIDE THE JOB RITE AFTER THE LAB??ALL HAF OWN PART TO DO??HW CAN U IN SUCH A LATE NITE...YEA..LATE NITE AND ASK ME TO DO THE PART TAT IS NOT MINE??GIVING ME THE REASON THAT U DUN HAF THE RESULT??YEA...I DO HAF THE RESULT, BUT IM NOT THE ONLY COPY RITE???BLAMING ME LAZY??BLAMING ME LAZY FOR NOT DOING OTHERS PART IS SO UNFAIR,WAD THE CRAP..SMORE IN SUCH A LATE NITE...I HATE LAST MINUTE WORK...I HATE LAST MINUTE INFORM...I HATE BEING ORDER AROUND!!!!IM NOT A MAID!!!!!
MIND U TAT WHU THE 1 RUDE 1ST...A WORD 'PLZ' DUN MAKE A WHOLE SENTENCE LOOK POLITE..IS NOT POLITE AT ALL WHEN UR TONE IS ORDERING PPL WIF A PLZ..NO, NO WAY...
2 PPL ATTKING ME??YEA...SO COOL...WIF ALL UR BLAMING AND ORDERING..YEA...GO ON...CONTINUE PLS...
FOR THE WHOLE COURSE, I ONLY FOUND HARD TO BE WIF SAME GROUP WIF U 2..I FIND WORKING WIF OTHER PPL IS FUN, BT NOT WIF U PPL!!!IS SUFFERING, IS TORTURING, IS STUPID AND IDOIT!!I HOPE I NVR BE IN THIS COURSE, NVR BE A STUDENT OF THIS UNI, NVR SUMBIT THE APPLICATION OF CHEM. ENG!!!TOTALLY HATE BOUT IT NOW!!!ARRGGHH...CAN SM1 GIF ME BITE??

been quite some time~~~
is kinda bz to haf time writing at here...
plant visit, discussion, church-->all this tiring me out...aaaa..i juz wan to haf a nice sleep!!!
oh ya..for those whu interested in smashing glass..haha...can consider work inside a glass making factory..LOL...the plant i visited, the float glass factory...they smash the glass wif defect...u can hear the glass smashing all the time..haha...coool