who to share?

usually when u have a vry happy news or joyful event happening on u, who would u share wif?loved one?family??friend(S)?

i found it vry hard to share a happy event wif ppl around, be it ur frends or any1 close to you...
y??i nvr know they would see my 'happy event' as happy for them...i nvr knw wad they felt when i told them...happy for me?envy??jealous??or even disgust or hate??
ya..u would say, this is y the header of this page is called joyful always, place whr i could put my joyful event here (of cox it include not joyful one)...

well, bac to the topic..done some 'acid test' sharing my happy event to certain ppl..most of the reaction i gt, as i can see frm their face, is not really a 'happy event' for them-be it does not concern them, or they feel im showing off, or even jz jealous/envy of it...there ppl even reply me, y u tell this to me?wad u wan me to do??or jz a simple word-'so'?of cox there some ppl who try to show interest, and mayb out of social norm, ask hw was it and some congratz, bt i can see frm their face, they dun feel it tat way...
wait, i can do face/emotional reading??well, i guess most of us heard this be4 "u can tell lies wif ur words bt nt ur face"...unless u really know hw to conceal it, usually ur true feeling will be shown clearly at ur face expression...

so, i reached to a conclusion, dont simply share ur happy event wif any1, unless, tat person is really a gud true frend who feel happy and joyful for wad happening on u, wifout any envy and jealous...sound pessimistic??haha, i guess this is the world now...ppl usually care more about themselves, everythng centered on ME instead of others...others 'happy' or 'sad', as long as it doesnt affect ME, will be ignored...this apply to almost all frends, and shockingly, frends frm church too...

anyway, im still feel happy for myself >.< who care wad they think bout it...i knw is a blessing frm GOD and also a trial frm GOD...it could really test my faith to the limit..balancing between financial gain and spiritual gain..gosh, i hope i could keep on wif wad im stand for all this time...prayer needed =)

in the end, if u really really wanna know wads tat happy event i felt bout, haha, u should ask personally...as i said i reached a conclusion for nt simply sharing good and bad news wif every1...mind you, if u jz wanna knw and after tat treating me as showing off, i would knw easily...a true frend is hard to find, so appreciate him/her if u found 1...
for now, i would keep it to my heart....

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wif the thng happening...suddenly i feel this suit me...

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly