is 18th of december~~6 days frm christmas...yet i feel vry vry sad this time~~y?becox i dun haf d chance to be part of the choir~~really really really sad for tat...i jz cant bear looking at others singing up thr while i sitting below and watch...manz!ITS A TOUTURING　FOR ME!so wish i can escape frm the gatherin on 24 and 25...i feel so disconnected, feel so bad, feel so...wadeva bad feeling u can say...being a 陪谈员 is SOOO not me, NOOO, I DUN WAN!!!really hope i can escape from it!!

even when frends talking bout it i can feel the gloom and the disappointment come frm within my heart, a feeling tat i really cant help to control it, its like u took the paint brush away from a painter, make him so helpless and so empty...i wish i nvr come bac so early bt stay bac at kch, then i can avoid all these feeling...

sm1 had jz extinguished the fiery heart within me!replaced with a cold-dissapointed heart instead...sobbb

anyway, off to KL 2day...MIA for 1 day!hehe...