thr so many nice movie on air recently, namely avatar, sherlock holmes, alvin the chipmunk, and mayb the zombieland??i wish i could jz wanna watch thm ALL!!bt sadly, till date, i only watched sherlock holmes..

nt bad, in fact, is kinda interesting, a movie based on sherlock holmes novel i guess, taking place in old britian when horse carriage is still a norm[mayb around 18 to 19 centruy??], whr the leftover witchcraft and black magic still haunt the society...while sherlock holmes do nt belif such stuff, only trusting his logic and superb observation power, he able to solve the mystery of the case[wad u expect?typical storyline ->bad guy make chaos, gud guy tryin to save the world, fight occur between thm, and the world is safe again]...the only thng i cant really understand is, hw cm a keen observer like him would smtime so, errrmmm, drunk, locked himself in rm for weeks, doin an experiment on a bunch of houseflies and also dr watson doggie...i nvr realy read the novel of sherlock holmes, so i haf no idea bout the character of him, mayb i should get myself on the series...

anyway, 4 stars our of 5, interesting and funny...minus the coldness of the cinema...hehe...hoping to watch avatar in coming day!

p/s:nt the cartoon avatar havin an blue arrow strip on his bald head...

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2day is 31/12/2009, the last day of 2009...hmmm, so fast?!hah, nt really, is a long way since the beginning of the year...usually when the time like this, ppl would thinkin of new year wish, resolution, hope, and bla bla bla...
well, mayb i should doin tat 2??haha..be4 tat, i would gif thx to GOD tat lead me all the way til 2day, is been a long way, yea, so long tat i would nt survive if i walk along, bt GOD nvr abandon me, instead, i learn and gain more each and everyday...

nw, toward the new year...hmmm, ermmm...i hope, i wish, it will be a great year ahead!!sound so simple?hah, bt yet is the best of all!!no?nvm if u dun agree wif it, i will live my 2010 to the fullest!!
of cox thr sm special hope for the new year, bt i prefer to keep it secret..hehe...nt much to ask doh, bt yet it would b challenging to accomplish it...nvm, i knw GOD will lead me and provide wad HE think suit me for the year...

so every1 out thr, HAPPY NEW YEAR!

ok, be4 tat, celebration of new year eve?uhh??
did u 4gt thr is no public holiday in johor on 1/1??bt oh well, i will celebrate it anyway...IS NEW YEAR for ... SAKE!!!why would any1 wanna stay in room counting the stars?!so, cya at the countdown, no matter wad location u r~~~

smtime thngs can happen vry fast, can be vry unexpected, and the reality can be vry cruel...
best frend can suddenly becm arch enemy, can becm rivalry, thngs can turn ugly when thr conflicting interest...to obtain/acquire the goal, one might resort to betrayal, even if the opponent is his/her best frend...

when knwing sm1 bf bein "snatched" by best frend, make me feel vry vry sad, as it happen to me long time be4, like 'ancient time of jurassic era'...i knw is hard to accept the fact of betrayal, like a sharp dagger stabbed frm behind, piercing right into the heart, stoppin it immediately while it still tryin vry hard to beat again, hopin everythng is jz a nitemare...(sry for the description to tat sm1, jz to let other knw hw the feelin is like)
anyway, i hope u will get over it, 4gif and 4get, as outside the circle, thr sm1 else, even better is for u to love and appreciate...*lala lala, elmo song~he wrote the music, he wrote the word, tat elmo song~~~elmo always a cheerful 1, hope u will be cheerful like him 2*

*the code is hw i call elmo*

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now i totally agree wif wad elmo say

"the worst thing is to see the one you love, loving someone else"

jz being recognize by ppl tat only seen me be4 frm facebook...erm, dunno wad should i say for this...lucky??
p/s: they nt evil fugitive tat trying to kidnap ppl, they jz frend's frend...

so the conclusion is, facebook really a useful tool to knw ppl, to connect wif ppl, to get knw of each other 2...the power of today's technology!

hehe...haf a vry joyful christmas..yes indeed...cox thr a lods of unexpected thng happen, which i knw is a surprise present frm GOD...so many ppl willing to accept JESUS CHRIST as their savior in 2 days, even my frends TOO!!!yea, this is the most joyful thng in this festive season!!!

besides that, i wish to thanks all my frends whu gif me special christmas gift...
1st would be my cute sis　良钗, givin me a 'special' key chain, so special tat it seem like is a task askin me to ......
2nd is 淇泉, vry unexpected gift, vry special 2 as look like he askin me to take care of my health, thx a lods!!!
3rd is 彩云, givin me tasty choco, haha... thx a lods...
4th is 凤妃姐, again is sweet and candy...yea, SOO SWEET!!!THX!!
5th is 新慧, my cg ldr, thx for the choco bar...
6th is慧燕, thx for the greeting card, and yea, thx for being such a wonderful frend, doh smtime we dun really understand each other still we can share 2gether and get understand each better, and i knw 1 thng for sure, u will 4eva be 1 of my best frend!
last bt most important of all, GOD, as giving me such an wonderful Christmas, even if im been nt vry happy wif the arrangement, bt in the end, u gave me 1 of the most joyful christmas eva!

any ppl i missed?sry if i do, inform me and u will be in d list, as nw kinda tired and hard to recall wad happen yesterday
enuf for the christmas?

ok, next for sg trip...enjoy it a lods...and bought a lods of thngs too...
1st->5 bar of chocolates!!!yea!!!CHOCO FRENZY!!!nw my room really flooded wif CHOCOLATE!!!thr turkish delight, peppermint, duo choco, kitkat, typical choco bar and some choco candy!!!yea!!!!!!!!!!
2nd->an adidas cap!!!love it...
3rd->a tikar
4th->a pillow
5th->a floor mat
6th->a funny fish cap..yes cap again!
total value?priceless...hahaha!!!

k, tats all for 2day~photo would be in facebook, feel free to check it out~ ^^
(of cox nt nw as lazy to upload currently)

今天是冬至~~
但是外面却是大热天~哈哈。。。
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上了第一天的科~发觉原来，街上的传说是真的。。。我的这学期第一科教授，原来是我faculty的dean的儿子。。巧合？幽默风趣地他，说了一口流利的英文（教英文的当然要讲好英文嘛），听下不是本地的腔调，原来是英国的腔。。过后，他就说他是在英国出生，在英国受过小学教育。。。原来，原来。。。知识分子，高官，商人，真的都把孩子送到国外接受教育，原来街边的传闻不是假的，原来有远见的人都把孩子送到国外接受教育，原来我们国家的教育是那么的。。。。。。这也难怪他们啦，国家的教育政策一改再改，学校纪律也越来越差，甚至老师连英文都不会（有些大学教授也是不会英文），有能力的人送出国外也不足为奇。。。
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一些东西就是很奇怪，本来两个人，条件看起来应该可以成为好朋友，但是往往，却是完全的陌生人，每天遇见的，一起上课的，甚至是同房的，应该是可以成为形影不离的好朋友，但很多时候却可以是好像没认识过的陌生人。。。。

还有，
水可以载舟，亦可以覆舟；
人可以成为火柴棒，亦可成为灭火器。
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最后，冬至节快乐，圣诞节蒙恩

bac frm kl~yea..is fun, even doh is tiring~
found out that my phone save the day by leading us out frm the jungle of buildings..love my phone even more nw~~

anyway, wad did i do at kl??beside getting lost, attended the wedding ceremony, eaten an extra long hour luncheon(4 hours!!), sleep, walk around time square, attended the sunday service at international church of St. Andrew, of cox include getting stuck in traffic jam~~

talking bout the church, even doh it look small and shabby, bt it is one of the coolest church ever i went be4...situated at jln raja chulan, is jz below the shadow of kl tower, wif an Victorian era building style, probably haf 100 years of history??whu knw...

they haf traditional family worship and contemporary family worship, of cox attended the latter 1...i jz cant 4gt their pnw team wif thier excellent team of musical instrument..they haf piano, guitar, bass guitar, drum, violin and a pipe organ...of cox pipe organ is nt used during the worship bt during the wedding ceremony..can u imagine tat, a wedding ceremony wif pipe organ, playin traditional wedding march!!!
anyway, bac to the worship service...they sing, i jz cant 4gt...LOVE ALL THE SONG!!probably taken frm hillsong, they lead it vry well...i still can remember the leader, white hair and beard, a teen beside, and another african...the violinist is extra pro, 2gether wif pianist, plus a tempo beating drum and bass...WOOOO!!!word jz cant explain it!!!!for the 1st time in this year sing the christmas song at thr..haha
i jz hope i can attend tat church every week den...

ok..bac in johor again...feel bad again for the christmas event at here...=.=|||
nt tat i complaining, bt jz the dissapointed and sad feeling keep pouring in, especially when seeing other taking part and im being excluded...it jz drain my christmas mood away...no1 seem to understand the feeling, instead keep telling me thr other thng for me to do, as we all do for GOD...yea is true, i dun deny it, bt probably they cant understand wad i feel...nowadays, is so hard to find sm1 truly understand ur feeling...sm1 suggest me escape to KL celebrate christmas, and i might really consider it...hahahaha =p!

is 18th of december~~6 days frm christmas...yet i feel vry vry sad this time~~y?becox i dun haf d chance to be part of the choir~~really really really sad for tat...i jz cant bear looking at others singing up thr while i sitting below and watch...manz!ITS A TOUTURING　FOR ME!so wish i can escape frm the gatherin on 24 and 25...i feel so disconnected, feel so bad, feel so...wadeva bad feeling u can say...being a 陪谈员 is SOOO not me, NOOO, I DUN WAN!!!really hope i can escape from it!!

even when frends talking bout it i can feel the gloom and the disappointment come frm within my heart, a feeling tat i really cant help to control it, its like u took the paint brush away from a painter, make him so helpless and so empty...i wish i nvr come bac so early bt stay bac at kch, then i can avoid all these feeling...

sm1 had jz extinguished the fiery heart within me!replaced with a cold-dissapointed heart instead...sobbb

anyway, off to KL 2day...MIA for 1 day!hehe...

izzit every1 bac to UTM except me??hehe...wonderin whu else still like me stay at home~~miss my frend bt thinkin of the food thr-yuck!
hahaha~~~again wonderin hw the Christmas will be at johor~~hmmmm

didnt log in my bloggy for quite sm time~do excuse me as having holiday~hehe>.<
anyway, holiday gona end, ppl starting to COMPLAIN of goin bac utm soon...this holiday is short, yea, way to short...i hope the coming sem would nt be so tiresome...

Christmas is coming soon, mixed feeling...listen to Christmas song currently, hoping when i go bac utm, i can feel the Christmas..hoping to haf this Christmas wif frends and ppl tat i loved and treasured...is the biggest event in the whole year after all~~DO MAKE A FUSS BOUT IT!!!!!

when listen to this christmas carol, deep inside me wanna shout out smthng, bt yet i do not knw wad~~probably after so long nvr really celebreate christmas wif close frends, thr smthng i wanna change...
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2nd day in Jementah~~
is a lovely town at here, lovely ppl, lovely scenery, lovely church and of cox lovely food~~
been walking around the neighborhood and spreading the gospel 2day, of cox as expected 9 out of 10 ppl reject us, bt we are vry happy and grateful for the 1 out of 10...even doh they didnt accept bt still they manage to listen the gospel...
wad we muz celebrate is up to this afternoon thr edi 2 ppl accepted CHRIST as their savior...GOD's work is really amazing..

and vry grateful that 2day is a cloudy day, not sunny, not raining, bt cloudy, not like DAYS before, everyday rain and rain and rain and MORE rain~~GOD really bless us a lods~~all the glory and praise to HIM

thr lods more cming up~startin to wry bout the children camp next week, as we found out tat kids at here are more mature than we expected...primary 6 and form 1/2 kids can be look like form 4/5 and they think the way we talk vry childish..lol!!anyway, GOD will haf HIS way
another thng will be BBQ 2molo as worry bout the number of participant and also the weather...may GOD bless us wif another sunny/cloudy day again...hehe

ok, dunno wad to write anymore..update more when i gt time...hehehe

oh ya, thrs 1 vry funny quote

小孩小的时候很可爱,长大后像妖怪 (天智,2009)

off to Short Term Mission Jemetah 2day~~
wonder wad will be, wonder hw would be~~
may GOD gif us strength and wisdom to carry out HIS work~~
--probably will MIA for more than 1 week if i cant access the web~~

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2day will be the last exam for me in UTM, woo, yes, last exam~~~as next sem i will nt haf any final exam~~hahaha...hw cool is tat!!unless they pop out exam for tat subj of cox...

anyway...holiday is officially started..suddenly i can feel the deserted sort of atmosphere in UTM again..every1 is goin bac...the feeling?kinda moody and down, y?becox suddenly feel like im also being deserted..every1 goin places to haf fun, left me stuck inside UTM, inside room, nth to do...i remember sm1 told me, usually after exam, coursemate willg ather 2gether and haf fun, either haf lunch/dinner 2gether, den go sm places to haf party such as singing..bt sadly this doesnt applied to me..which make me kinda sad...i hope i can really appreciate the time left 2gether wif thm...

haf fun every1~~happy holiday~~

last week of the semester, and yet i still haf half of the subject havnt start..!!dun like the feeling...watchin ppl packing and went home, watchin ppl playin carefree..and im still stuck wif exam...zzz...

i hope this week pass be4 even i knw it!i wanna break free frm this sufferin...anyway, for those havnt finish their paper, also wish u gud luck and do ur best...

-wonderin am i getting myself stuck in a mess again-

quite sm time didnt come here...sry bout tat..haha
final exam is goin on~doh i having 1 more week of 'blank', allow me havin ample time to relax...hehe..playin a lods 2..since i dunno wad and whr to start anyway...

currently havin holiday and christmas mood edi~~wonder hw this year christmas gona be...exciting?meaningful?or jz plain boring again???anyway, Christmas is the season i like best~~ding dong~christmas song and carol is in the air~~~

hehe..bday had passed, and nw im 23rd..again i wanna stress..im still young...haha..gona bite whu say me old..muahaha..anyway, this post is created specially to my frend tat celebrated my bday, or sent a bday greeting~~below will be a list of ppl tat i wanna thx..

1st would be 凤妃姐~whu gif me such a special present->a pack of delicious chocolate and 2 tasty eggs~~<3

2nd would be those whu celebrate for me right on 12am~ of cox im vry sorry to be late reaching the spot..anyway, i feel really touched for wad u haf done for me->they are 慧燕，雄亮，传明，roger，and思建（nice to meet you）u are the best!!

3rd would be those whu celebrate for me during dinner~thx a lods cox i didnt expecting tat, really!->they are 新慧， rita， 开祯， roger， cecelia, feona, 良钗， frankie

4th is those whu send their regards in my facebook(ya, facebook really a convenient tools,haha F3)->it will be a long list~~明明， jr mandy, xiao wei(happy bday to u 2),Ang Yi Hui, ah rose, jensen, ah shuang, yin yin, 秀娟， 莉晶， timothy ting, desmond, lily, Roeland Wouters, jih ching, 艳欣， mark aka infernostaff, shirley chan, huey xian, Clarence Wong, 美珍， Christina Chiew Pei Yi， pei ying, 明玲， 怡羚， 晶凤， 志敏， Peggy Wong， 传龙， 世龙， 宁若， angeline, rona, khai loon, Ummi Nadzirah Hamzah, Kelvin Zai, chris aka ah wang, 诗琳， su han, syed sufri, 新慧， frankie, jay aka steely, 美娜，sasa, Patricia Hung, 莉莉， Adverson Ngu， jr Fock Long, 志凌， kopak, 洁贤， Canddies Fung， ah chris aka 介源, kelvina, Michelle Wei, sweeg ting, kok hong, 明龙， gaik ping, sierra aka li ting...end of list..uhh, long list!! again THANK YOU EVERY1!!

5th is those whu send sms to me (ya, again technology do make life convenient, F3)->my mum with the BIG cake in PICTURE!, neo mei aka ming wei, 传浩， 芳艳， 玉欣， 以欣， 新慧， nelly, 玫芬， xiao wei, angeline, su tin, 秀娟， 恬美 aka xiao mei (miss you so much!!), 新怀仁堂青团(didnt expect this), 'a nge' 姨姨, 良钗， 千顺， rita, 明玲， 开祯， 敏佳 aka ++, 穰燕， 淇泉， 商徽 aka tiga kelabu, 思亲n_n(miss you a lods also), 莹贞 aka ah jeng, 庆顺， nana(happy bday 2, bring u go eat sushi when go bac), 敬灿， sheryl, 每宏， 德明(miss you a lods 2)， joanna, 凯莹， shirley玲琳， ah grace, 养豪， cindy, 秋彬， mj, 彤伦, yee ling。。。

6th is for those whu called me->彩云, gud for u to take up my last 2 hours of bday..haha..anyway, vry happy for u to remember and call me...

7th for those whu greet me through msn/facebook chat->陈琴，peggy aka ah meow, xiin~~thx a lods!

8th is ..erm, funny to say bt is frm automated email greetings->frm 卫理论坛and asiasoft forum...weird uhh..haha..bt anyway is related so i jz post it..

hehe...to every1 above...again A BIG THANKS FOR YOU ALL, may GOD bless you all

~apology if i missed out any1 or type ur name wrongly, pls inform me, dun be shy ya~

yay...hehe..is bday again...23rd birthday...well, mind u im still young..haha...anyway, feel vry touched for those spend their time trying to celebrate for me..appreciate it vry vry vry much!especially to -> hui yien, chuan ming, xiong liang and roger..ohh, nt to 4gt shi jian too..doh knw u for the 1st time today..hehe..

btw, also nt to 4gt fong fei jie, whu gif me a pack of chocolate and also 2 delicious eggs on sunday~~and those whu send msg to me..LOVE YOU ALL~~~

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did i 4gt to mention bout my presentation?haha, it all went well, thx GOD for tat...doh i feel bad for my cmate whu being criticize..1 of thm even almost break into tears...well, gt the most fierce panel for the section, u cant help it at all...jz thx GOD for everythng..hehe...
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>>thinkin hw i gona spend my bday..hehe...hope it will be a vry nice day....of cox feel sad for some whu doesnt remember it..anyway, nvm...i still feel vry happy and touched for those whu really remember me...^^u all are the best!

after the pnw training last saturday, i haf a urge to buy myself a bass guitar..hehe, seem like if i dun haf smthng to really practice and practice, i will nvr bem as gud as thm...hopefully i can afford to buy 1 and get myself practice a lods...same as piano, to be gud in musical instrument need constant practice...so added 1 thngy to the wishlist->buy a bass guitar....hehehe
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psm presentation soon..ahh, wonder wad i gona face..probably being 'shoot' till death??*shrug*

found out tat thrs no ppl around here understand wad im thinkin...they always laugh this and tat for no meaning, askin me to do this and tat, bt they nvr ask hw u feel and wad ur feeling is...which makin even more emo and bad mood...wad i really wan is nt a bowl of soup, or some kind of vry 'greeting' type of question..wad i need is jz sm1 tat willin to understand and listen to my feeling, tats all, a listener, a listener whu listen and try to understand u, not sm1 whu listen and gif all sort of comment and critics or wadeva u name it...it jz plain annoying when ur in bad mood tryin to share out and receive all sort of critics, comment and suggestion...bt sadly, thr none, ppl dun realy care bout tat..mayb nt many ppl knw hw to becm a listener i guess...

is hard to find sm1 whu u can trust to do tat either...ask if trustin wrong ppl, like i haf done be4, will end up in more trouble as they would spread and spread instead of keepin to thrself...a vry sad and unfortunate truth i would say...

anyway...is sunday and it is time for me to go to bed...tata~

hmm...thngs been goin up and down recently...nt really knw hw to explain doh...
lods of thngs scramble around nt yet done and is no whr near either...hoping this week would pass as fast as possible as after this week, by any means, those unfinished job would be done...of cox cming up next is final...

1 more week is my bday..woo, so fast..haha...excited?erm.. a bit..bt other thngs tat botherin me now make me no mood thinkin of this...kinda in a disappointment recently..goin up and down like a roller coaster...sadly no1 to share wif as no idea whu will understand my feeling...

anyway..hope this week pass as fast as possible..oh yeaaa....

jz finished my plant design work...finally!!!
doh thr still more thngs...especiall headach-causing thesis!!

anyway, extreme tired currently due to lack of sleep...ahh...

happy dwali btw...wondering whr this word cm frm and whu invent it...hmmmm

a window of free time..haha..

plant design->waitin for others to finsih their part so tat i can continue mine...wonder when i will finish it den..tot of finish it this afternoon bt seem like is nt gona happen...

pending work->psm!!project management!!

要我如何走下去??失望可以夺走我的热心与动力,我如何才能寻回??一直告诉自己不要介意别人的眼光,将自己的最好献上就好,但始终还是做不到,它可以一直缠着你不放...

可能是我的错,我的不对,但感觉对我有点不公平...自己的希望和看见没有人了解,当初很希望可以做到这,做到那,希望大家可以和自己一起为这个目标,为这个理想奋斗,但是往往却不是你想的那样,被人挑来批评,被人针对,完全不能奔跑那个理想的路,是多么的痛,多么的失望...

真的希望有一个人,可以了解我的感觉,我的想法,我的希望与理想,不想一个人独自奔跑,尤其是我对音乐与敬拜的理想与热诚,真的很难找到一个真正了解这种感受的人咯...看来只有祷告,因为只有神了解,希望神会为我预备~~嘻嘻

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一直在想,是,我有很多不足,很多的不是,因为我也是个平凡的人,一个罪人,不是一个完美无瑕的人..大家都说,成为一个领袖,要做好榜样,让大家可以学习...可是,领袖还一个人,一个平凡的人,无论我多尽力,始终还是有很多的不足,你们要挑我的不是,肯定还是会有...如果要用我的不足来针对,来不服,我能奈何?因为我不是完美人,无论我怎样做,你们还是能从中找出一些软弱与缺点来针对与不服,不是吗??

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来敬拜神...
when can i sing this song?a beautiful song, bt nt easy to sing it nicely..wonder when i will haf such a chance to sing it to the GOD?i hope HE will gif me such chance in the future...let it be my goal and hope strive toward it...

still having limited access to internet..uhh..stupid broadband...nvm bout tat..
is kinda vry bz week...like piles of works tat will nvr get done..still vry worry on sm of it as i really haf no idea how to do it...=.=||| i need a holiday!is like ages ago the last holiday i haf!!

feel vry dishearten...no idea why...feel like a lods ppl suddenly becm unfamiliar..nt like the ppl i knw be4...wonder wad had changed?my view changing?haha...2 more week be4 presentation and yet i nt yet finish it...counting down to the sec of doom?haha

being cut-off frm the internet for few days already due to maxis broadband problem...kinda annoying when i cant get on9...nvm, its jz a small problem doh as i can always come to fac and on9..

a lods of thngy happen recently...bt i dun think i wanna write it out..hehe..would be quite bz for this week->test, psm, project, plan design and bla bla bla...still dunno hw i gona complete it..nt becox i haf no time, bt is bout HOW to do it...especially psm, i haf no idea hw to do it at all...

talk bout choir...probably worst of the times as i cant really manage well at all...sickness is 1 problem, and unexpected thngs occur too...bt it would bt the MOST disappointing choir training session of ALL times!ppl tat shout out the loudest saying will be obeyin the rules and discipline is the 1ST to break and rebel!!!

still not enuf->add up 1 of the choir member saying '诗班是要去的吗??去了会给人骂,不要去了', meaning 'do i need to go choir?i will get scolded if i go, not goin would be better way'

when i heard it, i str8 gt angry, at the mean time vry sad and disappointed..hw can a choir member say such sentence???tot of stripped away his choir membership str8 away bt in the end i cool myself down and not cr8ting any conflict...bt wonder when i can stay clam..

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currently sick, used rm40 for medicine jz nw at a clinic in tmn u...so expensive...haha...hope the medicine could cure me fast enuf...cold is much worse than flu!argh...dun like it...

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happy wif other thngs in my life currently...hehe...btw, bday gona come soon...wad should i wish for this time??

Edelweiss, Edelweiss
Every morning you greet me
Small and white clean and bright
You look happy to meet me
Blossom of snow may you bloom and grow
Bloom and grow forever
Edelweiss,Edelweiss
Bless my homeland forever...

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even a small flower can becm such an epic song~~
tats the beauty of nature, beauty of plants...
jz love it!
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coughin non stop till i cant sleep..argh...!!

anyway, pssed the election for fellowship and choir...really dunno wad to say doh...happy as i can pass the thngy down wif nt much concern...worry for the big picture doh, wonder izzit ok...hope GOD will make a way and lead the ppl, after all, they all are chosen by HIM...

praise GOD for the election go smoothly..vry happy with choir election, doh is kinda funny a bit, bt everythng went ok....i hope they will continue lead the choir to another height and make the choir truly a group of priests that wil lead the congreagation praising and worship the GOD...
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stop coughin lah!!stupid throat!

inter-racial relationship, inter-religion relationship..hw far can u accept??
this senario happening all the time around us...either u aware of it or nt...see-ing inter-racial relationship quite a lods recently, between a malay and a chinese...thngs would be quite simple on the surface, but due to legislation, it aint tat simple..

as in malaysia, a malay religion is islam, and to marry a muslim, u muz be a muslim 2...kinda sensitive doh bt is the truth, after u profess as a muslim, is nt easy for u to denounce it again...and so, if u in a relationship wif a malay, u need to consider the religion as well...

recently heard 1 of my frend said, he break up wif his gf due to religion diff...as the gal is a christian and the guy is a muslim, the gal decide to break up as she dun wan to gifup as a christian...kinda sad for me becox of religion restriction they need to break up...

wonder when sm1 wana start a relationship, did they consider religion?or love is greater than anythng else??
for me, inter-racial is ok, bt inter-religion is a no...letting go ur faith for a relationship is kinda stupid..hw can u throw away ur faith and turn it to a human being?izzit the GOD u trust is unable to compare wif a mere human being??if this is the case, it prove tat wad u belif all this time is a joke..haha...

hmm...so, hw far the extend u can accept the difference in ur relationship?
think for it be4 u hurt urself and sm1 else...
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2day is the day for choir gathering-bbq!!!
uhh, doh i havin serious sore throat, bt it doesnt stop me frm goin and eatin it, haha...is kinda fun doh a lods of the members didnt come..i hope they would participate next time...

havin fun eatin, talkin and enjoying....the food is VERY TASTY!!!is so great!!!thx xin hui~not 4gt to mention the drinks, the watermelon, and also the cake!!ya, is stil 1 of the best havin the time 2gether wif choir member...wonder when would haf another chance like this enjoy the time 2gether..hehe
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doh i still couldnt understand, y thr some group of ppl jz doesnt like to mix wif other..they can jz talk and talk 2gether, wifout caring others, or the event....they jz concern bout thmself, makin fuss and noise...uhhh...swt at thm!i hope they will not do this again as this is an event bound for every1, which include thm...hah.. nvm bout it...at the end of the day, is an enjoyable time 2gether wif choir!!!

p/s:some photo taken using my hp durin the bbq can be seen at fb..hehe...hope they post up more photo tat hav been taken!

at last bac to utm, actually bac for the 2nd day, jz lazy to write...
basically the camp is not as great as last time, bt still enjoyable minus the cold weather...haha..nth much i wan to talk bout it, is jz okok for me, enjoyin being 2gether wif frend during the camp...

cameron is a nice place to enjoy the nature and scene...the flower is particular pretty and the fruit and vege is big and sweet...hehe...those whu nvr been thr should go and try it..

now bac to utm, and fall sick...hope to recover soon...anyway, this week will be a bz week again...probably will be bz till the end of nov due to short term mission..haha..a bit looking fwd bout it bt also feel scare on the program as i dun really haf the exp org an event...haha...

p/s:kinda messy post due to unable to think properly..haha...do excuse a sick ppl...blek!!

goin for QQ camp in...approximately 3 hours~~so gona MIA for 4 days....will update the blog once im bac frm cameron...hehe..
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every1 should knw whu is dan brown...recently i saw his new book is published in newspaper, 4gt wad the book named bt it is the top selling book currently..
jz nice i pass by a bookshop, Popular...so i decided to go in and search for this new book...i search and search, found nth except his previous book, angel and demon, in chinese..
so i go to the counter and ask bout this author and his new book...den guess wad, he ask me izzit english or chinese book, and den after i telling him, he seem like do not knw whu is this
waaa, such famous author and a bookshop worker do nt knw??oh my!!hw can they open a book shop and do not knw top selling book??

the conclusion is-> this bookshop sux!they only sell primary and secondary academic workbook...this bookshop not worth for u to go and buy a book...is a empty shell bookshop!!!i will nt enter this bookshop for book huntin anymore..rather go to mph which offer much better bookshop atmosphere and wide range of book/novel..

only left few hour be4 goin to cameron..haha...excited, anticipating, yet a bit of fear...fear of wad??cold, the journey, and also mayb the program...is complicated and i dunno hw to explain 2..haha..nvm bout it, generally still vry excited bout it...
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thngs change, ppl change too...lookin bac thr a lods of difference compare to the 1st time u meet...some gud some bad...the only thng u can do it move forwrd and appreciate wad u haf now..hehe

is been quite bz reacently...and a lods had happen....
currently only looking forward to goin QQ camp, which is only 1 day left!!! WOOOOOOO!!!!
yea, so excited!!so happy!!!hope it would be fun...
*more worried bout the cold weather over thr..haha*
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when u given the chance to serve the GOD, you need to grab the chance and appreciate it..if u didnt grab the chance, didnt appreciate it, when the chance is being taken away, pls do nt blame other...is this is wholly ur own fault...i hhave had enuf!pls DUN talk behind me again when i talking in front...i DO NOT WELCOME SUCH PPL!!!i rather lose few of u than sacrifice the whole forest!!!

suddenly addicted to choir and oratorio...
if only i haf a full oratorio to listen...
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wonderin any1 really interested wif such music...orchestra, choir, oratorio->normally ppl rate such music as boring and is lullaby..bt for me, ppl whu consider such music as lullaby does nt knw music at all..hw can they consider such rich and colourful music as tat?for example orchestra, so many kind of musical instrument playin, u cant nvr get tired of listening to it, discover each type of instrument inside, unravel the beautiful notes play by each part...oratorio, thr so much message it brings, like a drama if u can say...
wonder when i can find such ppl tat can share wif bout the beauty of music...

only 1 week left be4 hari raya...only 11 days left be4 goin to cameron...
excited, anticipating...wish the time would go fast enuf, cant wait for it...
bt thinkin bout the journey, the way up the hill, the coldness..*shrug*
i hope they would prepare and plan it nicely, every1 is anticipating it!i hope every1 will really haf a gud time over thr...COUNTDOWN IN PROCESS->changin the unit from days into hours!!gosh..excited!
strawberry any1?or tea?corn?or flower maybe?
happy farm??haha..addicted to it...
anyway...

[in very loud tone]bt i do knw i wan chocolate frm sm1!!hehe...
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hwever, trouble and problem still cropping up frm no whr..like mushroom sproutin suddenly after the rain, a surprise!!doh no1 wish for such surprise..ahh...no idea and dun wanna think bout it currently...will nt touch it until i meet those ppls in concern...
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enjoy the cool breeze of the nite, the silver ray of the moon...
staring at the shadow of the tree, lookin into the darkness of the hill...
feelin the silence, embracing the calmness...
listen to the cricket, croakin of the frog...
nite scene is always beautiful, is like an orchestra, thr always new thng to discover no mater hw many time u listen it, u always found element u nvr hear be4, its like a treasure box, wif a lods of hidden compartment, waitin for u to discover and open it,
this is the nite, the beauty and richness of the nite, as long as u knw hw to appreciate it...

p/s:of cox minus the mosqitoes and annoying insects bite...

hehe, below would be some text i locked it and do not wish it to be public..thrs no need for u tryin to guess the key...it would nt be the usual password i use..hehe
anyway, for those aquired permission, the post would be quite messy as it do nt haf any spacing or paragraph...sry i do nt knw hw to do it except locking it >.<

[try to forgive and forget is wad i should learn after writing this thngs out] hehe...ya, i will try my best to learn and do it...thx dear for remind me..haha

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politics, national issues, international issue, trade and economy...how many of the students in uni really care about?or such things is not our concern?probably we are to small and powerless to change the tide??
four years having so call independence day at johor, 4 years!and each passing years, the mood and the celebration becm lesser and lesser...from a big festive pesta merdeka to uni wide procession til nth at all this year...from whole kolej wide flag hanging campaign til non of the residence care...from big colourful firework celebration to darkness and blinking of stars...
DO ANY1 LEFT REALLY CARE BOUT INDEPENDENCE DAY??wonder is this failure of education system or becox of recent national issue??
looking to our neighbouring country, during their national day, flags all over the high rise building, big celebration...compare to other side of the strait, silence and nth more...the scene of business hanging flag outside their shop is no more...
i remember long time ago, during 31 august, i would wake up early, on the tv, jz to see the procession of national day, lookin at YDP Agong, YAB PM and other top leader on a stage, big crowd all over padang merdeka, and long procession of contigent passing by...izzit still happening now?does any1 really wanna look at such scence anymore?
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university suppose to be the born place of top national leader, top critics and brilliant strategist of country, birthplace of future leader and world changer..bt seem like it didnt serve such purpose here except produce more market-based workforce...politic now filled wif childish acts and talks, probably an entertainment for neighbour that so peaceful and lack of such issue...
graduate from university should be high in spirit serving their country, bt found out tat, a lods of graduate didnt really wan to stay bac bt fly abroad, the so call brain drain...
the scence of tv ad, malay, chinese and indian kids play 2gether, does it really happen?or it jz imagination?look at our uni, malay play wif malay only, chinese wif chinese and indian wif indian..3 race only mix 2gehter during lecture and also discussion, no more...instead, each race is insulting other race at the back!
is this the malaysia tat being promote to other country?
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as the sole flag hanger at my block, being laugh by ppl->y u so patriotic?for wad u hang tat?no1 is doin tat!

izzit a sin to be patriotic??hah!izzit a shame to own an fly malaysian flag?
im proud to hang the flag...im proud to be malaysian(still), doh im nt happy wif hw the country being run...i will still support national team at international sport event, and cheer for thm...yea, the flag will be outside my window till the real malaysia day---16 september...the date which malaysia is formed!

personally, i do nt really agree wif celebration on 31 august, the real independence date should be 16 september, sabah and sarawak is part of malaysia..forgetting this date and choosing 31 august seem like sideline this 2 states..is so unfair!haha..anyway..im stil proud to be the sole malaysia flag hanger outside my block-yea!maybe whole uni, cox i didnt see any whr else gt flag hanging outside their room...

again quite sm time didnt write anythng..hah...quite a lods thngs happen...bt dunno whr to write...

2day make up my mind, for nt to consider anymore, decided to join the year end short term mission trip..yea, consider and thnkin to long wont bring up any solution, wad i can do is go or dun go..
den think of probably this is the last chance for me to join such trip, so i should grab the chance and go..yea, even doh it will make me dun haf much time for holiday and mapling, bt yea, probably it worth...or mayb i will regret for makin this decision some time ltr in the year, bt after makin the decision, regret wont make much diff anymore..hehe...
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thr smthng bad gona happen soon, and i really dunno wad to do...thngs tat shouldnt happen in choir, thngs tat jz crop up like tat...i dun wish ppl go away becox of such thngs..nooo...i hope i hope GOD will lead the way and show me hw to manage this properly...whueva see this do pray for my choir =)
i do love choir vry much, i do enjoy servin through choir, i do enjoy it a lods...i knw is the place for me compare other, ya, bt i do not want bad thngs happen to it, doh i knw im nt as gud as other ppl, im not as professional like other, im not as capable as other, bt i will try my best, i will learn, for GOD...
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looking fwd to QQ camp, 16 days left!yea!

i hate rain more and more~~!!!
2day, when goin for the class in the afternoon, the moment i step out my block, is still kinda sunny, a bit windy and cloudy..as i ride till near ktdi, it rain!!as i haf to go to class, i continue...until at n24, the rain is so heavy tat even car haf to drive like snail!!and me, of cox, like jz came out frm swimming pool...of cox i went to class like tat..sitting inside aircon from for 2 hr...swt, is not a gud feeling..
rain at the wrong moment is vry annoying!!!i jz love the sunny day!!

yea...i think i knw wad path i should take..bt den, here come another question, am i capable of taking this path??will it be 2 late for me to learn??or in the end is jz not the road tat GOD wan me to walk?

as i knw, when servin GOD in the praise and worship, choir, and stuff related to worship and music, i would be happy and try my best, thr a feeling of joy which i couldnt explain...
bt if change to missionary at rural area, gospel...i jz cant do it properly and havin some sort of tension when doin it...
doh thr still a lods for me to learn in praise and worship, music and choir, i hope GOD would lead me through it..i really do hope this is the place i should be and i willing to gif all of me to HIM...
mayb in the future, i hope one day, i can be like conductor lee, giving all his best at wad he capable of and glorify HIM...and yea, i do admire conductor lee style and his wisdom in the field of music...

my mousy!!!!died!!!after being peeled off..haha..time to get a new mousy~~~RIP blue mousey tat work for me for bout 1 year...hehe

wads the standard of making frend?sm1 tat u find when u are bored and 4gt when u gona meet gal??
ahh...i jz cant accept when sm1 goin out to eat wif gal tat he like and can 4gt or even ignore his frend, like we nvr knew each other....is not like i gona steal her frm u rite? or izzit im too bad for u to recognize as frend?tat i will ashamed u infront of d gal???oh pls...if i really go and after her, probably u cant stand a chance wif this kind of attitude...sry for i talk like tat cox im kinda really angry wif tat...
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anyway, is friday again...yea, choir camp is on the weekend, haha, excited bout it?erm, not really doh...jz like tat lo...dunno wad to be excited bout it currently except can go havin fun during free time?hehe...hope it will be enjoyable and let me learn smthng loh...
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kinda lods of thng pending currently, exam, thesis, assgnment...2 exam next week, 1 assgment ....as i go to class nvr listen or jz didnt attend d class, some serious study need to be done be4 d exam...ahh, the stress is building up, plus the choir camp took up 3 of the free day available, so yea, is really hard...
anyway, jz walk the road and everythng will be fine, happy go lucky..hehe

independence day of malaysia is near...is jz few day away, sad to hear tat this year will not haf any count down at dataran merdeka, due to bulan ramahdan and also influenza h1n1...well, probably the mood of celebration wont be tat high anymore...even in uni, nt many ppl hanging flag, my block only me and 1 another room below me hanging...kinda sad...probably nowadays student only care for study and exam and drama and games ONLY...anyway, early happy birthday to malaysia since im talking bout this..haha

choir camp is near, is tiring to becm a conductor as i dunno much also, wonder wad those choir members think bout my teachin...i really dunno wad to do, kinda sad and hate myself for bein so stupid...anyway, i jz do my best and tats all..other will be the work of GOD and HIS guidance...i do love choir bt when thinkin bout leadin it, it kinda make me stress and freak out smtime...is not easy as i duno whr to go and wad to do...smtime i jz cant express or point out the thng i wish it to be...or i jz purely duno wad to do wif it...ahh...thr so much to wry bout currently...

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p/s: HaPpY BiRtHdAy to Wu YonG~~

hehe..time to update a bit...

at last i fulfilled my own wish of havin a new hp~~yea, gt my new hp last saturday->W705, like it a lods..haha....hope it will last wif me for the next 2-3 years...gud luck my new hp~~

anyway, the trip to sg was fun, haha, jz walk a little bit 2 much as gt lost when heading to buyin the hp~~blek, next time should bring a map instead of walking around for nth...bt den, during the 'lost' period, been to sg national library..whoaaa, is a BIIIIGGGGG library, no idea gt hw many floor as we walk up to 7th floor only...the environment is soooo smoothin tat ppl love to go thr, not like msia, library environment make u so bored and sleepy...no wonder msia ppl dun like to read book except TV, DRAMA, and DOTA...

hmm...wad else, thr a lods of weird weird feeling around recently, feel like every1 is hiding thmself and facing ppl wif a 'mask', dun really like it...

rumour been flying all over in UTM
some say thursday utm will close, some say next week monday, some say mpp object, some say few fac edi close, some even say gt ppl died...
which is true??which is false??seem like most of thm is false..haha
personally i hope it wont happen as i heard my malay frends say raya gt 2 weeks holiday..hehe, dunno is true or not also, seem like is also another rumour...

anyway, this saturday will be goin to sg..yay..hehehe

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好听的话不一定有益处，难听的话也不一定是攻击，人是喜欢听好听的话，喜欢听夸奖自己的话，但为此而轻看了自己的责任，那肯定是无益的言语。。。
当初，领袖是我们自己选出，为何现在不忠心的服从？？要是这样，为何当初还选？？自己站出来做领导者不是更好吗？？

一些我很不明白的东西。。。哈哈
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yesterday nite is my cg gatherin + Lily bday..hehe...havin the gatherin at McD
almost all of the cg member attend, happy for all of thm to come for the cg group gatherin..hehe..anyway, thr few ppl not frm the cg attend also, not becox wanna join d cg or celebrate for Lily, instead they jz come for McD...not much comment on tat and they jz havin fun and 'syok' on thmself..haha..for me, i jz haf fun wif the few ppl beside me is enuf...hehe, cox i dun really understand wad they talk and laugh about -.-||| probably im nt tat gud in catchin those humor<<--mayb need to understand more on tat so tat i can laugh also =P
doh is yesterday, jz wish Lily another happy bday again loh..haha...wonderin she will ever find this blog add or nt...

den jz after the gatherin at McD, few of us decided to go for durian eatin..haha, yea, u heard, i mean u see tat rite, we go for durian...locatin jz behind the utm door, thr few stall sellin durian...doh is a teeny weeny bit expensive, the durian is extra nice and gud in quality...long time nvr ate such nice durian..haha..of cox i didnt touch durian for more than 2 years i think...XP is so nice tat probably i will go and eat again soon..hahaha

decided to go Sg and buy my new hp in coming saturday, any1 wanna join me??hehehehe...

last wednesday, went out to u-mall bought somethng for my senior convo..guess wad, we bought wine for our senior..haha...when happy wif the gift, i bought a small bottle of fruit+vodka drink...
yea, i bought alcoholic drink!!haha...even doh the drink contain only 5% alcohol, i drunk wif tat small amount, tsk tsk...fall into deep sleep instantly when reach my room...
anyway, this few day been thinkin of drink another bottle so that i can sleep like tat again, totally ignore and 4get everythng..LOL...feel like a bit addicted to the feeling of being drunk??hahaha...

once u break the seal of TRUST, u cannot reseal it anymore~~

yea, even if i wont angry or 4gif bout it, bt i knw i cant easily put the TRUST on u anymore...if u lie me 1st and tell me the truth ltr, its still a lie and breakin the TRUST i put, no matter wad reason u gif...is a credibility of a person in stake, when u tarnish it, it will be hard to regain it again...i can ignore the event of happening, bt i could not ignore the fact tat u betrayed d TRUST, and whu knw u might do it again in the future...

so i make my stand clear, and u agree and promised wif me to follow it, bt in the end the other way had happen, a clear betrayal on the TRUST i put, and hence it tarnish ur credibility, no matter wad reason u gif to justify the action, the fact is thr-->the seal u broke, it wont be mend and reseal again, nt in short time and hard work, no...

my close frend knw, i hate betrayal and lie on me, as tat nite i been apologizing for the trouble caused bt in d end i knw those apologizing is a waste and not worth for me to do it...givin me 'sweet promises' and 'blank agreement' is not a gud idea...i rather u dun inform me bout it, save up all d fuss...now everythng is too late, even if u dun tell me i also knw bout it...so, dun explain too much to me, save it for urself cox i dun need it...

hehe..on9 in class again, the 1st time in this class...

rearranging priority and rescheduling event/timetable...if i dun do this, i might burn out and lost the passion to do it anymore...currently in a mood/condition that wanna gif up everythng and ignore it, bt i knw i cant do this at least not until the end of the sem...may GOD continue to burn me and may HIS HOLY SPIRIT grant me the fire so that i can continue to had the passion to serve HIM and glorify HIS name...i do not wan to venture to area which will effectively put me out and freeze me like be4 again, no and no!

few ppls tat i always hang out wif when for camp..left me alone at here, kinda lonely smtime...as i dunno whu to hang out wif...
anway, they coming bac 2day...so hope they haf a pleasant and happy trip out thr..

noticing tat the haze didnt gone even after some heavy rain, instead, it becm more serious...sun in dark red colour, sky in grey colour...ahh...go go away haze!!probably ppl tat gt sick will raise again due to such weather condition...

wondering smthng...izzit sm1 lying to me??im nt sure bt im vry suspicious bout it...

vry gloomy weather...fog+rain+cloudy+rain
which also make my mood vry gloomy and emo, rather sit aside stay silence then becm active and laugh around...watchin ppl acting funny make me feel bored, stupid and childish...didnt feel funny at all when ppl try to be funny...doh smtime wish thr sm1 tat can sit beside me, and maybe listen or jz acc me to be silence...

thr sm important lesson heard 2day during prayer meeting...
when u becm a christian, it doesnt mean u r free frm disaster, accident or hardship..instead, it might becm more...dun compare the hardship u goin through, remember Jesus Christ endure way much more than wad we endure nw, ours is jz piece of cake compare to HIS...so dun complain and be faithful, the trouble we facing is not an excuse...

any1 noticing the change of weather recently??
early morning the sun is in red colour, the sunshine is in orange-ish yellow colour??
and is extra hot everyday???

HAZE is creeping back again...-.-|||
u can always see the sky is always covered wif a grey-coloured screen alike haze, making the brilliant blue sky becm greyish blue...

so every1 pls drink more water and take care of urself ^^

sick for few day, even doh almost recover edi, bt still havin sore throat...mind u is not the infectious h1n1..hehe...

anyway, feel vry touched 2day...tat sm1 knwing i havin sore throat, and buy me a bottle of honey to drink...for the 1st time, thr sm1 treat me extra gud..really touched..
to that sm1, thank you...u knw whu are u when u saw this...hehe, jz i dun wan say out d name ^^

this week been a bz week...seem like i fill every nite wif thngs to do...
tuesday->johore choral
wednesday->welcming nite
thursday->cg visitation
friday->choir
saturday->free?
sunday->probably lab discussion, yea lab need discussion too -.-|||
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anyway, been enjoyin much of the thngs...
lets start wif johor chorale..1st time go to this choir, of cox a bit nervous, thinkin that the pro conductor thr to *shruggg*
when reach thr, he ask me to test the voice, personally, in front of every1..eeeek! *even more nervous*
in the end, im a bass again..hehe...
practice few song, which is really hard...Elijah..learning few song of tat oratorio, edi sooo hard till i cant handle, really need some practice!!bt the song really nice..LIKE it!
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welcoming nite...
well, really dunno wad to say bout it..everythng go quite smoothly i guess...
haf fun myself, bt den didnt really knw much of the jr in d end again..haha, after all ima shy person..XP
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cg visitation...
as my cg is a new cg, we only haf 5 senior in d group and only 4 of us go for the visitation...bt den, the jr we met, they like so active and can jk wif us even if he/she didnt knw us at all...hope they will go for the cg welcming 2molo den we can nw thm better...anyway, love my cg currently as every1 is so nice~~haha
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choir...
wonder wad wil happen 2nite?i hope they all really learn their best and sing out their best...
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doh bz wif thngs like this, been worried bout all sort of thngs goin on in church...feel like ppl start to 4get bout their responsibility, messing up thngs, and dun even care bout it much again...sighh..currently i jz hope i can stay away and dun touch anythng relate to chaos...i will do my best for my part and hope that other will do the same also..after all, church is all bout GOD and love, if thr no love and only fullfil the job, is jz an empty shell wif no meaning...
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p/s: my motor is spoil and now lying flat in 'hospital'..swt!!!the 'doctor' say the 'medical fee' probably will reach 500-600...zzzz..crap!!!does tat mean my new hp gone??SOB!!!

a crossroad, which path should i take???
path tat i do my own thngs and ignore others?
path tat i should care more and be considered troublemaker by certain ppl??

hmmm...
thngs getting worse?or im jz worried too much???
would this crack widen and becm a canyon??
i wonder...doh it is nice to sit aside and watch, staying out of trouble, bt i think im nt tat kind of person able do tat...i rather being labeled as troublemaker than keep silence...hehe...

wait and see is wad i can do for this moment..i hope it wont disappoint me and expectation...i hope this is wad GOD plan and prepared for every1 of us...i hope i hope..yet now all is still a hope until the day has come...

remember whu u r
remember wad u haf been entrusted
remember this is not a game

end of july, here come august..
time is running out...
or maybe u wan a game over when the time u start to plan??

few question tat really need to think of

->we come to church coz of human or God?
->believe God coz of wat pastor say or wad bible say?
->how much u believe in God?? if now got ppl take d gun want to shoot u or ur family askin u to betray God, will u do it???

do ask urself seriously bout it~~

人，总是以自己的利益为先，正如人讲的，人不为己，天诛地灭。。
我在想，很多时候，为何不要退一步，吃亏一点，反而是更对的选择呢？？很多时候，人以为自己看清全部东西，认为自己站在所谓正义的一方，但很常这个时候，他的思想已经是被自私冲昏了，不能理智的看清大局，而一直在错误中陷下去。。
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最近，刚回到大学，发觉很多东西不对劲，很多东西都是一团遭，为什么身为基督徒的人，思想的中心不是 神，而是自己？为什么总是在背后一直指责，在面前装成另一面，难道身为领袖的我们应该这样吗？？在教会搞出政治？？这就如圣经讲的纷争结党吧？？虽然我不想陷入这个纠纷，但如果继续下去，相信得胜的不是其中一方，而是魔鬼，弟兄们（姐妹们）难道你们不知道背后批评，纷争结党只会把一个团契，教会弄得到处都是破口？？我很爱我的团契，我的教会，我不希望我离开着大学时，团契教会将因为纠纷，分派而没落，我看见很多新的基督徒学弟学妹，我很开心，但不希望因为前辈的问题，弄到他们受苦。。
可能看这篇文章的人觉得我没有资格说这些，但我无法不说出我所担心的东西，可能你说我不了解什么事情发生，无论是什么，都应该记得圣经说告诉我们的教诲。。
要记得，为自己的利益所作的，将会过去，变为粪土，但为 神所作的，将得到赏赐。。。身为基督徒的我们，必须要记得，我们所作的，尤其是我们的事奉，不是为自己，而是为 神的教会，如果我们没有做好自己的本分，上帝指责下来，没有人能担当的起！破坏 神的教会更没人能承担，如果因为你的行为，而导致教会出现问题，当见主面时，你能向上帝交待吗？
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给我自己的提醒，要常常反省自己~听取别人的意见，批评，因为当局者迷，局外者清~无风不起浪，一个意见，批评不是随便就这样出现的。。。当然对者就要改进，错者就成提醒。。。因我所作的，是主的工，轻曼不得。。。 神是全能的神，是万物的主，如果你献上次等的，将是不配的祭物。。。想想看，当你去见一个国家的王，你敢穿得随便，献上便宜的东西吗？肯定不会，更何况是全世界的王？？

tiring day~
a lods of stuff happen 2day..
most interesting would be campus-wide blackout...2day having a few hours of electricity cut at everywhr...well, most exciting part(ya, exciting) is 1 of my coursemate man-trapped inside the lift...for half an hour...

other than tat, would be running here and thr doin stuff...

kinda angry and sad when found out a lods of thngs spoil at church...feel like no1 is bother bout taking care of the church's property and simply use it...now thngs broken and money need to be spent either to replace or repair it, which could be avoided!!
wonder wad i can do bout it...

back at utm at last..
hehe..so happy to be back here...

miss all of my frend so much...they all still as charming as eva..hehe..happy to gather and talk wif thm once again..having fun chit chat and play around..hehe, nvr a sec is wasted when being wif thm ^^

new room this sem, is a vry nice room, clean (er, i mean QUITE clean), nice view->basically overlook the road below, which i able to see whu pass by and wad happen below, spacious...
the bad thngy is mosqitoes id flying around!!i hope they will be gone soon after i exterminate thm!

even doh happy to be bac, thr smthng i kinda mad wif
for no reason, thngs dissapear and stuff is spoil in church..hw can this happen in jz 2 month when im not around?!ppl jz dun take care of thngs when is not own by thm..terrible!remember those thngy in church is belong to church and GOD, destroying it, losing it is the very last thng u wanna do!
beside, i feel quite uneasy bout thngs running around..jz feel ppl taking lightly of their responsibility again...doh nt really sure wad happen bt i jz can feel it...hope is nt true, hope wad im thinkin and felt is not true at all..

anyway, happy to be back and enjoy being wif all my frends around!!!hehehe...love u all!!!
well, almost...bt im trying my best ok..hehe XP

ahh....why thr is soooo many mosquitoes around??is like an army of mosquitoes is attking the neighbourhood!!!
jz last nite alone, my sis kil 10 of thm in the room, and they keep coming...2day, u can always see 1 flying around~~ahhh!!!
THIS IS MADNESS!!!!MOSQUITOES MADNESS!!!

->any1 haf method to kill this mosquitoes??preferably creative way to torture thm..muahaha

thursday~~

2 more days den i will be bac to UTM~~hmmm, i wonder wad will happen when i go bac..will is be vry much diff??will it haf lods of surprise which i dun expect??or jz plain o' UTM??

read a news bout 9 student bein arrest in UPM for distributing Christianity pamphlet..im sure those student knw nt to distribute such stuff to malay-islam, bt still they being arrested...this is a warning sign~~a bad omen...i hope it wont turn from bad to worse in near future~~

wonder wad i should bring bac this sem~~any idea???

been a few day lods of ants crawling all over the table, my lappy, and my cup, food..argghh...MY FOOD AND DRINKS!!!

bt den, yesterday afternoon they being to greedy, which bring thm to their doom!!
as i leave my cup of plain water on the table and when to nap, by the time i wake up, the whole cup is full of ants!!i mean WHOLE CUP, full of moving black insect, crawling all over!!make me so mad, tat even plain water also wan to steal..

so decided to follow their path...which lead to a box near the table..bingo, i found their nest!!haha..end up, the whole nest of ants is destroyed!!yay, no more ants crawling...tat is y greed is dangerous...hehehe...
dun be greedy~~

friday~
ya, 2day is the last day of Practical training~~
happy?yes, of cox, at last no more boring sitting in office do nth life~~
well, thinkin of 1 more week ahead be4 goin back UTM, make me feel kinda, empty..
do hope i can go bac soon,hahaha
wonder wad happen back their~~

nth much happen recently doh..hehe

04/07
america independence day..nt related...
i should be back in utm by this date, as new semester is starting in coming monday, bt still im still sittin at home, playin..haha..due to industrial practical lurhh...
anyway, even doh im still nt back yet, i wish i could get back faster...at the mean time, unable to be at utm make me worried bout the thngs tat i suppose to take care wif...i wonder if everythng will be ok...this make me so worried, and each passing day, it becm more and more...-.-|||

another song frm lion king 2 which i like very much
One Of us->the judgement of exile on kouvu

ANIMALS:
Deception
Disgrace
Evil as plain as the scar on his face

ZEBRAS:
Deception (An outrage!)

ANIMALS:
(He can't change his stripes!)

GIRAFFES:
Disgrace (For shame!)

ANIMALS:
(You know these Outsider types!)

HIPPO:
He asked for trouble the moment he came

ANIMALS:
(See you later, agitator!)

ZEBRAS:
Deception (An outrage!)

ANIMALS:
(Just leave us alone!)

GIRAFFES:
Disgrace (For shame!)

ANIMALS:
(Traitor, go back with your own!)

HIPPO:
He asked for trouble the moment he came

ANIMALS:
(See you later, agitator!)

ANIMALS:
Born in grief
Raised in hate
Helpless to defy his fate
Let him run
Let him live
But do not forget
What we cannot forgive

And he is not one of us
He has never been one of us
He is not part of us
Not our kind

Someone once lied to us
Now we're not so blind
For we knew he would do what he's done
And we know that he'll never be one of us

ANTELOPE:
He is not one of us

ANTELOPE:
Deception

ZEBRA:
Disgrace

ANTELOPE:
Deception

ZEBRA:
Disgrace

ANTELOPE:
Deception

RAFIKI:
Oohh...
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i tot after 2 month of break, thng will becm better, ppl will improve, and change
bt apparently im wrong, thng nvr change, and the problem continue~
really a big disappointment, i tot everythng is renewed and 2gether can strive out a new path to glorify the GOD, bt....
i hope the event will not ended like kouvu, being exiled....

Title:we are one
from lion king 2

As you go through life you'll see
There is so much that we
Don't understand

And the only thing we know
Is things don't always go
The way we planned

But you'll see every day
That we'll never turn away
When it seems all your dreams come undone

We will stand by your side
Filled with hope and filled with pride
We are more than we are
We are one

If there's so much I must be
Can I still just be me
The way I am?

Can I trust in my own heart
Or am I just one part
Of some big plan?

Even those who are gone
Are with us as we go on
Your journey has only begun

Tears of pain, tears of joy
One thing nothing can destroy
Is our pride, deep inside
We are one

We are one, you and I
We are like the earth and sky
One family under the sun

All the wisdom to lead
All the courage that you need
You will find when you see
We are one
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meaningful and lovely song~~yea..
we are one..
we can be zebra, antelope, rhino, lion..bt we are one..living under the same sky and sun, in a big family...-ps:pls ignore the fact that lion eat animal, kindly assume they dun eat each other-

even jz within a church, diff ppl frm diff background and thinkin, bt we are one~~we live under the same sky GOD cr8-ed, we are one when serving our GOD...
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We are one, you and I
We are like the earth and sky
One family under the sun
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holiday is coming to an end~ya...in fact, some ppl had edi gone back to jb, preparing welcoming activity...
so fast, yea, is jz like the holiday jz started yesterday and 2day edi ended~~hah, anyway, i dun really haf a nice holiday, since this industrial practical is kinda torturing~uhhm, maybe torturing is nt the correct word to use, bt still, i hate i dun haf anyday i can wake up late in d morning..and no afternoon nap also...well, im a sleeper after all..hahaha

well, wad haf i done in d so called holiday??
errm...
nth much...
monday till saturday everyday go to work..stuck in traffic jam, sit in office search for info, play game, fb-ing...kinda bored rite...bt happy wif havin fun in maple,this game would nvr bored me out..haha
since holiday coming to an end, lets dun talk bout it anymore..

coming semester, i do haf lods of anticipation~
1. new jr coming in~~haha..this would be the thngy tat ALL ppl wanna knw-whu are thm?hw many?my course gt whu?frm whr?for guy, is thr any pretty 'still available' gal?for gals, errm, frankly i dunno bout wad gal think bout this doh..haha
2. new semester subject~~ahh, another totally new subject to be learned, new time table (im free on friday this sem,haha), new lecturer teaching
3. welcoming activity in church~~sadly, YA VRY SAD AND DEPRESS BOUT IT, tat i cant join d welcoming activity~since im only back after 2 week uni reopen~welcoming nite, doh haf no idea wad is goin to be
4. new cg!yea!new and totally renews cg!!excited when think bout it, bt oh well, i hope everythng gone smooth...hoping the problem happen last 2 semester will not occur agian after newly revamp cg~and also adding of new jr to the cg~~
5. choir~~yaa, this is the thngy i care most and like most~changing a bit of thngy, i wonder will they able to accept and lods of lovely sweet song to be sung in coming sem
6. interesing activity for fellowship~seen d activity for the whole next sem and it make me excited~~haha..hope it goes as planned,a nd also hope tat those jr will participate..hehe
7. QQ camp~~goin to cameron highland~~wooo, bt be4 tat, fear of dizziness when climbing hill and moutain~~bt still, lookin fwd to it~~

the list nvr end uh?haha be patient, gona end soon

8. buying new hp!!!yea, this time the dream is getting nearer wif money frm practical, and mayb allowance frm fac too<9. christmas activity!!yea, the most liked festival for me~since gona haf christmas at johor this year, wad can i do and should do at church??hmmm...
10. church;s fellowship and choir election->vry worrisome and uhh...i vry worried bout it~lets all pray for it

ok 10 would be enuf for nw~~did i missed out any for coming sem??hmm..add it when i think of any ltr~~tat all for now..

lets make some wish list for coming sem~
1.new hp!!
2.haf more than 5 chinese jr in my course!
3.go to sg at least once!
---------2 much wish is nt a gud idea rite?lets jz hope for these 3 1st..

->hope i can serve and glorify GOD even more in d coming sem..yay
really lookin fwd to go back UTM wif so much anticipation!!
doh thinkin bout the food..yuck!

yesterday, the list for new intake of local university is released..haha..wonder whu will be taking my course..izzit a lods?or again only 1 jr again??attended 大专之夜 yesterday and 9 ppl whu gona go to UTM attend too...all gal bt no engineering student..haha..hope really haf more jr next sem, to hype up the course activity..haha

anyway, yesterday lunch at company is extra nice...fried rice, fried noodle, pizza, KFC, cheezy wedges, and dun left out the ice cream!!woo..haha...eat all u can!

and i wan allowance frm my fac!!!FKA having rm700-1000++, QS having rm800++ where is FKKKSA?!NOT FAIR NOT FAIR NOT FAIR!!!!

i found this song which i like so much
i like not only its melody and instrument, but also its meaning...haha
no idea hw old is this song, bt oh well, i like it a lods
probably it sing out wads in my heart..

Title :Fall For You
Artist :Secondhand Serenade

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Ohh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I'm yours to keep
And hold on to your words 'cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind

Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

is been a month++ holiday had passed~
is been a month++ i didnt seen my frends~
kinda feel bad for so lonely after 1 month wifout talk wif frend~
doh fb and msn can connect ppl, bt it still fail to satisfy the need of socializing~after all human is a social species~~hehehe

anyway, found a lods of old frend in fb, bt i wonder if i can ever b so gud wif thm after separated for so long?

hehe..
been to cinema and watch movie last sunday...
night in the museum 2...
no bad, kinda funny and interesting...bt comparing to the 1st episode, is not tat gud actually..it missed out a lods of detail and they kinda jz focus on the guy..beside, the ending is also not tat gud....if im not mistaken, all those 'exhibit' is needed to be near wif the plaque, bt ahh...some time, they jz can be so far away frm the plaque to be alive again...anyway, the bad guy is funny and kinda stupid..haha...dumb dumb evil pharaoh...LOL...
and the epic 1 is the sculpture of 'The Thinker' which keep saying 'im thinking....iiim thiinnkkingggg....iiiimmmm tttthhhhiiinnnkkkiinnggg'
hahaha...

yesterday, my lecturer come to my company and pay a visit..haha...lol, luckily the lecturer tat came is nice to talk wif...so is a fun rather than scary and torturing session..i think she satisfy wif me at here, so i can sort of enjoy again..haha~~
wondering wad to do 2day...is so bored again~~~

i kinda dissapointed on wad had my church becm to, in pnw...
last time im so proud of my church pnw, so lively and really can bring ppl in praise and worship, bt now..it make me cant even concentrate on praising...seem like they nt even practice and prepare for it...musical instrument and the leader are totally walk in diff path, dun say between leader and the ppl help her sing...since i back.bass guitar, elec guitar, organ..is totally abandoned...the drum, zzz...except the piano, other is totally in a mess...sad for it..wonder whr did all the talented gone to?!!!

anyway...1 msg on tat day..which is vry nice and important
dun compare ur suffering~~~GOD's grace is always enuf for u to live through...thr no need for u to compare wad u haf suffer with other...GOD gif u wad u can handle and wish u can glorify HIM through it..so..wadeva hardship and sufferin u havin..turn to GOD and belif HE is in reign...

有时，很常看到的时候就不会去想太多，但分开久了之后，就会觉得为何以前不会好好珍惜在一起的时间？？
很常很常，我会很想念，每次问自己，为何以前不好好珍惜，到现在很少机会看到了。。。

尤其是泗里街的朋友，我超想念你们的-〉德明，明龙，威望，shirley，国智，国伟，amy，恬美，还有很多很多，要写下全部人的名，可能写也写不完。。不懂你们现在如何。。。很久没有回去泗里街了，不知你们还记得我吗？？不记得的话肯定飞回去咬你们，哈哈！！尤其是明龙，德明，你们2个算是我最好的朋友吧，好想以前到处去玩的时间。。还有国智，很想在继续和你一起在教会服事，因和你一起服事是很开心的。。。

再来就是在永平的朋友->思亲，彤伦。。。啊，我也超想念你们2个，人在johor，但就是不能去到你们那边。。。也比较少msg你们了，希望可以多点联络啊。。。要加油哦！！

然后还有大学的朋友，虽然只是假期，但没看见一个月了，不知你们大家如何？？假期过的怎样？practical遇到什么？？哈哈。。。

看来一个人孤孤单单的在这边，好寂寞哦。。。

post number 200TH!!!wooo...
haha...
another milestone reached....

anyway, weather in kch is kinda wierd...morning can rain heavily, hot sun in the afternoon, heavy rain again in the evening...currently having a heavy downpour outside...manage to back at office in time..or else.....
anyway, talkin bout heavy rain, yesterday kch havin a extra scary thunderstorm...4-5 big trees bein uprooted on the way back to my home...causing heavy traffic jam, luckily is not on my side..haha...unfortunately, the thunder struck and causing 1 of the lappy in my house dead...

hope the rain stop soon..hehe

woo...this is post number 199..
haha..didnt realize i wrote so much edi..

anyway...im still sitting at office..doing nth!
pass up my log book, presentation tat done last week...
currently waiting for the technician to be free..supervisor say he will bring me and run through qc test..haha..bt no idea when..so currently jz on9 and play maple...


hey hey frends in kch!when all of u free..i miss all of u...when can go out and minum minum??

suddenly i realize also..i dun really like chinese song much...i check through my music list, i think 60% of it is english song, 20% of it is classical music..only 20% left is chinese pop song and praise and worship in chinese...lol...probably english song style suit me better...
well..any1 gt any nice english music to introduce??Haha

is funny and weird to say this, bt i jz cant feel like this..
i wanna go bac johor faster and escape this practical...well, mayb can ignore the johor part bt i dun wan practical edi..is soo boring and nth much to do except sitting and surfin internet...well, mostly mayb i also miss all my frend far far away at utm...so long nvr meet thm beside few chatter in msn...wonder hws every1 doin...play whole day?sleep whole day?haha...

is vry complicated...bt no matter wad...my heart is still d same 2wards u...even doh im totally not in ur mind, bt i dun care as i wish u will b most happy eva ppl in d world, as tat would b my happiness...

weee...so long nvr post..haha..having 'blogging holiday'...lol..new term..haha
anyway..everyday 'bz' for practical lo...bz in term of goin office and sit...den go back...nth big to do..can say i on9 whole day at office also...cox all the task given to me is search thngs frm internet...since the practical period is kinda short, supervisor also say cant gif any big project for me to do..oh well, i jz enjoy my 'holiday' in my office bah..hehe...
jz hope this practical faster finish lo..den i not need to wake up so early everyday!!!

ps:mapleSEA is having a epic patch..cant wait for it..hope thrs no delay and bug in patching...looking fwd to it...

hehe...2nd day of practical...
finish my environment monitor report and now gt nth to do again...
lol...i haf no idea y they dun gif me smthng to do...is bored sitting here..haha...
anyway..lucky can on9...

ps:i cant stand the quietness in the office...cant they play sm music or wad?

few day at home...is nice to be at home..
doh i miss smthng when im nt at home also~~haha
my lappy been sent to 'hospital' for check up~~wonder hw it doin in d 'hospital' currently..haha, did d 'doctor' found out wad wrong wif it??anyway, i miss more of d song 'inside its belly'~~been few day wifout music!!torturing!!!tat y ppl say no music no life!!
beside, wonderin hw's every1..been a week didnt see every1, miss each and every1 of thm~~

also->looking fwd to next week practical...excited, yet nervous...
->again i haf another bad dream...nt a nitemare doh, bt is a bad dream..this time is diff scene, bt still is smthng tat i dun wish to happen...ahhh...y thr so much bad dreams recently??swt...

yea...holiday is officially started..(even doh i assume i havin holiday like 1 week ago edi)..haha
doh even holiday is started, i jz cant feel tat happy...well..no idea why..maybe thr smthng i worried bout...
nvm..count down to my flight->6 hours to go!!!

-->i really hope my bad dream will not come true...really really dun wan!!i still wonderin y this bad dream stil stick to my memory till nw...

hehe...
Sunday~~
having a bad dream last nite..err, probably in the morning...cant say is a nitemare, bt is smthng tat i dun wish to happen...dreaming bout it doesnt mean it will happen rite?hope so...really hope it will nvr happen..usually i wont remember anythng bout wad i dreamed, bt not this time..it stick in my mind till nw..clearly and it seem so real...
anyway, be4 the bad dreamed ended, bein woke up by a phone call..and guess wad, i only left 10min be4 exam start..OH maNz..i overslept!!!for the 1st time, i almost missed my exam...is kinda scary doh..haha..anyway, i manage to reach the examination hall in 5minutes, which usually take me 10-15min to reach...

left 1 more exam to go..ahh, it is time..

heh...
again another exam on sunday~~
uhh...again they disrespect~~while asking ppl to respect thm
wad a hypocrite...by taking a ride on the law and majority they jz simply push other around, championing justice bt instead is injustice to other...

anyway, i hope it end fast...3 day left be4 im back in kch~playin maple..haha...

found this song while watchin some maple video at youtube~~
and fall in love with it~~~
The Great Escape by Boys Likes Girls~~
is really nice~~if only i haf a great escape from the current exam....


Title :The Great Escape
Artist :Boys Like Girls

Paper bags and plastic hearts
All are belongings in shopping carts
It's goodbye
But we got one more night
Let's get drunk and ride around
And make peace with an empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
It's so good to be by your side
But we'll cry
We won't give up the fight
We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think it's just cause we're young
And we'll feel so alive

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

3 consecutive exam had past~~
left 2 more..hehe..
actually quite happy wif wad i did in my exam~~
at least much better and more confident than last 2 sem..hehe
hope it come out to be fine norh...

bt 2day smthng bad happen~~
i broke my tooth into half...zzzzz
hw can a bone appear inside a chicken chop?!
wifout taking care of the bone, i chew..den..end up breakin my tooth into 2...the broke off part end up becm part of my dinner...duhhh...
y such stupid thngy can happen!!!
arggghhh!

exam ~~~
officially start 2molo..err, 2day since past 12am edi~~
exam on sunday~zzz
y muz on sunday???not respectin Christian at all -.-|||
this is the day tat GOD had made!!a day meant for rest~~
bt yet....
i wonder if havin exam on friday noon, wad wil they react???mayb sue the exam organizer??is so unfair even doh they talking bout unity and equalization...DOUBLE STANDARD!!!

很多事
不是我想要的
但是
还是发生了
它
永远不是我
能掌握的
唯一
让我继续走下去的
只有这相信

生活就是那么无奈

smtime ppl are juz weird...
met sm1 tat is soooo childish tat seem like he still in sec sch!!
dunno la..protective over his gf??
bother ppl gf is the last thngy i will eva do..smore is a gal tat i dun like..gif me cash i also not interested...hey, dun worry..i wont touch ur gf!!!!

really..lame la this kind of ppl....cant stand it...

beside, the last thngy u can do is also shoot GOD's servant..i cant stand watchin ppl comment false and wrong thngy bout my pastor/rev...even doh long long time be4 i did tat, bt nw i knw this is vry wrong...no matter wad, they are handpicked by GOD to do HIS work...right or wrong, i cant comment..even king David didnt kill King Saul, we as GOD ppl, we haf no right to att GOD's servant...this is so wrong!!!

far over the horizon~
deep into the darkness of the night~
the moon is climbing up slowly~
glowing faintly~
casting a silver lining over the restless ocean~

sitting on a sandy beach~
staring into the ocean~
where my mind left only with pounding sound of waves~
splashing onto the beach~
filling the air with salty diamond~
sparkling under the shining moon~

i heard the wave~
giving me warning~
telling me that i wont make it~
where the future is determined~
which i will never reach~
the moon that i admired so much~

over and over~
louder and louder~
the wave whisper~
but my heart is determined~
changing the warning~
into my strength~
wander the darkness of ocean~
i find my way~
to the silver moon that i love~

even though the darkness might elude me~
even though the ocean might consume me~
even though the moon will disappear~
but i will try my best~
seeking what i have been looking for~
till the very last breathe of mine~

hehe..went to Kuantan yeterday and back 2day~~
is tiring-super extra long journey-around 6 hours drive!!!!
bt den, vry happy cox every1 is enjoying d trip~~
watchin every1 enjoying and haf fun~~is a joy and happiness to me~~they are my choir member after all...workin hard to satisfy my requirement and standard..working hard to gif their best to GOD through their voice~~they deserve a nice outing..hehe
anyway..i hope tat they will continue and do their best to serve GOD through their voice and choir~~is my wish tat they will becm the best choir eva around here, cox they are the best!!!!

ps:kuantan is kinda fun...2 bad cant meet up manja juju at thr..hahaha, next time bahh..hehe

wanna add smthng--->why malaysia gt all kind of weird weird name for places???i saw 2 vry funny name-->sungai miang and kampung gajah mati...swt, wonder whu gif such name...

the symbol of cross->a glorified cross~~~

at last is done!!
it turn out to be fine~~the Easter Sunday~~
hehe...so happy tat every1 work hard on it and is a successful Sunday Service~~
hope tat every1 appreciate and experience through this special Sunday~~~
anyway, may all glory unto GOD which has risen frm death and conquered sin!!!!!
may GOD bless every1 that work hard on it and continue to serve HIM more than eva!!!

dun wan 2 write much~~
vry vry vry tired..really..
i cant take it much more~~~
i hope i can stand it till Sunday~~~
wish sm1 to understand this~~~

i cant stop worry-ing...
uhh...2day gt a choir practice, bt im stuck inside utm, waitin for presentation class...zzzz
i hope everythng turn fine when im not around..
i hope every1 will practice and learn hard for GOD..
i hope i can be there 2 T_T

found a very spectacular view around uni again~~
this time is also tree~~
tree that crowned with yellow flower...
waving gracefully along with the motion of winds..
like an elegant prince inspecting his country~~~

the tree grow high, high high up to the sky~~
covered with bright green coloured leaves~~
crowned with bright yellow coloured flower~~
from the top to the toe~~
like a royal family~~~~
standing firm, protecting its soil~~

u can see this around KTHO or the high way along the backdoor of UTM..hehe

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who am i in ur eyes?
wonder....
important?or juz sm stranger?or juz sm passer-by??
hmm....
smtime dunno whu to trust, smtime dunno whu is ur true frend..
apparently when ppl jk and laugh seem they are close and gud frend, bt the truth is gud frend require more than tat...
smtime when u needed ppl will call or ask u to come, after tat, they nvr care...this is no gud frend...
i wonder hw many ppl truly care......
feel so lonely.....

twitching english~~
haha, for ppl around me, mostly of ue might be wondering y my engliSh haF soo muCh spelLing misTake..well, ie did it purposely~~hah, beAr wiF my eNgliSh as ie lIke iT thids weay...TwItchinG d spElLing iS kiNda fUn foR me, By chAnginG its lEtTer wif Smthng else
ThR anOther stYle For mY EnglIsH, whiCh i LikE To aDd a LeTter 'y' beHind A Word~~and AlSo i Haf LodS oF rAndoM cApiTal LeTtEr likE The WaY iE WriTing dis Now..
Thr a Lods oF shortform im using all d TimE~jZ Ask mE whEn u DUn uNderStAnd d wordy~~
*miXeD 2 Much WiF tEen tAt uSe shOrtForm aLl thE time, i lEarN moSt of The SHortfoRm and Twitchin FrM tHm, MosTly FrM mAplEsTory..hah*
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For tHose Knw me frM mAplE, bear Wif thIs as Most Ppl At my AgE duN uSe those TwitchiN and ShoRtfoRm likE uee DO~~
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this is soo random~~juz sUddEnly wAnnA wRite WholE buNch oF thNgy wIf RanDom CaPs anD TwItch~~

calling myself pikachu bt not acting like pikachu is so wrong rite??
so decided to learn the attitude of pikachu~~
haha..wads tat??
pikachu only follow his master, do wadeva his master ask, and ready to sacrifice for his master...pikachu dun care wadeva other look at him, wadeva other talk bout him, whether other accept him or nt..cox pikachu whole life is bound to his master...
so..i muz learn it~~~only live for my master, ALMIGHTY GOD~~

for a while i feel im d most happy and joyful ppl...
next second i feel im d most sad and emo ppl...
ahhh...
been through the most joyful time this sem for the whole 3 year...
currently feel the most sad time this sem for the whole 3 year...

mayb this is life...yea, mayb this is wad i haf to go through...
nvm...i walk on...and disappear into the darkness of sorrow...

->looking at the picture of cats, feelin they are the most happy creature in the world...

emo?negative thnkin?...i dunno..bt is juz i dun like it...
bah..i may juz disappear and gone 4eva...leavin everythng behind and not doin it anymore...seem like im not part of it, seem like im not in d pack, seem like im juz an outsider, seem like im an alien...i knw im too sensitive bt i cant help thinkin of tat...let me disappear............let me find my own place of joy and peace, sm1 tat understand me, sm1 i can share wif, sm1 tat wont reject....

i knw is late and i should be sleeping now, considering been out frm 10am till 12.30am...well, thr smthng i muz write or im sure i cant sleep well...

is being bz and tired day recently...
really tired...really, really........
test, presentation, test, case study, more test, and EVEN MORE test....
let me count, 2 test 2 week before, 3 test last week, 2 more this week...1 presentation last week, 1 presentation this week, 1 presentation next week...1 case study due Tuesday...my gosh...juz looking at the list make me headache edi!!!
not to include, Good Friday, Easter Sunday, Final Year 'afternoon' gathering, 2 more choir practice before Easter Sunday...uhhhhh...
look like my planner is fully filled..hah..

even doh is fully filled, i dun haf much complain, since i knw thr always ppl tat even MORE fully filled planner than me..hehe..thr nth for me to complain if compare to others, whoever tat is..hehe....

but i knw at the tense like this, im easily burst out, either becm vry emo, or yelling at ppl...it happen few day ago, when i notice ppls didnt really take their responsibility on their job..well, mayb at their point of view, is a vry valid and gud reason, but really i didnt seen it like tat...is a crap and lame reason for me..yea, i did yell and scold, pointin directly at ppl...bt i really cant stand when ppl didnt really do their best, especially when serving GOD...no, the reason is not enuf to escape tat..no, no way!u may blame me, u may point me back, bt still, my stand stand firm as wad i say..assignment and next day exam is not enuf to be a reason to skip your choir practice..is a NO!tat my last word for it...

ok..time to sleep...
i miss you so much...

EpiC joke~~

cant StoP lAughing at this...wonder if really a student do tat wad will happen to the teacher.......

hot hot hot~~
expecting to rain later in the evening..hehe...so is a nice weather to sleep...lol
as usual being bz this few day, thr 2 many exam cramp 2gether..sighh...
2molo gt another 1, instrument....non stop exam...uhhh!!!!
anyway, next week is Good Friday and Easter Sunday...looking forward to it yet vry worried...dunno everythng planned can be carry out or will be in disaster..hope everythng turn out to be ok....
for the time being, enjoy sleeping..haha...no1 wanna miss out this ideal sleeping time rite??heh...

oh ya..add-in
HapPy BirThDaY tO ciNdy~~haha..even doh ie knw u dun surf till this page, bt still, i wish u a vry joyful and blessful BiRtHdaY..heh...
-->seem like ApRil is a birthday month too..

thr a lods of exam recently...
and i cant really take it much...
im not tat gud at handle the stress of exam...
uhh..i hate exam!!
i wish, i wish...all this will pass quickly!!hehe...
i hope, i hope...1 day u will understand 2!!

well, funny is i been listening to Christmas song...
yea..Christmas song at the begining of April...i feel weird also..haha..nvm..changing it soon...bt still, Christmas song is nice....

new week haf come~~
expected to be a bz week...
test, case study, Easter day preparation..uhh...
wad can do is to walk it through day by day~heh...
holiday is coming soon
looking forward to it but mixed wiTh some sAdness in it~~
is juz a vry weird kind of mixing
part of me wish it to come but other wish it will nvr come..
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你的一个笑容，
虽然短暂，
但却深深烙在我心，
虽然夜深了，
却仍然感觉甜蜜~~

你的一句话，
虽然简单，
却深深印在我脑海，
虽然短短的一句，
却让我感觉开心不已~~

纵然每次看见你，
都没机会和你说上几句话，
但希望你知道，
我非常在乎你，
哪怕你对我的，
只是一个微笑，
一句再见，
我已心满意足了~~
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one of the unluckiest day...mayb bad day...to me...
be4 wake up, edi gt scold..reason??smthng which i did not do....
ahh..imagine being scold when u having some sweet dream...is totally *toot*

den back frm class, found out tat my room's door is spoil!i cant even open it...end up i climb d window to enter my room..wooo...4th floor..is kinda high..haha..bt dangerous also..hope i dun need to do tat anymore in this few day as the door wont be fixed till monday...

den...the event continue..
now is water shortage...i cant even bath!!!is juz sooo weird ...for no reason, the water supply is cut off...not only my block, but other block near my kolej also..haha...

is juz vry vry unlucky la....